how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that
so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.

how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that
so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.

maybe today will be last day
i dunno but maybe
i really cannot take it
maybe it have become a habit
i cannot take it without knowing who you msg
i'm sorry.
dunno whats your prob
go what hospital when you're okay
nvm. forget it

i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry
i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye


if only time could rewind back
i'll stop at all the happy moments
ans we'll be happily tgt forever.

people. think before you act.

i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry
i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye

read _ blog.
i feel like i'm not the one thats suppose to be with_
i feel like i'm the third party instead
am i thinkin too much?
why do i feel that you're rather moody now
cause you read her blog
you still have something for her
and you obviously still miss her
bye.

HELLO!
i'm at baby's house you know you know
HAHAS
we are so spas luh can
play batman spiderman and superman!
then we started playing like lil kids
so fun luh.
baby, with you around everything is so fun luh
lets ARGUE! heheheheheh
baby: dont give me that fuck face
me: dont give me that fuck face too
us: -STARES HARD-
us:-LAUGHS REALLY HARD-
WAHAHAHAHAS!

your baby kaven is here to invade your blog.
stupid shit.
all i did was to play with my blanket.
& i say batman.
then you say spiderman!
haha!
then i play superman!! WEEEEEEEEES*
all your fault.
weakling lahs you.
take clothes only say heavy.
lousy fool!
stop pulling my PRECIOUS HAIR!
it hurts fuck! OUCH*
ROARRRRRRRR!!
better let her continue blogging. (:
love you baby. <3>

kk. i;m back
stupid idiot watch her tv the whole day luh.
anyways sch is such a bore luh
my goodness.
i feel so damn smart
cause the class is so quiet then i can concentrate
heheheheheheh
aft sch met shan at tp interchange
wait for him for so long luh
thank goodness ELEANOR accompanied me
THANK YOU! :D
he came then we went to my place and met xy & v
chose clothes for v at my house
lending her my jeans and my dorothy perkins top
i'm so nice can. :))
shannon cut hair papi also cut hair
tsktsktsk

CAN'T WAIT FOR SOFT@DXO
GONNA PARTAYE LIKE CRAZY
so many ppl i know are going
fun to the max!

shall upload photo later
btw, kaven is laughin like mad watching TV
RETARDED!

woaini! <333

wo ai si ni uhhh. HAHA!
ii lubb lubb euu worxXx! (:

iloveyoubaby. <3

-kaven

its like 12.34 am
and i'm still at xinyi's house
she satyed over at my house ytd so did kaven
shannon came over in the morning
awww. so sweet aint it. hahas
woke up then went to SNIP my hair
now its short :)
then send kavenn to lavender then went home
to change and take money.
then went bishan to meet xinyi
walked ard at ntuc
come let me tell yo uthe cutest part
miss xinyi got all her stuff but i havent so
me: eh come lei
xy: dont want lei
then we walked separate ways
then i was finding her outside ntuc
she was looking for me inside ntuc
then we cabbed dwn to xinyi house
waiting for my daddy to pick me up from here
lalala.
will upload photos soon :)

will this change be permanent?
i seriously wonder.




sily stuff we do tgt. i love xinyi :D Y

your words can never be trusted

HELLO!
i'm at varron's hse now
went out with xinyi today
walked ard far east first then kaven came along
i saw this cheong sum at far east
so nice can!
its the perfect length
but but but its a top so the lace part is too high
nvm. got the dress but dont have the colour i want
shall go tailor make my dress
hahas!
oh i ate my apple!
i'll be addicted to eat every meal
hahas! i shall go on a apple diet :)
then walked to wisma. walked around. saw gorgeous shoes
then headed dwn to ssc to meet xinyi fren ; varon, cc,wk
then rayne kang and bentan came ssc to find us
then they played pool too.
so boring luh. nobody entertain me :(
then mr kaven pearlyn oyster eggplant brinjal eggshell tan qian hui kuku went to city hall to meet her fren
leave me all alone
then went down to this prata hse to eat with them
walked to varons hse after that
and later we have to walk baack to my house
which is like damn effing far

friendship is not abt quantity.
its abt the quality
you always think i dont have a life on my own
and thinks that i get brainwashed so easily
in other words you always think i'm stupid
stupid enough to know what kind of person someone is
come on luh, this shows how well you know me
so what if you know me for nearly 2 years?
pearlyn knws me for nearly a year also knw that i'm not that stupid
and even ppl that knw me for not that long knws that i'm not that dumb
you knw something abt you
look around you
you have frens that really treat you like treasure
and yet you dont cherish them.
you have frends who treat you like dirt
and will only come to you when they need you finanacially or what ever
and you treat them like treasure
wtf is wrong with you
you ask yourself okay. who was there nearly all the time when you break down
rmb right after the chalet thing. you couldnt sleep and i rushed right over even i was tired to see whether you were okay
dont forget all the late nights when you always break down
who was always there to give you a hug and be there for you
who took care of you when your leg broke and you were sick
who cooked for you and teach you how to take care of yourself when you have gastric
no matter what time it was, if i could make it i would have gone down to meet you
even if i as tired sick or whatever.
its not that i got brainwashed by her
its just that she;s not doing any harm to me
and not to anyone.
when we're out we dont even bitch abt ppl
get it?
she's not as bad as you think she as.
if i could now i really dont ind slappin you and waking you up form your own world
stop thinking abt the friendship abt you and him
if things are not meant to be like that then let it be.
trust me you're freaking him out
and making everyone think that you're gay
snap back to reality. he's not the only friend okay
for god's sake open your eyes bigger and see for yourself okay
i dont wanna say anymore.
you will nvr understand.

first time clubbing with kaven at DXO :D

while waiting for hanjin.


sch is startign in like few hours time and i cant get to sleep
these are the two people i love, xinyi and kaven!
the rock my socks to the max
i love you!
i cant wait for sch to start
and meet keith and rest and see all of them in sch uni
so cute luh!
hahas
the holidays have been fun
i should be in the same class as emu and jy i hope!
ph i'd better me

wo ai ni :D

HELLO!
its 2007 now.
its a new beginning for everyone including me
so many good and bad things happened in 2006
but now its just the past.
many things are different now
sometimes things are just so obvious
but people just dont see it
this is called self denial
its not good to be lying to yourself
thats running away from reality
and so many things have proven to me that a leopard will nvr change its spots
year 2006 made me grow up even more
we have to learn how to let go
dont leave things unsaid and undone
you only live that very one time
trust me you'll nvr go wrong treasuring ppl ard you

ytd went for countdown at ESPLANADE
with kaven and xinyi and zave
the fireworks was okay luh
my heels were killing me!
then WALKED to cathay to meet shan,krys,jeremy&alex
watched deathnote 2
nice nice. ahas. L is weirdly cute
hahas
while waiting for a cab to fetch us to macpherson to meet KEITHLENG
talked to krystal.
found out so many things.
but its a secret between both of us
HAHAS!
then went down to macpherson and the stupid prata shop is not open!
then walked to the market there to eat vegetarian noodles
then talked alot of rubbish
then walk to the bus stop and went home and saw rayne
reached home wore the big big big shirt and sleep!
i'm hungry now. i'm gg to bite someone soon!

school is gg to start!
i so cant wait!
haahas
me and xinyi are hoping for 3 points for N's
hahas!
and we are gg to meet everybody in sch uni afterr sch
so exciting!
i might be in the same class as jy!
7 yrs of frenship.
cannot escape from being in the same class as you all the time.
its like p1-p4 same class then sec1-2 same class. now till sec 5 also same
hahas. i miss you bitch!
hahas

i'm gg to cough to my grave soon
just in case i really do
i love you xinyi!
plus kaven tan!
(:

this will be my last words to you
after this i dont wanna talk abt it anymore
i've made things clear enough in my phone
understand!
the answer is obvious
go with her luh
i'll still be here for you if you need me
i can always be your bestfriend
cause i und you inside in outside out
you wanna know why i made up my mind?
cause of the things you do and say
in the end you will still go down
so whats the point get it
not only to see her but also another her
and when sch starts if we're still tgt things wont be good
cause there will be so many new girls better than me
so we'll argue for sure.
its a fact that you can nvr settle down and change for me
it shows that i'm not the one for you
go find someone that you can change for
take care alright. :)
LOVES
and hurry go home. your parents are worried
and they love you okay. thats impt

☆卓文萱&曹格-梁山伯与茱丽叶☆

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
I Love You
我爱你 你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着 未来
为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

can say it kinda describe me.
toodles

Don’t take too long to say
“I love you” to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you’ve gone away,
Stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
With each and every word that passes by,
Like a distant memory,
And time keeps slipping away,
And time will turn to grey,
And time will be the one who holds you down

i like this song. someone send it to me please
oh you are suppose to sing a song t me

i'm going to fall asleep soon
anyways.
today is like the first time for the past one month
that me and the rest didnt meet
feeling so amazed

dunno why but i feel so moodless
so moodless to do anything
someone asked me abt us
ask if were goin to patch
my ans was lets not talk abt it
i'm being left speechless when the topics comes to US
i dunno what to tell people.

anyway woke up not really happy
then went to vivo to catch a movie with kaven
watched deja vu
not quite a bad movie. something new
wanna watch so many movies with you
happy feet&the holiday&cinderella&death note 2 etc etc
but dunno whether can watch with you
then headed down to pasir ris for dinner
finally ate the fish noodle
yummy yum yum
then was disturbing kaven
so funny luh
then walked her back
then now i'm home

i still hate my family
rah!
my sister is getting rather irritating
its freaking hell not my fault
she come and scold me and slap me
fuck her lah
@#$^&$%@#
then my dad scold me when i'm so nice to him
then my mum screamed at me for being a nuisance when i wanted to talk to her
and chased me out of the room
grandparents. usual. nag non stop at me
i rather not be at home and die ont he streets
when i decide to be a good girl to yall
i get scolded in the end
whats the point
FUCK THIS FAMILY

what the hell is wrong with me
ppl hurt me and all
and i still care for them so much
verbally i hate them alot.
inside me i still care for them alot
yes, just call me stupid

cheer up okay.
things will be just fine.
even if the whole world is falling on you
i'll still be here as promised

sometimes i just need someone
to hug me once in awhile and tell me everything is fine too
its been a long time since such family thing happen
if you get what i mean
sigh. its going to carry on
nights people

currently very moodless

HUNHUN YOU'RE FINALLY BACK!
I MISS YOU LUH

you reached at 5 plus.
fell asleep in btw while waiting for your call
did a video for you. be happy okay.
didint sleep properly for the past few days cause of you
msg me at weird timings. come online eearly in the morning and all
anyways.
you reached home then i called you all the way until 9 plus?
then you slept until 11 plus and woke me up
then i still fell back to sleep in the end
met you,xinyi,steff,friend,rayne.jade,keith,hanjin
then walked ard eat drink coffee
i've been drinking coffee everyday can
you bought a tinkerbell polo tee for me! :DDD
THANK YOU!
watched deck the halls
quite nice luh
then towned
had dinner then sent that stupid hun back home
then cabbed home
talked to her on the phone and so funny luh
cause i kept questioning her abt so many stuff
then talked rubbish
and now xy is at my place.
i'm hungry!!!
you fell asleep on the phone!
ROAR!

no promises
you send to me one rmb :)))
this nearly one mth when you're not mine
i realised that its not reliance
but something i call love
its not that i cant get use to not having you w/o you by my side
but is i just cant let you go and miss you so dearly
this time when you're back
promise that you'll stay by me
and not lie to me anymore
& dont treat me nice and all only for awhile
and then be back the ugly kaven alright
hoped that you'll be really ready soon
i dont wanna preasure you and all
blahblahblah
just no lies from you
i just want pure honestly :))
found out so many things today
cleared most of my doubts
thanks!
i just wanna stay happy when i'm with you
& i feel so blissed by the way you treat me today
but i became a meanie and bullied you
hahas.
can you still treat me the same?
pamper me and all like today okay
and yes
kaven tan.
WO AI NI!
ILOVEYOU!

p.s i'm still waiting for you to say it to me.

i miss you. yes i do
but is there anything i can do?
i so wanna hug you tight now
i so wanna tell you so many things now
i wanna tell you how much i love you
i wanna hear from you these 3 words iloveyou from the bottom of your heart
but can i?
i felt so chrashed up looking at your friendster.
you still didnt change your profile at all.
it was for her and its stil for her.
and your testimonials and your reply to my testimonial
its so hurting. honeyed kaven. ouch!
you've got a honey already.
i shant call you hun anymore.
its not for me to call.
i shall just call you friend, kaven
when you're back. dont need to meet me everyday.
its okay
you've got so many ppl to meet in so lil time.
so just meet them. i'm not impt.
its okay.
i'll just let you fly. dont let me tie you down when you cant
come back to me only when you're ready for promises and commitments
come back to me only when i see that trust in you fo rme to trust
come back to me only when i see that you stop flirting
bye

HELLO!!
i'm going to blog again! hahas
stupid xinyi is driving me and rayne so crazy
that me and him have to blog abt her retardedness!
my GOODNESS
hahas.
RETARDED=RAYNE
right xinyi?
CRAZY/RETARD/WORZXWORZX/POTATO=XINYI!!!
XINYI'S THEORY:
there are so many WORX(walls)eveywhere
you know your heart also got WOrx(walls)
RAYNE'S THEORY:
therefore all the ah lians bang into the WorX(walls)

oh shrimp!
i'm going to go nuts with them around worxzing here and there!
i swear i'm going to send XY back to her house
IMH (INSTITUE of MENTAL HEALTH)

XINYI SHALL INVADE. C:
HELLO EVERYBODDAYE,
MICH HAS A WORX CARD (:
for more offers on worxzx pink combs&pinkishh puremilkxzx tshirt,
pleas go t her (:
ANYWAY, HELLLLOOO -SHOUTS.
:}
I DONT STAY IN IMH YKNOW, too quiet for me alr,
well mich stays beside my ward (:
BYEBYE

HELLO! :D
my blog is abt to grow dust.
hahas.
jade's chalet was fun fun fun.
i love JADE!!!
people i love came too. hahas
i feel so stress now
cause miss xinyi and rayne is lookin at me blog
haiyo!
dont look can?!?!?!?! stress you know.
oh btw i'm at the airport now. hahas!
things are getting rather confusing now
hurry come back you stupid fat pig
hahas. then you can listen to all my complaints!
hahas. lalalalalala
stupid cramps is gg to killing soon.hahas
oh i'm gg to die of pain everywhere. hahas
we're geeting really bored at the airport!
i'm hungry!!! ROAR!
xinyi is gg crazy soon taking the stupid miss sixty bottle
i better entertain her. hahas
TOODLES

idomissyouprecious.
TOODLES