BABY!
I LOVE YOU!

its that simple (:

p.s you getting that magazine for me in the middle of the night was sweet!
even though you were damn tired and drunk. <3

my mind is like a whirlpool,
everything seem so out of reach
i'm losing it, i'm losing it.
if only....
i was perfect and flawless.
i just wish for this <3>

&& ans to my questions

i'm in a dilemma

happy birthday to myself (:

hmmmmm.
we had dinner at suntec.
i was so damn full luh. hha
then we headed down to tantrics for celebration
opened 1 bottle of skyy vodka.
roy gave me 1 shot of bacardi 151
it nearly killed me.
it totally burned my throat. haha
had awfully chocolate birthday cake (:
thank you baby!<3
after all the drinking, i was 1/4 drunk already
darius was like, this is the first time in my entire life he's everr seen me tipsy
hahah. whatever
went over to 128 to meet juan and kane.
sat and talked.... yada yada yada
had a talk with baby about some stuff
then i headed home at abt 6 i think
showered slept and all.
was suppose to leave for malaysia at 12 with darius and shai
but they were still sleeping, so i went to look for baby instead first.
then they finally woke up, we went in.
shopped, ate alot!
4 of us are getting fatter and fatter
i swear, i must lose weight!
calvin qiu!!! stop making me eat i tell you. haha
neways, having some friend issue now
hope everything will be okay.

i thank all the people that made my birthday possible
darius, shai, baby, aj, juan, kane, roy, richard, jade, jiaying, justti
etc etc.
love you guys to the max!

darius and shai!
thank you for the box of presents you two gave and madde for me(:
the dress added colours into my life
the gucci thingy darius wong gave me with a personal touch (:
the necklace and earrings
the letters inside made me laugh
&& my own uniform.

BABY!
the gucci bag (:
the awfully chocolate cake which i heard cost you alot.
sweet of you luh, you know i love chocolate alot
thats why you purrposely went all the way there to get it for me

Jade&Dan!
the cards were more than enough!
thank you (:

Jiaying!
the hagen-daz, kbox, macdonald breakfast treat
thank you!!!!! (:

the rest, thank you for all the birthday wishes (:
photos soon(:

baby!

i love you <3

i swear your sillyness neverr fails to make me laugh
and the way we irritate the shit out of each other.
hahahahhaha.
i swear i love you ! (:
please dont announce to the whole world what you call me
very soon your whole family will call me that too luh
idiot!

hmmmm,
what should i wear tmml for my birthday?
shai said simple yet sweet
challenging !
hahaha.
after my birthday
i'm going on a diet!!!!!
shai darius and cal!
dont be assholes and keep making me eat!

exams are coming!
in fact, it had alr started
chinese paper was horrible!
there goes my A1!
i want to get all my desired piercing pierced!
my wrist, tongue, collar bone, neck, eyebrow.
argh! school hurry end luh.
and i want to get my tattoo (:
should i? ahahhah
nvm, get pierced first.
watched tattoist and 13 games of death ytd
with my puipui! hahahhahahahhaha
tatooist was okay,
but darius, why are you like so enthu abt the 13 games of death?
me and cal watch already, was like,
we're going to kill darius!
hahah (:
i have to go mug like crazy now
thn go out later

爱人 !

我爱你 !!!

男人女人

the love of my life!
shai (: , darius (: , aj (: && cal<3

i'm totally falling for you again and again
i cant stop this feeling,
i just wanna hug you so tight and not let go.
sleep in your arms forever.


i miss you

calvin!!!! thank you (:
<33333333333333

you're such a sweetheart

should i?

yes or no.

i just need a shoulder to lie on,
I'm tired from quite some stuff.
I'm about to cry but I'll still persevere.
i'm strong! (:


love is such a mysterious thing
isn't it?

just watching you fall asleep on my lap,
is enough to make my heart race.
god! i am actually falling!

i just left, and i miss you already

no one is pointing fingers at you
i know your jokes mean no harm
i appreciate whatever you gave to me
i told someone before, even if you didnt buy me LV and all
and bought something thats really cheap, i wouldnt mind
and i'll be damn happy cause you actually thought of me.
i really appreciate that.
mayeb you felt that i started it yesterday
but i felt you started it yesterday too,
i know you have your problems
but boy, reason i was pissed was because,
i dont want to see you run from it
ya, you dont need that to get into a P.S
but you need the money too.
and its alot.
reassons why i always get so worked up when it comes to this topic is becaus,
i see so much talent in you,
and i dont want to see that go to waste.
i only want the best for you
but if you really wan to stick to your own thinking
i'll support you,
as long as you know what you're doing
i know i can be a bitch, i'm sorry for that
sometimes it reaches the level where i cant control.

friends.
trust me, i no longer know the meaning of friends
are good friends for you to yell at?
throw your temper as and when you like without a sorry?
sometimes you make me so tired
i tolerate, understand, give in to you
i treat you better than anyone of my friends so far.
you'd rather treat those that treat you like thrash like gold?!
whats this?
i dont need you to shower me all those love and concern
but just simple gesture is enough for me
like actually considering how i feel.
i may just sit there and laugh it out
but do you know those humiliating words peirced.
how would you feel if your best friend tells you everyday,
you're fat, you're ugly and all the demoralising stuff that no girl should need.
yes, i can tolerate andd laugh it off
but do you know sub conciously, i'm getting affectted by it
right now, i really lost all my confidence already you know
someone likes me, i dont even dare to accept
cause i dont even feel i'm good enough for that person.
i honestly am feeling real lousy,
and honestly am very affected by how i look already.
i just need a smile from you or your retardedness
its enough.
i dont ask much at all.
i dont think you'll ever read it anyway.

what is love?
you <3>

been really hectic and relax these pass few days
DARIUS WONG!
i really hope you enjoyed your birthday.
thanks for the LV purse and the letter
<33333>

p.s, its the rectangular coin pouch.
and its a limited edition that i wanted.
THANK YOU!

when i'm with you i make every second count
what about you?

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartacheI could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And todayI'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you


i dont know why you're so confused and all?
have you fallen for someone else?
i dont know but thats what i'm feeling
i know there is a certain risk of me blogging
but its the only way i can say it out
i cant act as if nothing happened
neither can you.
can you say you only have me in your heart?
if you think you like someone else can you just let me know
i'm suffering like crazy you know
somehow, its impossible that you've fallen for me again
ya, you miss me, but do you love me?
thats a totally different story already
you're confused, what about me?
you've got so many friends to talk to,
what about me? i have no one i can relate too at all
are you afraid you'll lose me cause you are selfish or you love me?
said it a million and one times,
do something before i dont have the energy to hold on anymore
i've been holding on every moment
i wont deny that i'm still breathing now because of you
i still put that smile on my face because of you

right now,
can anyone find me back and really put that smile on my face again?
i'm tired, will anyone lend me to just rely on a little while
i'm afraid i cant take all these any longer

Goodbye.

Reopen (:

its been ages since i touched this thing
but i'm not going to tell anyone.

time flew and many things happened
you took my heart and never returned it
i hope you still have our memories with you
yes, i miss you

i wish upon the brightest star everynight,
that you'll be happy and smiling
and not frowning every moment
because you look the cutest when you smile.
and everyday i'd pray that i'll see you soon
cause i really miss you alot.

promise;
i;ll be there for you
i'll never stop loving you
i'll never forget you

I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me

I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

Create your own Friend Test here

BANG BANG! YOU SHOT ME DOWN
I SHOT MYSELF DOWN

shall update.
went for sis birthday dinner
my goodness.
haven.t been feeling well these few days.
vomitted and all. should i see a doc?
hahaha
anyway i got nothing much to update
but ya.

B's dad is so funny luh
have been spending alot of time with her family
her dad asked b why never send me home?
hahahaha
and he keep eating and eating. so cute luh
hahahaha
you know BB is sleeping now
hahahahhahaha
i haven't beem going to school.
WO XIANG NI! <3

why is it that when you treat a friend so nicely and this is what they do to you
i gave you food and tried to provide you when you needed food
i never let myself see you suffering and all
i try my best to help you with your problems
listen to you
when you cry and call me
i always want to go down to look for you but i cant
you want me to help you things that are against my own will
i will cause i just dont wanna see you sad
i treated you as my best friend
someone i could look up to
now because of money
you have to pretend to be so fake
hearing your friend getting humilliated like fuck
you just keep quiet
you totally leave me speechless
i will not hate you
you better take care of yourself
eat! or else your gastric will give you problem again

to another friend
you two were the most impt to me
the reason why i msged you i say you
was not because of someone that has been telling me things
but it was because i cannot stand seeing change so much
you used to be the best among the three
and now?
you can tell her that she cause you to lose your CLOSEST FRIEND
i didnt feel like your closest friend at all
where was the support i needed from you
which you always used to give me last time
i could rant and rant about my unhappy stuff
and conclude we're alike
we could cry tgt on the phone and talk rubbish
we used to understand each other really well
you were there for me all the time and i was there at your weakest weakest moment
and slowly seeing you smile again
i want to know back the old you thats always so bubbly and adorable
now its all gone
now you also could just stand there and here me get humillated so badly
i felt so devastated
i also wont hate you
you also take care and i wish you all the best

silly baby
you're asleep now but still on the phone with me
dinner with your relatives was freaky but great
hahahahha
stayed over on friday and sat as usual
friday we went to meet amanda and bella
always fun with them arnd
then saw yao and rest at cine by surorised
cabb-d down to pasir ris after that to mmet amanda again
then walked back to BB place
we woke up in the moring
and i finally had my mac breakfast
the bagel thing is actually not bad
then walked around ntuc
BB bought me a pair of fake lashes
then she said she wants to bring me to some family fuction
where i have to be elegant and decent
hahahahahhahahaha
then we met lijie and waited for her friends
went to sentosa
the sun was okay
cafe del mar was so frigging nice i tell you
hahha
wemt back to BB house for her family dinner
then went to mac with her brother gf to eat agin
then she sent us back with her car
i dont really like her thou
hahaha
didnt manage to sleep the whole night
cause i think i slept too much
left BB place at abt6 went home
had 2 dinners
then went tp to get makeup and shoews and clothes.
hahah
made ginger drink for my mum

aye people. if next time you can't contact me call pearlyn alright

i love you BB