someday my prince will come,
i'll be able to find true love & happiness,
my life can be a fairytale,
with no things to worry about right?

Right?
who can you answer me, assure me?

this is so frustrating.
is it just so difficult?
all i need is just simple, very simple assurance

i'm going to explode
who can i confide
i dont like whatever thats happening to me
i dont wanna give away zola

why is it so hard to find someome that understands
fuck everything luh!

i feel lost
i dont know,
whether is my mind just playing a fool on me
or
its happening.
i wanna confront, i wanna know
i wanna feel all secure
but at the same time,
i'm afraid, afraid to lose it all

what should i do?


imissyou

ATTICA TOO

there is one more photo in baby's phone
haha
anyway attica too was quite boring luh
and i swear my feet was killing me
darius was pissed drunk
darius saidd these in the cab:
i am darius wong,
i have long hair,
i am god of gamblers.
blah blah blah. all the delusional stuff
then we said we were hungry, he said he cannot take it alr want to go home and sleep
and this is what he said!
:: you all go home and eat, i go coffeeshop and sleep
totally opposite
hahahhaha
okay luh okay luh
classic!

i swear i'm putting on weight!
so is shai, darius and baby
hahahah. we eat like non stop one luh
good life.
hahaha, ya right
neways,
i'm forbidden to eat chilli for a week!
cause of my stomach.
BLAH!!!!
these few days have been staying over at baby;s place
that idiot locked the door ytd, packed all my things one side and didnt let me home!
and waking you up is so damn difficult!
i tried to wake you up since 8 to like nearly 10 luh
you went to work, i finally sleep in comfort and peace!
hahahahhahahah
chinese o's was okay.
hopefully i dont need to take again luh
hahah,
oral i was damn screwed, although my exminer was jac yip
i was damn stuck when it came to picture
but she didnt command on my picture
weird. haha

tomorrow i am going to school!!!
finally!!!
tomorrow is going to be exciting exciting exciting!
especially after sch right JIAYING!
hahaha.

i'm like craving for chocolate(boost), mango sago pomelo thingy!
all the sweet stuff luh. and chinatown's eggtart!
:):):)

babylove,
i love you.
we were so afraid of losing each other this afternoon
our thoughts just ran wild
i was thinking what if you dont want me anymore
you were thinking the same
oh god! if i knew what you were thinking just now,
why suddenly become so queit and emo
i would have hugged you so damn freaking tight
baby, in the future i dont know what will happen to us
but right now i know that i will not leave you even if the world ends now.
i had my doubts abt this relationship before everything started
but i decided to follow my heart and go for it
i believed in you
now i know i didnt make the wrong choice
though, you're not really good with words
but i know you're trying
and your actions speaks it all
all the little things you do moved me
be it whether its just hugging me tightly when i needed it
or just making me laugh.
when i'm all stressed up over some issues,
you;ll never fail to comfort me the way i want to
every little thing you do, i'll see.

you're making me crazily falling in love with you baby!
if the world ever ends, i want to end it in your arms

HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY!

lalalalala.
i know it's you (:

BABY!
I LOVE YOU!

its that simple (:

p.s you getting that magazine for me in the middle of the night was sweet!
even though you were damn tired and drunk. <3

my mind is like a whirlpool,
everything seem so out of reach
i'm losing it, i'm losing it.
if only....
i was perfect and flawless.
i just wish for this <3>

&& ans to my questions

i'm in a dilemma

happy birthday to myself (:

hmmmmm.
we had dinner at suntec.
i was so damn full luh. hha
then we headed down to tantrics for celebration
opened 1 bottle of skyy vodka.
roy gave me 1 shot of bacardi 151
it nearly killed me.
it totally burned my throat. haha
had awfully chocolate birthday cake (:
thank you baby!<3
after all the drinking, i was 1/4 drunk already
darius was like, this is the first time in my entire life he's everr seen me tipsy
hahah. whatever
went over to 128 to meet juan and kane.
sat and talked.... yada yada yada
had a talk with baby about some stuff
then i headed home at abt 6 i think
showered slept and all.
was suppose to leave for malaysia at 12 with darius and shai
but they were still sleeping, so i went to look for baby instead first.
then they finally woke up, we went in.
shopped, ate alot!
4 of us are getting fatter and fatter
i swear, i must lose weight!
calvin qiu!!! stop making me eat i tell you. haha
neways, having some friend issue now
hope everything will be okay.

i thank all the people that made my birthday possible
darius, shai, baby, aj, juan, kane, roy, richard, jade, jiaying, justti
etc etc.
love you guys to the max!

darius and shai!
thank you for the box of presents you two gave and madde for me(:
the dress added colours into my life
the gucci thingy darius wong gave me with a personal touch (:
the necklace and earrings
the letters inside made me laugh
&& my own uniform.

BABY!
the gucci bag (:
the awfully chocolate cake which i heard cost you alot.
sweet of you luh, you know i love chocolate alot
thats why you purrposely went all the way there to get it for me

Jade&Dan!
the cards were more than enough!
thank you (:

Jiaying!
the hagen-daz, kbox, macdonald breakfast treat
thank you!!!!! (:

the rest, thank you for all the birthday wishes (:
photos soon(:

baby!

i love you <3

i swear your sillyness neverr fails to make me laugh
and the way we irritate the shit out of each other.
hahahahhaha.
i swear i love you ! (:
please dont announce to the whole world what you call me
very soon your whole family will call me that too luh
idiot!

hmmmm,
what should i wear tmml for my birthday?
shai said simple yet sweet
challenging !
hahaha.
after my birthday
i'm going on a diet!!!!!
shai darius and cal!
dont be assholes and keep making me eat!

exams are coming!
in fact, it had alr started
chinese paper was horrible!
there goes my A1!
i want to get all my desired piercing pierced!
my wrist, tongue, collar bone, neck, eyebrow.
argh! school hurry end luh.
and i want to get my tattoo (:
should i? ahahhah
nvm, get pierced first.
watched tattoist and 13 games of death ytd
with my puipui! hahahhahahahhaha
tatooist was okay,
but darius, why are you like so enthu abt the 13 games of death?
me and cal watch already, was like,
we're going to kill darius!
hahah (:
i have to go mug like crazy now
thn go out later

爱人 !

我爱你 !!!

男人女人

the love of my life!
shai (: , darius (: , aj (: && cal<3

i'm totally falling for you again and again
i cant stop this feeling,
i just wanna hug you so tight and not let go.
sleep in your arms forever.


i miss you

calvin!!!! thank you (:
<33333333333333

you're such a sweetheart

should i?

yes or no.

i just need a shoulder to lie on,
I'm tired from quite some stuff.
I'm about to cry but I'll still persevere.
i'm strong! (:


love is such a mysterious thing
isn't it?

just watching you fall asleep on my lap,
is enough to make my heart race.
god! i am actually falling!

i just left, and i miss you already

no one is pointing fingers at you
i know your jokes mean no harm
i appreciate whatever you gave to me
i told someone before, even if you didnt buy me LV and all
and bought something thats really cheap, i wouldnt mind
and i'll be damn happy cause you actually thought of me.
i really appreciate that.
mayeb you felt that i started it yesterday
but i felt you started it yesterday too,
i know you have your problems
but boy, reason i was pissed was because,
i dont want to see you run from it
ya, you dont need that to get into a P.S
but you need the money too.
and its alot.
reassons why i always get so worked up when it comes to this topic is becaus,
i see so much talent in you,
and i dont want to see that go to waste.
i only want the best for you
but if you really wan to stick to your own thinking
i'll support you,
as long as you know what you're doing
i know i can be a bitch, i'm sorry for that
sometimes it reaches the level where i cant control.

friends.
trust me, i no longer know the meaning of friends
are good friends for you to yell at?
throw your temper as and when you like without a sorry?
sometimes you make me so tired
i tolerate, understand, give in to you
i treat you better than anyone of my friends so far.
you'd rather treat those that treat you like thrash like gold?!
whats this?
i dont need you to shower me all those love and concern
but just simple gesture is enough for me
like actually considering how i feel.
i may just sit there and laugh it out
but do you know those humiliating words peirced.
how would you feel if your best friend tells you everyday,
you're fat, you're ugly and all the demoralising stuff that no girl should need.
yes, i can tolerate andd laugh it off
but do you know sub conciously, i'm getting affectted by it
right now, i really lost all my confidence already you know
someone likes me, i dont even dare to accept
cause i dont even feel i'm good enough for that person.
i honestly am feeling real lousy,
and honestly am very affected by how i look already.
i just need a smile from you or your retardedness
its enough.
i dont ask much at all.
i dont think you'll ever read it anyway.

what is love?
you <3>

been really hectic and relax these pass few days
DARIUS WONG!
i really hope you enjoyed your birthday.
thanks for the LV purse and the letter
<33333>

p.s, its the rectangular coin pouch.
and its a limited edition that i wanted.
THANK YOU!

when i'm with you i make every second count
what about you?

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartacheI could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And todayI'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you


i dont know why you're so confused and all?
have you fallen for someone else?
i dont know but thats what i'm feeling
i know there is a certain risk of me blogging
but its the only way i can say it out
i cant act as if nothing happened
neither can you.
can you say you only have me in your heart?
if you think you like someone else can you just let me know
i'm suffering like crazy you know
somehow, its impossible that you've fallen for me again
ya, you miss me, but do you love me?
thats a totally different story already
you're confused, what about me?
you've got so many friends to talk to,
what about me? i have no one i can relate too at all
are you afraid you'll lose me cause you are selfish or you love me?
said it a million and one times,
do something before i dont have the energy to hold on anymore
i've been holding on every moment
i wont deny that i'm still breathing now because of you
i still put that smile on my face because of you

right now,
can anyone find me back and really put that smile on my face again?
i'm tired, will anyone lend me to just rely on a little while
i'm afraid i cant take all these any longer

Goodbye.