From the day that I saw you.
I knew that we would pursue.
Cause the chemistry we felt that day.
Felt so real, and so true.
Looking back on a year we spent together.
How it's been, what we went through.
Although we had our little ups and downs .
We've still pulled through.baby.
My love for you will never end.
You'll always be a part of me.
As long as time keeps on passing by.
You'll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,I can't believe.
I've found a love so true.
and i took my time to put my trust in you.
I must admit it was so hard to do.
And every minute that I spend with you.
You make me believe I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine.
Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be.
Without you I'll be lost,
I need you next to me
From day one I was sprung,
knew you was gonna be one.
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while.
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up together.
If you were to go, I don't know
You're the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makesmy heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you're my, my sweet lov
eEver since the first time,that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,when you're not by my side.
You're the only one that's on my mind
I never knew a love like this,
a love so strong


does this sound familiar to you.
i remmber.
i shall put it in simple words.
i love you.

trying very hard to forget you.
wish to get back to my normal self when i was very cheerful
and not the depress me.
grace told me that since before the hols .
i have been sad
all the way until now.
i have been thinkin of you.
thats why i'm iddat.

and to passerby and stranger.
just who are u ?
dont keep low profile.
why not u just tell me.
i bet u now me and my number.
can u just like sms me or call me to tell me who you are?
i will keep low profile.
thanks

shattered-
can you hear my heart shattering?
i bet u cant..
my heart hurts like mad you know?
i bet u dunno
i dont think you even know i still have very STRONG feelings for you.
your profile changed.
you are deeply in love with another girl now.
you told me you still love me.
have you forgotten what you said?
did you even mean it?!?!?
now its REALLY impossible for us to get back together already.
although i know u will never get to read this but..
i've gotta say..
you know the day we break.
is the day i knew REALLY love you.
and when i just wanted to sms to tell you.
your sms arrived.
saying to break.
i was in school. i ran to the bus stop crying like mad.
i bet u didnt know either.
although that was one year ago.
i still could remember all the happy times we had
in about nine months.
we got together on 181203 10.30pm
i could remember everything.
i tried very very hard to forget you.
but i just cant.
you're the first person that i love soo deeply.
i told most of my steads after you that i still love you deeply.

i just feel speechless now-
can someone help me?

the past is the past..
now i wanna start a new and different life..
all the heartaches i had with you
is all over..
i feel so relief now..
i have one lesser heavy burden..
you've hurt me alot..
but now?
who cares..
you cant control me anymore!
i hate it when u control me
scold my frens
thank god its all over..

i feel hurt...
i fell real hard
but i m still sorry
i m a lousy gf
i suck!
i am heavy burden to everyone
why did i even come into this earth
why cant i just die now!
argh!!!

y cant it still be like last time?
now u are treating me like a stranger
when you ask me to patch?
and i agreed
cos you were the one tat told me u still love me
and i told u that i really love you alot.
i dont mind
whether you are a good person or not
i love you for who you are
and for this time i am sure with my feelings
that i really really love you alot
i nvr love someone soo much.

ytd...
all i wanted was to spent more time with you
and you asked me to go home
i felt very hurt when u said that
cause i noe soon
when he comes back..
i cant spent alot of time wit you already.

and i noe my exams are around the corner.
i am already studying very hard already
i m tryin my best already...
i just felt so hurt and sad ytd..
you hurt me and i still said sorry to you
but you chose not to reply any of my smses
i felt worse when u didnt even reply me
when i kept sayin sorry...
i just feel like breaking down and cry...

if you read this..
all i wanna ask is that
you wanna patch izzit because
you dun wan me to be with em or what
i hope not..
cause i really really really love you alot!!

i just feel like a total loser now
i feel horrible
i just feel like endin my life..
but i live because of you

hais
i have nth to say le
-peaace out

argh! i failed maths!!! i cant believe it lah! jus by half a mark!
miss chong is makin me hate her can....
all thanks to that stupid mrs yip...
miss chong had to scold us and like ignore us
BITCH!!!!

sports day! 

it seriously hurt me when u said that...
its like peircing a thorn through my heart...

today was quite alrite
went out wit cherre and dar
bought a top and made my bag
i love it!
thanks dar for the bag!
muacks

yao made cherre pissed lah
haiyo tat made me a little angry also

anyways this mornin
dar was in bad mood
then smsed me and said maybe she not gg
so i tell her to tell me whether she gg? by 12
if she not gg then i ask my fren to go
then she said
call lah call lah
ask your ex lovers to go
i got angry and sad
cos it was rather mean of her to say tat lah

went to dar house to slack
hahas
went home and chat with dar online

hahas
dar is so sweet can
hahas
she said when she work next month"she will give me 200 or more every month
so sweet!!!
i got so touched
hehes
she go makan now
so i blog to keep myself awake to wait fer her
hehes

dar!!!
i love you!!!
muacks muacks muacks!
make up fer today
hahas

my post so short cos i accidentally deleted the previous post
hahas

lalalalala
hmmm...
wat should i post today???
had pe today!!!
so tiring can?!?
run until my legs the both knee pain lor
but who cares
only cant walk properly only mahs

called dar to wake her up...
yulica and mandy embarresed me lah!!!
i go look for them.
then they go ask krystle to come out!
i run.
they pull me!!!
haiyo
kanna bullied!
then had art!
zailee is so stupid
i was like waitin for lessons to end lah!!
then during lesson time she keep callin and callin
then it kept vibratin and vibratin
lesson finally ended!!!
hooray!!!
then met cherre to go ec together
then cherre waited for ahem to come
while i waited for dar to come
dar took so long lah
but nvm...
hehes

met at ec le..
then crapped and crapped
then about 7 go back
dar sent me home
and came my hse
as usual
then we had dinner at the market
yummy
then went home
watch tv
then at about 10
dar went home
i sent her to the bus stop
then yah lor she left...
so sad..

went home wanted to sleep..
but..
i wanted to chat to dar
so i waited for her to come online..
and now she online le..
hahas

shall pen off here...
hehes
love ya!!
muacks!

heys
was at dar house just now
the have ta leave to go for cath class
reach there... there was so little ppl there.. then i was like omg!
when i went up... every1 was up there
hahas
lesson ended early today...
after lesson i walked to dar house again
helped her create her blog
hahas
dar was playin with my hair
then she felt like styling it
so she went to take her wax and started styling
and it turned out nice!
hahas
then i stayed there until 10 plus then i went home
i reached home
have my dinner
screwed dar's blog
hehes
did a little of my homework
and downloadin songs into my mp3
and now blogging...
hahas

this is for *you*
i gave you my heart
so dont break it
its fragile

-loVe yOoU-

me::emu  

-pouts-
i m so gonna gain weight all thanks to someone tats makin me eat
but i still love you anyways
hahas
muack muack

life have been better thanks to *you* hehes
thank you

ArC is really rather stressful but i still love the ppl there!
and the next competition comin up will be space which i will be takin part in
so excitin!!!
hahas

I had a great time with you today
hehes

tats all i m gonna say
hehes

i miss dancin alot alot alot!!!!
haiz... especially my rolls!
hahas
miss those days when i dance nearly everyday!

today was a fun day...
1st went to school and craped with the seniors
then went to meet josephine and emu to watch boogeyman!!
the story line was okay lah.. but the sound effect made me jump!!!
hahas
then later we went to shop around in town... then we went down to tp cos emu and jo wanted to cut their hair...then i went home to change....
after i change.. i went to meet them...
trust me! they look good after their newhairstyle!!
after that went ec... while walkin we saw grace...
yeah!
so i hang out wit her at ec while waitin for hui shan to come...
hui shan came...
we talked... then i went home..
browsin through friendster... i saw two person's profiles
i got so sad when i saw it...
i started tearin...


love hurts!
seriously...
why do u still make me think that u still like me alot when u like another girl more?!?!
unless u are lyin to yourself!
i rather wait 4 u!
but y of all people that girl!
first she is my friend... and we always like the same people and she gets that some1..
wats so good about her?
she only like ppl cos of their looks... or cos she is jus DESPERATE!!!!
i jus noe her too well!
i love u so much and u broke my heart into pieces!!!
if u read this.. can u pls pls pls tell me whether u still like me and wats the reason u broke with me!!!
i really wanna noe!!!
u just left me all alone in a second...
u hurt me so so much and yet i still love u more and more!
but so? u dont appreciate it!
u think tat lettin me wait is horrible!
while i think that u breakin my heart is worse!!!
y must u make me hate you!
why?!?!?!?!?!?!?
ARGH!!!!!
i m gonna break down!!!!
why not i just end my freakin life!!!
without me life will be so much betta
and i will not get hurt by u more!!!

hi to all.... my blog growin dust le...haha...shall update... haiz life has been rather okay....got good and bad...christmas is comin...haha... so exicted....have been goin to chalet nowadays.... i cant play maple.... haiz... i dunno what to write le.... write some other time...chaos...

shift to a new class...now my class is at st gabs...haha...i finally finish my papercut... i di ubtil 3 am then sllep...damn tired....after tat i went ta plae bball then halfway went to the dance studio to helpguides peeps 4 dance...hahasuppose to pack arc kit...haha...yeah!!! lata gg out to eat wit all the arc ppl at pizza hut!!!....n if prissy dun give me bac my $12 she will dance pole dance rite smack in the middle of pizza hut...haha...i m sho mean....gtg tata

NJRC is over ...sho sad...anyway although we didnt win anything...but its okay lah...still got next year....had church carnival yesterdae...it was okay lah...not tat fun coz every year also same thing... went home then slept awhile then went shoppin...it was kinda okay lah..got a few tops n a pouch...but still didnt get my skirt...then i went to my aunts hse they we play play play...came home late and slept...this mornin wake up abit late lah coz yesterday i tok to darel tok untill 2 plus...haha...went to sch n did a pai sei thing go up stage n shake principle hand...sumore nvr win anything very pai seh arh...juz change my layout...juz hang finish tokin to johnathan:)....he treat me very nice xia...n to ppl who dun no this...i already broke up wit u noe who lah...dun ask me abt it coz i totally cant be bothered abt it yah....and if [u][my ex] are readin my blog...stop addin my frens who u dun even noe...u noe u make me very pai seh in sch...if u r des say lah...dun nid to flirt wit my friends...so fuck off lah!!!...u POSER!!!...i shall stop here now ya..tata muackz

FUCK OFF MY FUCKIN LIFE!!!
i dont even think its important for me to exist in this world i m livin in when my true frens betrayed me over n over again...i trust them soo much and this is wat they do to me... I'm gonna BREAK DOWN soon!!!life is so fuckin irritatin i dun wanna live anymore!!! i juz wanna slp and nvr wake up...because of all this incidents that happen, juz because of 1 FUCKIN competition, my life is ruin...every1 HATES me!!! i juz wish that nvr happen!!! because off this, i have been CRYIN EVERYDAY!!! whenever i m at home...HAIZ... all i realli wanna do noe is DIE!!! [[LIFE TO ME IS RATHER MEANINGLESS ALREADY]]

today in sch was like ok lah... had pe it was very fun...haha then after recess we had history ca...it was ok but i m sure gonna flunk...haha after tat we had art...it was okay as i think mr tan was in a good mood coz he started to walk very funny..haha then i went up to ask he which art work should i chose then he said this "when u cum up u alwaes remind me of yr sister" because me and my sis like to ask the same question then he said this"next time arh when u have alot of boyfren dont ask me to help u to chose coz i will sae duno" i was like nvm...so i went back to my sit and then i told my fren tat if i ask him to chose i must be blind! haha...then had science nth special...then had maths...it was fun coz i liked maths...then i was suppose to go 4 this njrc thingy but i didnt go coz my grp members didnt go...then my grandma picked me home and asked me since when i becum so guai...haha..i shall stop here 4 now...till then..tata

Yeah! back from bintan yesterday...it was like WOW! it was damn fun...the 1st dae i went there the 1st thing we did was explore the resort...did alot of shoppin at the resort itself...haha...alwaes the same shop...then we went to eat...it was a buffet...then lata we went to the villa the cempaka villa...it was like damn cool lor...then ay aunts n my mums frens tok n tok n tok...then we went to the private beach at the lagoon...there we played in the sea...then i wanted to try the jetski...it was damn fun...1st the guy ask me whether i noe how to swim then i pretend to say no...but he like noe i was bluffin he purposely drive very VERY VERY fast lor...drive me to right to the end then the turnin part is like will fall off the jetski n into the water any moment lor...then he stop halfway n switched place with me...he asked me to drive then i was like ummm...ok lor......it was damn SHIOK arh!!!! i want to do it again but cant coz closin liao...haha...then after tat we went bac to the villa n shower everything then the adults wanted to have a massage so they called 4 a massage lor...leave me all alone so i watched tv...1 thing good was tat the tv have all the singapore channel...haha...after the massage we went to the jap restaurent...the food there was like expensive lor...but who cares...then we went back to the villa...then the adults excludin my aunt who was listenin to micheal buble...then the rest was in my room tokin about pregnancy lor...but not to me lah..its becoz 1 of my mums friend there had 5 children...then they tok n tok n tok non stop lor...make me cannot slp...then the next day we had breakfast in the villa we cooked ourselves...then the adults tok n tok n tok...lata me and my mums boss went for a swim...since the sun was like wow...i went there,i swimmed awhile the i lay there and started tannin...but it was awhile...after tat we went back n then bath everthing then lata my aunt asked whether i wanted to try drivin the buggie...i was like YAH! the i tried it was realli easi n fun...haha...after tat we went to this place called "oleh oleh" it wasnot very fun as everyshop sell nearly the same thing...after tat we went back and eat lunch then we went to the villa to pack up n go back...when i was in the boat to go back to singapore i was abit seasick...haha...i think it was becoz it was very hot...