shall update.
went for sis birthday dinner
my goodness.
haven.t been feeling well these few days.
vomitted and all. should i see a doc?
hahaha
anyway i got nothing much to update
but ya.

B's dad is so funny luh
have been spending alot of time with her family
her dad asked b why never send me home?
hahahaha
and he keep eating and eating. so cute luh
hahahaha
you know BB is sleeping now
hahahahhahaha
i haven't beem going to school.
WO XIANG NI! <3

why is it that when you treat a friend so nicely and this is what they do to you
i gave you food and tried to provide you when you needed food
i never let myself see you suffering and all
i try my best to help you with your problems
listen to you
when you cry and call me
i always want to go down to look for you but i cant
you want me to help you things that are against my own will
i will cause i just dont wanna see you sad
i treated you as my best friend
someone i could look up to
now because of money
you have to pretend to be so fake
hearing your friend getting humilliated like fuck
you just keep quiet
you totally leave me speechless
i will not hate you
you better take care of yourself
eat! or else your gastric will give you problem again

to another friend
you two were the most impt to me
the reason why i msged you i say you
was not because of someone that has been telling me things
but it was because i cannot stand seeing change so much
you used to be the best among the three
and now?
you can tell her that she cause you to lose your CLOSEST FRIEND
i didnt feel like your closest friend at all
where was the support i needed from you
which you always used to give me last time
i could rant and rant about my unhappy stuff
and conclude we're alike
we could cry tgt on the phone and talk rubbish
we used to understand each other really well
you were there for me all the time and i was there at your weakest weakest moment
and slowly seeing you smile again
i want to know back the old you thats always so bubbly and adorable
now its all gone
now you also could just stand there and here me get humillated so badly
i felt so devastated
i also wont hate you
you also take care and i wish you all the best

silly baby
you're asleep now but still on the phone with me
dinner with your relatives was freaky but great
hahahahha
stayed over on friday and sat as usual
friday we went to meet amanda and bella
always fun with them arnd
then saw yao and rest at cine by surorised
cabb-d down to pasir ris after that to mmet amanda again
then walked back to BB place
we woke up in the moring
and i finally had my mac breakfast
the bagel thing is actually not bad
then walked around ntuc
BB bought me a pair of fake lashes
then she said she wants to bring me to some family fuction
where i have to be elegant and decent
hahahahahhahahaha
then we met lijie and waited for her friends
went to sentosa
the sun was okay
cafe del mar was so frigging nice i tell you
hahha
wemt back to BB house for her family dinner
then went to mac with her brother gf to eat agin
then she sent us back with her car
i dont really like her thou
hahaha
didnt manage to sleep the whole night
cause i think i slept too much
left BB place at abt6 went home
had 2 dinners
then went tp to get makeup and shoews and clothes.
hahah
made ginger drink for my mum

aye people. if next time you can't contact me call pearlyn alright

i love you BB

BABY!
I LOVE YOU!
and you're finally forgiven!
stop stealing my things you this copy cat!
I love you alot alot alot (:

baby, thanks for the card you made for me (:
hope you like the gift i made for you
its nothing fanciful but it came from the heart
anyway, baby stayed over on V'day
then we went out in the evenign to bishan!
ate and we took neos
like finally can, hahas (:
eating my subway now :))))
just now in the cab baby was trying so hard to teach me how to do the star thing
fine i admit my fingers are cha cha-d okay
hahas.
CNY is coming!!!
friday gg out with baby friends.

jade, i miss you.
the old you.
where have the jade i known been?
the one thats also smiling taking things rather easy.
i just miss you luh k.

ah pui! i love you <3

hello!
i'm in school now
hahahahha
having like F&N now
my goodness.. she's so naggy can
i'm freaking bored!
sch hurry end.
oh yes. MISS XINYI!!!
I MISS YOU!
and i miss my AH PUI TOO! (:

i'm going to blog.
these few days have been spendin it with baby
self awareness camp was GREAT!
i think it should be longer
but i will miss my baby more
o yes. thanks for comin down just to see me and give me food (:
ytd aft camp went home and slept
then baby cabbed down to pick me up
then we cab to ikea and walked ard
afater that we went to her place then slack awhile
then went to dinner with ah pui and family
her daddaye went to simlim and me mumaye and ah pui went to og
and ah oui bought CLOTHES! (:
hahahhahahahha
then had dinner then went to ah pui house
watch dvd then went to sleep
suppose to have dim sum in the moringn but stupid ah pui pig luh
sleep so much
then when we wole up we ate chicken rice
then packed her room
then fell asleep until her mum came in and vaccum
woke both of us up
then went down to get dinner
ate and then went to chinatoen to meet my family
baby didnt let me go at fitst luh
hahas
now i'm talking to you
and you so petty can
tsk.

I LOVE MY AH PUI! <3

HAPPY 8TH MONTH BABY! Y

how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that
so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.

how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that
so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.

maybe today will be last day
i dunno but maybe
i really cannot take it
maybe it have become a habit
i cannot take it without knowing who you msg
i'm sorry.
dunno whats your prob
go what hospital when you're okay
nvm. forget it

i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry
i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye


if only time could rewind back
i'll stop at all the happy moments
ans we'll be happily tgt forever.

people. think before you act.

i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry
i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye

read _ blog.
i feel like i'm not the one thats suppose to be with_
i feel like i'm the third party instead
am i thinkin too much?
why do i feel that you're rather moody now
cause you read her blog
you still have something for her
and you obviously still miss her
bye.

HELLO!
i'm at baby's house you know you know
HAHAS
we are so spas luh can
play batman spiderman and superman!
then we started playing like lil kids
so fun luh.
baby, with you around everything is so fun luh
lets ARGUE! heheheheheh
baby: dont give me that fuck face
me: dont give me that fuck face too
us: -STARES HARD-
us:-LAUGHS REALLY HARD-
WAHAHAHAHAS!

your baby kaven is here to invade your blog.
stupid shit.
all i did was to play with my blanket.
& i say batman.
then you say spiderman!
haha!
then i play superman!! WEEEEEEEEES*
all your fault.
weakling lahs you.
take clothes only say heavy.
lousy fool!
stop pulling my PRECIOUS HAIR!
it hurts fuck! OUCH*
ROARRRRRRRR!!
better let her continue blogging. (:
love you baby. <3>

kk. i;m back
stupid idiot watch her tv the whole day luh.
anyways sch is such a bore luh
my goodness.
i feel so damn smart
cause the class is so quiet then i can concentrate
heheheheheheh
aft sch met shan at tp interchange
wait for him for so long luh
thank goodness ELEANOR accompanied me
THANK YOU! :D
he came then we went to my place and met xy & v
chose clothes for v at my house
lending her my jeans and my dorothy perkins top
i'm so nice can. :))
shannon cut hair papi also cut hair
tsktsktsk

CAN'T WAIT FOR SOFT@DXO
GONNA PARTAYE LIKE CRAZY
so many ppl i know are going
fun to the max!

shall upload photo later
btw, kaven is laughin like mad watching TV
RETARDED!

woaini! <333

wo ai si ni uhhh. HAHA!
ii lubb lubb euu worxXx! (:

iloveyoubaby. <3

-kaven

its like 12.34 am
and i'm still at xinyi's house
she satyed over at my house ytd so did kaven
shannon came over in the morning
awww. so sweet aint it. hahas
woke up then went to SNIP my hair
now its short :)
then send kavenn to lavender then went home
to change and take money.
then went bishan to meet xinyi
walked ard at ntuc
come let me tell yo uthe cutest part
miss xinyi got all her stuff but i havent so
me: eh come lei
xy: dont want lei
then we walked separate ways
then i was finding her outside ntuc
she was looking for me inside ntuc
then we cabbed dwn to xinyi house
waiting for my daddy to pick me up from here
lalala.
will upload photos soon :)

will this change be permanent?
i seriously wonder.




sily stuff we do tgt. i love xinyi :D Y

your words can never be trusted

HELLO!
i'm at varron's hse now
went out with xinyi today
walked ard far east first then kaven came along
i saw this cheong sum at far east
so nice can!
its the perfect length
but but but its a top so the lace part is too high
nvm. got the dress but dont have the colour i want
shall go tailor make my dress
hahas!
oh i ate my apple!
i'll be addicted to eat every meal
hahas! i shall go on a apple diet :)
then walked to wisma. walked around. saw gorgeous shoes
then headed dwn to ssc to meet xinyi fren ; varon, cc,wk
then rayne kang and bentan came ssc to find us
then they played pool too.
so boring luh. nobody entertain me :(
then mr kaven pearlyn oyster eggplant brinjal eggshell tan qian hui kuku went to city hall to meet her fren
leave me all alone
then went down to this prata hse to eat with them
walked to varons hse after that
and later we have to walk baack to my house
which is like damn effing far

friendship is not abt quantity.
its abt the quality
you always think i dont have a life on my own
and thinks that i get brainwashed so easily
in other words you always think i'm stupid
stupid enough to know what kind of person someone is
come on luh, this shows how well you know me
so what if you know me for nearly 2 years?
pearlyn knws me for nearly a year also knw that i'm not that stupid
and even ppl that knw me for not that long knws that i'm not that dumb
you knw something abt you
look around you
you have frens that really treat you like treasure
and yet you dont cherish them.
you have frends who treat you like dirt
and will only come to you when they need you finanacially or what ever
and you treat them like treasure
wtf is wrong with you
you ask yourself okay. who was there nearly all the time when you break down
rmb right after the chalet thing. you couldnt sleep and i rushed right over even i was tired to see whether you were okay
dont forget all the late nights when you always break down
who was always there to give you a hug and be there for you
who took care of you when your leg broke and you were sick
who cooked for you and teach you how to take care of yourself when you have gastric
no matter what time it was, if i could make it i would have gone down to meet you
even if i as tired sick or whatever.
its not that i got brainwashed by her
its just that she;s not doing any harm to me
and not to anyone.
when we're out we dont even bitch abt ppl
get it?
she's not as bad as you think she as.
if i could now i really dont ind slappin you and waking you up form your own world
stop thinking abt the friendship abt you and him
if things are not meant to be like that then let it be.
trust me you're freaking him out
and making everyone think that you're gay
snap back to reality. he's not the only friend okay
for god's sake open your eyes bigger and see for yourself okay
i dont wanna say anymore.
you will nvr understand.

first time clubbing with kaven at DXO :D

while waiting for hanjin.


sch is startign in like few hours time and i cant get to sleep
these are the two people i love, xinyi and kaven!
the rock my socks to the max
i love you!
i cant wait for sch to start
and meet keith and rest and see all of them in sch uni
so cute luh!
hahas
the holidays have been fun
i should be in the same class as emu and jy i hope!
ph i'd better me

wo ai ni :D

HELLO!
its 2007 now.
its a new beginning for everyone including me
so many good and bad things happened in 2006
but now its just the past.
many things are different now
sometimes things are just so obvious
but people just dont see it
this is called self denial
its not good to be lying to yourself
thats running away from reality
and so many things have proven to me that a leopard will nvr change its spots
year 2006 made me grow up even more
we have to learn how to let go
dont leave things unsaid and undone
you only live that very one time
trust me you'll nvr go wrong treasuring ppl ard you

ytd went for countdown at ESPLANADE
with kaven and xinyi and zave
the fireworks was okay luh
my heels were killing me!
then WALKED to cathay to meet shan,krys,jeremy&alex
watched deathnote 2
nice nice. ahas. L is weirdly cute
hahas
while waiting for a cab to fetch us to macpherson to meet KEITHLENG
talked to krystal.
found out so many things.
but its a secret between both of us
HAHAS!
then went down to macpherson and the stupid prata shop is not open!
then walked to the market there to eat vegetarian noodles
then talked alot of rubbish
then walk to the bus stop and went home and saw rayne
reached home wore the big big big shirt and sleep!
i'm hungry now. i'm gg to bite someone soon!

school is gg to start!
i so cant wait!
haahas
me and xinyi are hoping for 3 points for N's
hahas!
and we are gg to meet everybody in sch uni afterr sch
so exciting!
i might be in the same class as jy!
7 yrs of frenship.
cannot escape from being in the same class as you all the time.
its like p1-p4 same class then sec1-2 same class. now till sec 5 also same
hahas. i miss you bitch!
hahas

i'm gg to cough to my grave soon
just in case i really do
i love you xinyi!
plus kaven tan!
(:

this will be my last words to you
after this i dont wanna talk abt it anymore
i've made things clear enough in my phone
understand!
the answer is obvious
go with her luh
i'll still be here for you if you need me
i can always be your bestfriend
cause i und you inside in outside out
you wanna know why i made up my mind?
cause of the things you do and say
in the end you will still go down
so whats the point get it
not only to see her but also another her
and when sch starts if we're still tgt things wont be good
cause there will be so many new girls better than me
so we'll argue for sure.
its a fact that you can nvr settle down and change for me
it shows that i'm not the one for you
go find someone that you can change for
take care alright. :)
LOVES
and hurry go home. your parents are worried
and they love you okay. thats impt