i've already said sorry
you dont wanna accept it what you wnat me to do
you think i dont wanna go clubboing?
i want i want i want!
damn it
understand please.
fuck it luh

DAMN!
hdyulkmxc iufhvdyuvfjoisakihsdiusa,mcx!!!!!!

i just dont understand
is it a curse or what
everytime i say something nice,
nothing nice happens
next time i should just shut up
dont wanna say anything anymore.
whats the point
you do doent mean that i dont
you dont doesnr mean that i do
crap, i've got no idea what i'm talking abt
whatever.


fuck fuck fuckady fuck fuck.
damn it

hello!
i'm alone at baby's house,
she went to the gym with bj
and i'm waiting for my turn to get massaged by this lady that came over
CLEAN MASSAGE (:

anyway,
fatsy,
i know what you've gave in for me,
you will treat me better,
so will i.
i think i can finally see our future(:
i love you fatsy
hope you don't overwork yourself at the gym
hahah
<3

hey baby,
i love you (:
hope all these will last
&& not be just a dream.

hellooooooooooooooooooooooo (:
i'll update before my tagboard gets flooded
hahah.
people i pass my o's okay.
hope i get into the course i want
the course i want isn't in rp, where my beloveds are
but i dont mind being in that sch with you all too
haha
17 is coming. hahaha ninethmonth. (:
chinese new year is like next week
&&& i haven't buy any clothes yet
what should i buy.

i'll update soon. (:
dont worry i wont update next year or 1000 years later
CAUSE i have a LAPTOP with me now (((((:

someday my prince will come,
i'll be able to find true love & happiness,
my life can be a fairytale,
with no things to worry about right?

Right?
who can you answer me, assure me?

this is so frustrating.
is it just so difficult?
all i need is just simple, very simple assurance

i'm going to explode
who can i confide
i dont like whatever thats happening to me
i dont wanna give away zola

why is it so hard to find someome that understands
fuck everything luh!

i feel lost
i dont know,
whether is my mind just playing a fool on me
or
its happening.
i wanna confront, i wanna know
i wanna feel all secure
but at the same time,
i'm afraid, afraid to lose it all

what should i do?


imissyou

ATTICA TOO

there is one more photo in baby's phone
haha
anyway attica too was quite boring luh
and i swear my feet was killing me
darius was pissed drunk
darius saidd these in the cab:
i am darius wong,
i have long hair,
i am god of gamblers.
blah blah blah. all the delusional stuff
then we said we were hungry, he said he cannot take it alr want to go home and sleep
and this is what he said!
:: you all go home and eat, i go coffeeshop and sleep
totally opposite
hahahhaha
okay luh okay luh
classic!

i swear i'm putting on weight!
so is shai, darius and baby
hahahah. we eat like non stop one luh
good life.
hahaha, ya right
neways,
i'm forbidden to eat chilli for a week!
cause of my stomach.
BLAH!!!!
these few days have been staying over at baby;s place
that idiot locked the door ytd, packed all my things one side and didnt let me home!
and waking you up is so damn difficult!
i tried to wake you up since 8 to like nearly 10 luh
you went to work, i finally sleep in comfort and peace!
hahahahhahahah
chinese o's was okay.
hopefully i dont need to take again luh
hahah,
oral i was damn screwed, although my exminer was jac yip
i was damn stuck when it came to picture
but she didnt command on my picture
weird. haha

tomorrow i am going to school!!!
finally!!!
tomorrow is going to be exciting exciting exciting!
especially after sch right JIAYING!
hahaha.

i'm like craving for chocolate(boost), mango sago pomelo thingy!
all the sweet stuff luh. and chinatown's eggtart!
:):):)

babylove,
i love you.
we were so afraid of losing each other this afternoon
our thoughts just ran wild
i was thinking what if you dont want me anymore
you were thinking the same
oh god! if i knew what you were thinking just now,
why suddenly become so queit and emo
i would have hugged you so damn freaking tight
baby, in the future i dont know what will happen to us
but right now i know that i will not leave you even if the world ends now.
i had my doubts abt this relationship before everything started
but i decided to follow my heart and go for it
i believed in you
now i know i didnt make the wrong choice
though, you're not really good with words
but i know you're trying
and your actions speaks it all
all the little things you do moved me
be it whether its just hugging me tightly when i needed it
or just making me laugh.
when i'm all stressed up over some issues,
you;ll never fail to comfort me the way i want to
every little thing you do, i'll see.

you're making me crazily falling in love with you baby!
if the world ever ends, i want to end it in your arms

HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY!

lalalalala.
i know it's you (:

BABY!
I LOVE YOU!

its that simple (:

p.s you getting that magazine for me in the middle of the night was sweet!
even though you were damn tired and drunk. <3

my mind is like a whirlpool,
everything seem so out of reach
i'm losing it, i'm losing it.
if only....
i was perfect and flawless.
i just wish for this <3>

&& ans to my questions

i'm in a dilemma

happy birthday to myself (:

hmmmmm.
we had dinner at suntec.
i was so damn full luh. hha
then we headed down to tantrics for celebration
opened 1 bottle of skyy vodka.
roy gave me 1 shot of bacardi 151
it nearly killed me.
it totally burned my throat. haha
had awfully chocolate birthday cake (:
thank you baby!<3
after all the drinking, i was 1/4 drunk already
darius was like, this is the first time in my entire life he's everr seen me tipsy
hahah. whatever
went over to 128 to meet juan and kane.
sat and talked.... yada yada yada
had a talk with baby about some stuff
then i headed home at abt 6 i think
showered slept and all.
was suppose to leave for malaysia at 12 with darius and shai
but they were still sleeping, so i went to look for baby instead first.
then they finally woke up, we went in.
shopped, ate alot!
4 of us are getting fatter and fatter
i swear, i must lose weight!
calvin qiu!!! stop making me eat i tell you. haha
neways, having some friend issue now
hope everything will be okay.

i thank all the people that made my birthday possible
darius, shai, baby, aj, juan, kane, roy, richard, jade, jiaying, justti
etc etc.
love you guys to the max!

darius and shai!
thank you for the box of presents you two gave and madde for me(:
the dress added colours into my life
the gucci thingy darius wong gave me with a personal touch (:
the necklace and earrings
the letters inside made me laugh
&& my own uniform.

BABY!
the gucci bag (:
the awfully chocolate cake which i heard cost you alot.
sweet of you luh, you know i love chocolate alot
thats why you purrposely went all the way there to get it for me

Jade&Dan!
the cards were more than enough!
thank you (:

Jiaying!
the hagen-daz, kbox, macdonald breakfast treat
thank you!!!!! (:

the rest, thank you for all the birthday wishes (:
photos soon(:

baby!

i love you <3

i swear your sillyness neverr fails to make me laugh
and the way we irritate the shit out of each other.
hahahahhaha.
i swear i love you ! (:
please dont announce to the whole world what you call me
very soon your whole family will call me that too luh
idiot!

hmmmm,
what should i wear tmml for my birthday?
shai said simple yet sweet
challenging !
hahaha.
after my birthday
i'm going on a diet!!!!!
shai darius and cal!
dont be assholes and keep making me eat!

exams are coming!
in fact, it had alr started
chinese paper was horrible!
there goes my A1!
i want to get all my desired piercing pierced!
my wrist, tongue, collar bone, neck, eyebrow.
argh! school hurry end luh.
and i want to get my tattoo (:
should i? ahahhah
nvm, get pierced first.
watched tattoist and 13 games of death ytd
with my puipui! hahahhahahahhaha
tatooist was okay,
but darius, why are you like so enthu abt the 13 games of death?
me and cal watch already, was like,
we're going to kill darius!
hahah (:
i have to go mug like crazy now
thn go out later

爱人 !

我爱你 !!!

男人女人

the love of my life!
shai (: , darius (: , aj (: && cal<3

i'm totally falling for you again and again
i cant stop this feeling,
i just wanna hug you so tight and not let go.
sleep in your arms forever.


i miss you

calvin!!!! thank you (:
<33333333333333

you're such a sweetheart

should i?

yes or no.

i just need a shoulder to lie on,
I'm tired from quite some stuff.
I'm about to cry but I'll still persevere.
i'm strong! (:


love is such a mysterious thing
isn't it?

just watching you fall asleep on my lap,
is enough to make my heart race.
god! i am actually falling!

i just left, and i miss you already