HELLO!
i'm at varron's hse now
went out with xinyi today
walked ard far east first then kaven came along
i saw this cheong sum at far east
so nice can!
its the perfect length
but but but its a top so the lace part is too high
nvm. got the dress but dont have the colour i want
shall go tailor make my dress
hahas!
oh i ate my apple!
i'll be addicted to eat every meal
hahas! i shall go on a apple diet :)
then walked to wisma. walked around. saw gorgeous shoes
then headed dwn to ssc to meet xinyi fren ; varon, cc,wk
then rayne kang and bentan came ssc to find us
then they played pool too.
so boring luh. nobody entertain me :(
then mr kaven pearlyn oyster eggplant brinjal eggshell tan qian hui kuku went to city hall to meet her fren
leave me all alone
then went down to this prata hse to eat with them
walked to varons hse after that
and later we have to walk baack to my house
which is like damn effing far

friendship is not abt quantity.
its abt the quality
you always think i dont have a life on my own
and thinks that i get brainwashed so easily
in other words you always think i'm stupid
stupid enough to know what kind of person someone is
come on luh, this shows how well you know me
so what if you know me for nearly 2 years?
pearlyn knws me for nearly a year also knw that i'm not that stupid
and even ppl that knw me for not that long knws that i'm not that dumb
you knw something abt you
look around you
you have frens that really treat you like treasure
and yet you dont cherish them.
you have frends who treat you like dirt
and will only come to you when they need you finanacially or what ever
and you treat them like treasure
wtf is wrong with you
you ask yourself okay. who was there nearly all the time when you break down
rmb right after the chalet thing. you couldnt sleep and i rushed right over even i was tired to see whether you were okay
dont forget all the late nights when you always break down
who was always there to give you a hug and be there for you
who took care of you when your leg broke and you were sick
who cooked for you and teach you how to take care of yourself when you have gastric
no matter what time it was, if i could make it i would have gone down to meet you
even if i as tired sick or whatever.
its not that i got brainwashed by her
its just that she;s not doing any harm to me
and not to anyone.
when we're out we dont even bitch abt ppl
get it?
she's not as bad as you think she as.
if i could now i really dont ind slappin you and waking you up form your own world
stop thinking abt the friendship abt you and him
if things are not meant to be like that then let it be.
trust me you're freaking him out
and making everyone think that you're gay
snap back to reality. he's not the only friend okay
for god's sake open your eyes bigger and see for yourself okay
i dont wanna say anymore.
you will nvr understand.

first time clubbing with kaven at DXO :D

while waiting for hanjin.


sch is startign in like few hours time and i cant get to sleep
these are the two people i love, xinyi and kaven!
the rock my socks to the max
i love you!
i cant wait for sch to start
and meet keith and rest and see all of them in sch uni
so cute luh!
hahas
the holidays have been fun
i should be in the same class as emu and jy i hope!
ph i'd better me

wo ai ni :D

HELLO!
its 2007 now.
its a new beginning for everyone including me
so many good and bad things happened in 2006
but now its just the past.
many things are different now
sometimes things are just so obvious
but people just dont see it
this is called self denial
its not good to be lying to yourself
thats running away from reality
and so many things have proven to me that a leopard will nvr change its spots
year 2006 made me grow up even more
we have to learn how to let go
dont leave things unsaid and undone
you only live that very one time
trust me you'll nvr go wrong treasuring ppl ard you

ytd went for countdown at ESPLANADE
with kaven and xinyi and zave
the fireworks was okay luh
my heels were killing me!
then WALKED to cathay to meet shan,krys,jeremy&alex
watched deathnote 2
nice nice. ahas. L is weirdly cute
hahas
while waiting for a cab to fetch us to macpherson to meet KEITHLENG
talked to krystal.
found out so many things.
but its a secret between both of us
HAHAS!
then went down to macpherson and the stupid prata shop is not open!
then walked to the market there to eat vegetarian noodles
then talked alot of rubbish
then walk to the bus stop and went home and saw rayne
reached home wore the big big big shirt and sleep!
i'm hungry now. i'm gg to bite someone soon!

school is gg to start!
i so cant wait!
haahas
me and xinyi are hoping for 3 points for N's
hahas!
and we are gg to meet everybody in sch uni afterr sch
so exciting!
i might be in the same class as jy!
7 yrs of frenship.
cannot escape from being in the same class as you all the time.
its like p1-p4 same class then sec1-2 same class. now till sec 5 also same
hahas. i miss you bitch!
hahas

i'm gg to cough to my grave soon
just in case i really do
i love you xinyi!
plus kaven tan!
(:

this will be my last words to you
after this i dont wanna talk abt it anymore
i've made things clear enough in my phone
understand!
the answer is obvious
go with her luh
i'll still be here for you if you need me
i can always be your bestfriend
cause i und you inside in outside out
you wanna know why i made up my mind?
cause of the things you do and say
in the end you will still go down
so whats the point get it
not only to see her but also another her
and when sch starts if we're still tgt things wont be good
cause there will be so many new girls better than me
so we'll argue for sure.
its a fact that you can nvr settle down and change for me
it shows that i'm not the one for you
go find someone that you can change for
take care alright. :)
LOVES
and hurry go home. your parents are worried
and they love you okay. thats impt

☆卓文萱&曹格-梁山伯与茱丽叶☆

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
I Love You
我爱你 你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着 未来
为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

can say it kinda describe me.
toodles

Don’t take too long to say
“I love you” to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you’ve gone away,
Stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
With each and every word that passes by,
Like a distant memory,
And time keeps slipping away,
And time will turn to grey,
And time will be the one who holds you down

i like this song. someone send it to me please
oh you are suppose to sing a song t me

i'm going to fall asleep soon
anyways.
today is like the first time for the past one month
that me and the rest didnt meet
feeling so amazed

dunno why but i feel so moodless
so moodless to do anything
someone asked me abt us
ask if were goin to patch
my ans was lets not talk abt it
i'm being left speechless when the topics comes to US
i dunno what to tell people.

anyway woke up not really happy
then went to vivo to catch a movie with kaven
watched deja vu
not quite a bad movie. something new
wanna watch so many movies with you
happy feet&the holiday&cinderella&death note 2 etc etc
but dunno whether can watch with you
then headed down to pasir ris for dinner
finally ate the fish noodle
yummy yum yum
then was disturbing kaven
so funny luh
then walked her back
then now i'm home

i still hate my family
rah!
my sister is getting rather irritating
its freaking hell not my fault
she come and scold me and slap me
fuck her lah
@#$^&$%@#
then my dad scold me when i'm so nice to him
then my mum screamed at me for being a nuisance when i wanted to talk to her
and chased me out of the room
grandparents. usual. nag non stop at me
i rather not be at home and die ont he streets
when i decide to be a good girl to yall
i get scolded in the end
whats the point
FUCK THIS FAMILY

what the hell is wrong with me
ppl hurt me and all
and i still care for them so much
verbally i hate them alot.
inside me i still care for them alot
yes, just call me stupid

cheer up okay.
things will be just fine.
even if the whole world is falling on you
i'll still be here as promised

sometimes i just need someone
to hug me once in awhile and tell me everything is fine too
its been a long time since such family thing happen
if you get what i mean
sigh. its going to carry on
nights people

currently very moodless

HUNHUN YOU'RE FINALLY BACK!
I MISS YOU LUH

you reached at 5 plus.
fell asleep in btw while waiting for your call
did a video for you. be happy okay.
didint sleep properly for the past few days cause of you
msg me at weird timings. come online eearly in the morning and all
anyways.
you reached home then i called you all the way until 9 plus?
then you slept until 11 plus and woke me up
then i still fell back to sleep in the end
met you,xinyi,steff,friend,rayne.jade,keith,hanjin
then walked ard eat drink coffee
i've been drinking coffee everyday can
you bought a tinkerbell polo tee for me! :DDD
THANK YOU!
watched deck the halls
quite nice luh
then towned
had dinner then sent that stupid hun back home
then cabbed home
talked to her on the phone and so funny luh
cause i kept questioning her abt so many stuff
then talked rubbish
and now xy is at my place.
i'm hungry!!!
you fell asleep on the phone!
ROAR!

no promises
you send to me one rmb :)))
this nearly one mth when you're not mine
i realised that its not reliance
but something i call love
its not that i cant get use to not having you w/o you by my side
but is i just cant let you go and miss you so dearly
this time when you're back
promise that you'll stay by me
and not lie to me anymore
& dont treat me nice and all only for awhile
and then be back the ugly kaven alright
hoped that you'll be really ready soon
i dont wanna preasure you and all
blahblahblah
just no lies from you
i just want pure honestly :))
found out so many things today
cleared most of my doubts
thanks!
i just wanna stay happy when i'm with you
& i feel so blissed by the way you treat me today
but i became a meanie and bullied you
hahas.
can you still treat me the same?
pamper me and all like today okay
and yes
kaven tan.
WO AI NI!
ILOVEYOU!

p.s i'm still waiting for you to say it to me.

i miss you. yes i do
but is there anything i can do?
i so wanna hug you tight now
i so wanna tell you so many things now
i wanna tell you how much i love you
i wanna hear from you these 3 words iloveyou from the bottom of your heart
but can i?
i felt so chrashed up looking at your friendster.
you still didnt change your profile at all.
it was for her and its stil for her.
and your testimonials and your reply to my testimonial
its so hurting. honeyed kaven. ouch!
you've got a honey already.
i shant call you hun anymore.
its not for me to call.
i shall just call you friend, kaven
when you're back. dont need to meet me everyday.
its okay
you've got so many ppl to meet in so lil time.
so just meet them. i'm not impt.
its okay.
i'll just let you fly. dont let me tie you down when you cant
come back to me only when you're ready for promises and commitments
come back to me only when i see that trust in you fo rme to trust
come back to me only when i see that you stop flirting
bye

HELLO!!
i'm going to blog again! hahas
stupid xinyi is driving me and rayne so crazy
that me and him have to blog abt her retardedness!
my GOODNESS
hahas.
RETARDED=RAYNE
right xinyi?
CRAZY/RETARD/WORZXWORZX/POTATO=XINYI!!!
XINYI'S THEORY:
there are so many WORX(walls)eveywhere
you know your heart also got WOrx(walls)
RAYNE'S THEORY:
therefore all the ah lians bang into the WorX(walls)

oh shrimp!
i'm going to go nuts with them around worxzing here and there!
i swear i'm going to send XY back to her house
IMH (INSTITUE of MENTAL HEALTH)

XINYI SHALL INVADE. C:
HELLO EVERYBODDAYE,
MICH HAS A WORX CARD (:
for more offers on worxzx pink combs&pinkishh puremilkxzx tshirt,
pleas go t her (:
ANYWAY, HELLLLOOO -SHOUTS.
:}
I DONT STAY IN IMH YKNOW, too quiet for me alr,
well mich stays beside my ward (:
BYEBYE

HELLO! :D
my blog is abt to grow dust.
hahas.
jade's chalet was fun fun fun.
i love JADE!!!
people i love came too. hahas
i feel so stress now
cause miss xinyi and rayne is lookin at me blog
haiyo!
dont look can?!?!?!?! stress you know.
oh btw i'm at the airport now. hahas!
things are getting rather confusing now
hurry come back you stupid fat pig
hahas. then you can listen to all my complaints!
hahas. lalalalalala
stupid cramps is gg to killing soon.hahas
oh i'm gg to die of pain everywhere. hahas
we're geeting really bored at the airport!
i'm hungry!!! ROAR!
xinyi is gg crazy soon taking the stupid miss sixty bottle
i better entertain her. hahas
TOODLES

idomissyouprecious.
TOODLES

this few days so tired
but was fun. made new friends like xinyi. nicole. pui pui. rayne. kenneth and AH SOON
hahas. i miss the bugger.
anyways..
i miss you
i miss my MUMMY!!!
i miss my baby zenn. HAHA! jk only
i miss JADE!
i miss DAN!
i miss GRACE!
i miss EMU!
i miss CHOW!
i miss my fellow 3-10ners!!!
i miss so many ppl!
hahas. but still someone the most.
you know when you wanna sweet talk with me you have to say something that i cant shoot you back
for instance if someone says i'll love you like the nvr ending river
i'll most probably say what if theres a drought!
hahas!
so so far the best ans would be even if the world is coming to an end i'll still carry on loving you
hahas
after so may things.
i realise the different faces of my frens.
it just disgust me. why be so arrogant
be HUMBLE!!! dont brag!
and dont lie! especially to me
i'll hateyou.
anyways
updated with cyn lots of stuff.
i love her lah.
mummy you better take good care okay.
lalalala
i dunno what to blog abt already

everything ended just like that
listen to me and just move on
you'll be able to find someone else better
i have to keep lying to myself everynow and then
to make myself happy
not to let ppl worry for me
i cried myself to sleep last night as i thought of you and wrote the book
everywhere i go just reminds me of you
anything i do just reminds me of you
even when i'm out pooling
the songs they play was all the songs we used to listen
roar!
it died long ago? hmmm i wonder
take care alright

enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know
can you please answer my questions

enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know

baby. could you tell me what you feel now
thats all i need to know
its killing me not knowing
that post is just not for me right
cause i didnt even give you any cold treatment lah
but the song lyrics,.
i dunno
ytd i had this very blissed feeling
as if we're staying tgt again
like that feeling we had last time
if its for her just say its for her
why did you still call me baby ytd
why?
i'm very very lost
baby. please, take it as i'm begging you
tell me everything
even if it hurts me.
please

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

baby. would you just tell me how you feel
thats all i need to know
why is your heart tearing apart

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
'Cause
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You're every breath that I breathe
From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'Cause it feels so good to me

WRONG SONG CHOICE.

it was for somebody else.

not me.

michele. whats wrong with you

when its for you you think its not for you

now when its not for you you think its for you

how dumb of you

she wont love you anymore lah michele

she'll be happier without the bitchy me

stop dreaming lah michele

to you.

i really miss you so much now
i wanna spend every second lying on you
i feel so safe and bliss on you shoulders
each time you hold my hand now
my heart thumps so fast
just like we first met
i felt like a lil girl falling in love with you again
you are the only one that ever made me feel like this
when can i ever call you mine again
when is the next time i can cuddle you for long
i wanted to say i love you
but i just didnt have the courage to say it
i'll nvr stop loving you
right now i feel like we're dating all over again
i have to pluck up alot of courage to say i miss you and call you baby
right now
i'm willing to do anything just to call you mine
or just to hear you calling me baby
and knowing that you miss me every sec
maybe that will be impossible.
i dunno.
why did i still let you go when i love you so so much
maybe its beacuse i feel you'll be better off without me
right noe arent you happier that you have all your freedom back
if ever one day fate might bring us back
i dont wanna argue with you at all
and just live everyday happily and loving you
and not letting you go again
but i want no more lies from you
it hurts my heart each time you lie,
haii...
i miss you.

p.s

you know sometimes is not i wanna be bitchy to you

or scream at you

i just need to know how you feel

whether you still want me

or you already have someone else

i swear my condition is getting worst

i want you to take care of me

but i dont wanna be your burden

i also wish to hold you tight and say i love you

wait maybe thats not for me

but yupps

baby.. could you tell me what you're thinkin?

if you want me to be your friend i will

and i force myself to stop loving you and be your friend

you want me to keep loving you tell me

baby would you justy tell me everything

even if it hurts me

you said you knew what you want and now you dont

i'm confused. i'm trying to control my temper

i got scolded by my frens for my horrible temper towards you

i'm really trying my best to be that understanding gf

you want us to be dating all over again

or just be friends

dont always eat maggi mee

not good for health

mosquito bite then do the cross thing then run it under water

you'll feel better.

haii.

just take care

i miss you. :'(
alot.
but how am i suppose to tell you
its so difficult to say out
i cried cause i regretted not hugging you.
i cried because i miss you soo soo much you know

it seems like you've stop loving me
it seems like you've gotten over me
you are still so happy
you dont need me
you have your eye candy your fling your darlings your laopos and the girls you like and all
i'm just nobody to you now
browsed thru your friendster
and our pictures are slowly gettin lesser
captions becoming like normal friends
i dont wanna give you up
i still want you so badly
but so
i cant trust love anymore
could you make me trust it once again?
and not break it
i'm so lost i'm so lost
holding back my tears eveyrday but now i cant take it already
i dunno whats wrong with me but i just wanna cry
i watch humour show i can still cry
whats wrong with me
i feel llike the whole world is crashing upon me
will you still be here for me
hugging me tight andkissing me telling me everything is fine
theres something b/w us
and thats our friends
now i dont think thats our problem already
maybe the problem lies in you?
you dont wanna commit?
you still wanna fling around?
using your freinds as a excuse so that even if you flirt no one will say you?
i dunno
but so many things are running thru my head now
i'm breaking down for sure
i'm losing myself
i'm losing everything
my love, my friends, my family
i miss you so terribly you know
can you ever make the luckiest girl
to make you change and settle down for me?
i dunno i dunno i dunno
right now i know i only want to see you
i wanna hold you in my arms so tightly espeacially your heart
but it takes two hands to clap.
i can only love you and misss you secretly
i can only try to help you secretly
i love you.

i miss you.
do you know?
can you hear me calling out for you?
you are all that i ever needed
you are all that i ever wanted
i wanna tie your heart so that you'll only love me
will you give me a chance to do so?
you you give us another chance so that everything restarts from the day we messaged?
the messages you messaged was so sweet to me that i'll nvr forget
you made me dared to love again
becuase i thought you were very faithful
i would dare to love you cause i thought i would not get hurt
rmb the fisrt time we met at bugis?
the first time you came over my place
the first time from everything
the fisrt time we held hands
the first time we hugged
the first time we kissed
rmb the days i stayed at your house we felt so blissed
rmb the days when we are just so in love with each other
rmb the silly dreams and thoughts we have
like what will happen if we stay tgt
we think we dont need to go out le cause you'll be hugging me so tight
and our dream house; our future house
purple orange?
big bed?
cosy corners
and all that stuffs
whenever i feel down
al i need is a hug from you. telling me everything is fine
inside me i can tell you i'm still a lil girl that cant handle my frendship and family problems
when i'm queit and emo. i think of my family and friends and if you're beside eme i hoped you will just sayang me
whenever you're down too. i'll always be there for you
i hoped that whenever i msged you
you will at leaset reply lettin me know that you're okay
how i wish everything will be alright now
everything will be like b4
the love and passion we once shared
i just wanna tell you that my love for you nvr changed but its growing everyday
i just wanna tell you i miss you alot too.