baby.
im sorry to make you cry...
sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..
tears are rolling down as yu read the card to me..
god damn it..
im not worth it.
but i can assure you.
i wun give up.

-pearlyn

if you are left with no more way.
den take the hard way ok.
i wun blame you..
im sorry for everything!

-pearlyn

baby
what you are dead already
you wanna leave me all alone now is it?
is that so

right now i'm still thinking whether you're okay already?
do you really wanna want me to not love you so much?
that line scares me
are you going to leave me soon?
haiii
all these thoughts are still running in my head
seeing you msn nick
leaves me with nth to say
am i causing your life to be like that?
you're dead again?
what does it means?
you claim to love me alot
then could you be happy just for me?
haii
i feel like i've really did not done my part as a gf
instead i change your world from white to black
haiii
baby baby baby
seriously tell me whats wrong
dont say i dunno
cause i know there are reasons to it
haii
you're sleeping now
so i shall just wait for you to call me

baby.
take care of yourself okaes.
IM DEAD ALREADY.

-pearlyn

i walked home alone
crying to myself
whats wrong with me?
i dunno
cause i just cant lose you
you're the only one i desire and love
i miss you

baby
i seriously need to know whats wrong
dont tell me you dont know
theres got to be a reason
i dont care if it hurts me or what
i just need to know
come clean with me please
i dont wanna end up doing it the hard way
you dont wish too right
seeing you like that hurts me alot
i wish everything will be alright
i want us to
be strong like the trees
staying strong in rain, storm
i wanna pull through it together with you
rmb out lil test?
do you wanna fail it or pass it?
i wanna pass it for sure
i know this test is very hard
but yea
love will show everything
i gave my heart to you
i'm giving you my hand to hold
and see whether you wanna hold it now
and walk through this storm tgt hand in hand
dont feel insecure and all already
i'm loving you with all my heart
i just wanna see you be yourself
whatever you're not happy with say
be clear with me
i dont want you to hide anything from me
like how i'm not hiding anything from you
i dont want you to do stupid things already
you know i'll get angry right
and my heart is bleeding now
it just hurts to see you sad nearly everyday
it shows me that i have failed my duty as a gf
just by not making the one i love happy
have some confidence in yourself would you
and have faith in me
dont compare yourself with others
foy you're the only one i love
love cant be compared
sometimes i wished you were in my shoes and i was in your
so that i know what you;re thinkin
love isnt fair
love isnt abt comparing
i've nvr did compare you with her
so stop comparing please
i wanna prove my love for you
could you prove your love for me too
and stop saying abt death
what if something happens to you?
whats going to happen to me
dont be so irresponsible and leave me all alone
i know i'm selfish
i'm sorry
but i'm like that
i've stop all my paranoid and sensitive stuff
would you stop it too
maybe now is karma
in the strating of the r/s i was like that
and now you're like that
i've gotta accept my fate
fate fate fate
my life is all planned out for me
i just wanna be with you baby
you make me happy
you make me smile
you make go crazily in love with you
you make my life so meaningful now
you make my heart beating for you
you make me so addicted to you
you make me smiling knowing that i'll still be with you everyday of my life
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
baby
cheer up alright
bye darling
love you
miss you

i miss you :(
do you?
i cant wait to see you tml

swan
please be alright okay
we're all here for you
now you're all broken and all
and i have confidence in you that you'll pick yourself up once again
take care

hmmm
i hope the lil note i wrote for you
did help a lil
baby what can i do for you?

jade
a true friend indeed
i'll miss you if you go
but you have to study really really hard to stay
i love you jade!

baby
you gave me this love that cant be replaced
its so irristable and addictive
i love you baby
i was so touched today
you showed me how much you cared
and you were there for me when i cried
and just a lil hug from you is so good
you told me even if jade left you'll still be here
baby
and now i'm goin got tell you this
if everyone were to turn thier backs at you
i'll still be there with you all the way
supporting,caring and loving you
i just want you to be happy okay
i love you baby
i miss you
hehes
*BIG FAT WET KISSES*

went all the way to amk to get something for baby
but dont have
so have to go all the way to CLEMENTI
so far lor
haiyoyo
pouts
i'm so damn tired lah
falling asleep in class and all

haiii
i'm getting paranoid
i dunno why
maybe i'm just afraid of losing the one i love
how come it feels like your feeelings are fadding
stop the thinking
pouts pouts pouts

schools not fun at all
haii
but what to do
still have to go
argh!!!!

off i go!

honey stars makes me high!!
hahas

i know your eyes in the morning sun.
i feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
and the moment that you wander far away from me
i wanna feel you in my arms again.
and you come to me on a summer breeze
keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
and its me you need to show.
how deep is your love.
i really need to learnn cause we are living in a world of fools.
breaking us down
when they all should let us be
we belong to you and me.
i believe in you.
you know the door to my very soul
you are the light in my deepest darkest hour
you are my saviour when i fall
and you may not think
i care for you when you know down inside
that i really do care.
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE.
this is familiar to you right.lols.
cus tis is the song lyrics.hahas. (:
nice song lorhs.
anyway.
baby.
i dun know how to live without your love.
you are the only thing within my heart.
i love you alot.
i miss you loads.
how i wish we are staying together now.
den i no need so miserable le.
baby.
i need you now.
i wanna hold you tight in my arms now.
loves.

-pearlyn.15
-010606 ; loads of love.

baby
i'm glad that you feel loved and secured
meeting you is just so great
hahas
oh no
i'm pampering you so much lah
how?
hahas
then who pamper me huh?
its okay that you think about the past
i mean who dont
unless they have concasion right
so i'm fine with it
at least i know you love me!
hahas
you better do
hahas
we'll try our very best together
and make everything work well tgt
lets walk thrugh this path hand in hand
through good and bad
and never let go
:)))
i'm glad you're not moody in class le
it'll at least bring a smile on my face
knowing that you're happy and eating and safe
seeing you happy and all just make me happy
i dont wanna see you sad le okay
dont so emotional le
dont think too much too
cause you know how much i love you
i've already promised not to leave you already
and i'll keep my word
my goodness baby
i miss you like crazy
i love you!!!
i love you earthloads!
hahas!

i love my caramel honey sugary lollipop chocalate BABY-LICIOUS!
hehes

MWAHS

-mICH09
loves

baby.
you have done enough for me.
i know you are trying hard.
im s0rry.
im feeling loved and secure already kaes.
s0rry bout the letter.
hais.
i didnt do anyting much for you..
the past is the past.
even nowadays i keep tinking bout the past.
but so what.
cause i love you now.
love you and only you.
i miss you alot.
i wan you here with me.
these few days have been spending time with you.
im happy already.
even its for one min im oso glad.
cause at least i get to catch a glimpse of you.
there's alot of ways to show that you love me.
dun everytime wait and wait for me.
cause you end up sleeping very very late.
i dun like it.
if its a friday night or sat night den neverminds.
but not on a school day.
im oso tryin my best to secure your heart.
and make you feel love.
i will try all my best kaes.
the day i will stop loving you ish the day you can count the raindrops.
i love you alot alot.
i wun moody in class okaes.
i miss you alot.
miss you till wan go crazy le.
dun leave me.
cause i promise not to leave you no matter what.
baby.
i love you.
i miss you. (:

I LOVE MY BABY! (:
WHEEEEE~

-pearlyn.15
-010606.love you alot. <3

baby
i'm sorry too
not doing enough
i'm easily contented
right now
i already feel loved and secured
you?
if you still dont please tell me
how come when i read your letter
it seems like your feeling are fading
hmmmm
i dunno
i wanna live with youtoo
like swan said
we have to make sacrifices
i know you did for me
like knowing your parents will kill you
you'll still find time to accompany me
i'm already contented
my confidence was gone too
knowiung that you loved her so much
and have done so much for her
the past is the past for me
i dont wanna look into it again
i admit i did loved her
but right now
i know i only love you and only you
i'm being very clear to you already
my love for you is just so simple
i love you beacuse i just love you so
i wanna be there for you too
but you didnt allow me to do so
cause you chose not to talk to me
i dont mind going down nearly everyday to look for you
even if itsd for awhile
so that i could secure you
and tell you i love you everyday
i wanted to run away
cause i sriously cant take it already
i was so tempted.. so tempted
my family is driving me nuts everyday
i'm getting so tensed up at home
one word coming out from their mouth and i feel like slapping them
sigh
whats wrong with me?
i dont mind waitng for your phone calls every night
even if you fall asleep
i'm not angry with you
its just a lil something i could do to show you i love you alot
and i'll do anything just for you
and to try to secure your heart
i'm trying my best
i meant every word i've said
i really love you alot
how deep is it?
deeper than the deepest ocean
the day that i'll stop loving you is the day
when the sky drops down on us
even if it does,
i'll still love you
cause its already so so so deep
that i just cant describe
i cant evern get a strand of hair out of it

baby
i love you
i'm missing you like crazy

i dont want you to be so moody in class already
i know you miss me until wanna die le
but i want you to be happy everyday
cause you should know that i'm missing you like how you are
and i i'm loving you like how you are
and look forward happilly to the day i'm meeting you happily
and you shld be happy
i dont wanna see you like that le
it hurts alot
smile okay baby

i'll not leave you
i promise


i bet you're fast alseep now
but i'll still wait
just in case you wake up all the sudden
but i'll still sleep
but not fall so deep into my sleep


ILOVEYOUBABY
MICHELELOVESPEARLYN
PEARLYNLOVESMICHELE

baby.
im s0rries for everyting that happen
maybe the problem is jus me.
i dunno whether im alright or not.
but i can assure tat i really love you.
its not as if i wanna lose you.
i cant live without your love.
i have alot of tings to say.
but suddenly everyting jus pause there
cause im jus suddenly at a lost of words.
you ask how den i will feel secure and love.
i oso want to know the answer.
im s0rries.
i didnt know that you are trying your best to do all these tings.
i tink its me who ish nort trying.
i know i keep tinking bout the past recently.
but its jus memories.
i wun suddenly have a change of heart.
i know i like that say.
you will say that you oso wun have a change of heart.
reading your past entries oso make me feel so insecure.
i didnt know that you love her so much.
you say you losing that confidence in you.
my confidence is gone over a second.
i jus love you to much to let you go.
i say i was tired and a lot of times i wanted to jus give up.
hais.
i dunno.
baby,
im s0rries.
if i really really bear to give the whole ting up
i will have done that long time ago.
you say that you want know what im tinking and feeling
but you?
did you clear your feelings with me?
the letter..
hais.
i rather you tell me face to face.
i was happy after reading the letter.
but after all its a letter.

please dun break down.
if you were to break down.
den what am i to do.
i still need you to pamper me.

you dun have to tell me whether you cry or not.
cause i know that you cried.
i was waiting for you tell me.
i know you cry cause of your family tingy.
im s0rries for not being tere for you now.
but who is tere for me?hais.
really really s0rries for everyting.

i broke down ytd.
alot of tings are happening around me.
im trying to take it as nothing happened at all.
in my mind is all about you.

you say you wanna run away from everyting.
i rather you face it den to run.
baby,
dun worry already.
i can assure you that i really love you.
please control your temper can.
im crying now as i type.
i dunno what's wrong with me
im toking to you on the fone now.
i try to act normal but i cant.
im s0rries to make you wait for my fone call.
you slept at 6am.
means you sleep only for like half an hr like that.
hais.

baby,
i really love you.
i miss you like crazy too.
but i dunno whard's wrong with me now.
not in the right state of mind.

-pearlyn

haii
baby
tell me you're okay

i dont wanna lose you
you mean so much to me
can you just tell me whats wrong?
what can i do to make you feel loved?
what can i do to secure your heart?
i really dont know what to do.
aint i trying my best doing it already?
that thing have been affecting us alot
you're afraid that i'll be like her
i'm afraid you'll be like her
what if you cant put down the past just like her?
you've been thinking abt the past alot recently
even readin abt your past entries
it makes me so insecure
i'm losing that confidence in me
i really really love you alot
you're leaving me so lost and confused
with so many random thoughts in my mind
you tell me you're tired not meeting me
and you wanna give up
it scares me
what if because of that you wanna give this whole thing up?
so many thought running through my head now
baby...
i really need you to be very clear with me now
to let me know what you're thinking
what you're feeling
i really need to know
i seriously need to know
i'm missing you like crazy already
i thought the letter would help
but i dont think it did

i'm abt to break down
i really am

i cried this afternoon
i didnt tell you
cause i didnt wanna let you see me cry
but i really wanted to hug you
but swan was there
sad enough
i dont wanna make you more worry
the reason i cried was because
i dont wanna live in this family anymore
i cant take it
i hate them
i seriously do
i wanna leave this place
what am i to them?
their maid?
and my sis is the royal princess
fuck it
i cant take this fucking bianess treatment from my family anymore
i've been controlling for the past 15 years
i'm seriously going to explode
i really need you now
where are you?

everything is not right
i'm feeling all stressed up
my nervor system is going to break down
in fact it already did
friends are sad
suidal and all
and i'm feeling so helpless
feeling so worried for them too
and darius is so sick
and i'm the only one who knows how bad his health is
i'm so worried something happens to him
what if today might be the last time i'm seeing him
haiiiii
family...
dont wanna talk abt it
i just wanna run away from this fucked up family
and so much more
today is just not a good day for me

god
please save me

i just wanna run away from everything now
i cant take it already

baby is helping me do my chinese
hahas
bleh
she volunteered herself!!!
hahas
so sweet of you
hahas

you're still sick.
please take care of yourself okay
or not i'm gg to buy a few dozens of liang teh for you
hahs
must take care of yourself
dont let me worry so much
as i cant be there to take care of you now

you better dont so hiong in sch le
rmb what you promise me okay
if you break it
i will be very angry
i dont want you to get into trouble
or get hurt

baby
i love you so much
i'm missing you like crazy
i wanna be in your arms really soon
i wanna pinch your nose
you showed me what true love really is
you showed me the feeling of being so loved by someone you truly love
rest assure
that i love you and only you
you're the only one i think of all the time
my world revolves around you
i'm so addicted to you
no matter what happens
lets be strong and overcome it all
let our love show everything
i dedicate my all to you
you are my everything
i cant leave without you
you are the reason for the smile on my face
you are the reason why i'm still living
i will stand by you
will you too?
the words you said just touched my heart
even if everyone turns their backs on you
even if the world falls down on you
i'll still be there at the end with you
i'm going head over heels over you
you make me go crazy
you are my sugar rush
my love for you is carved and planted in my heart
it will nvr stop growing
even after the day i die
my love for you will still grow
you make my world alright
so dont leave me
or everything will all be bad
cause i really love you with all my heart!

blog blog blog
i'm like going crazy here
cause i'm talking to baby
and that makes me happy!
wheeee

i miss you baby!!!

went kbox with darius and bj
two sad ppl
make it 3
bj was sad
i miss baby terribly
darius i dunno
hahas

i'm home chionging my homework
baby i miss you like crazy!
i wanna see you now!!!
omg!!!
you know my chinese class have air con!
so shiok!!!
i fell asleep until so soundly
unitl baby msg me and scare me
hahas
i have a ugly tan!!
PEARLYN TAN!!~~~
hahass
i'm hungry!!!
bleh
i have no sch on thurs and mon
but still have that stupid e learning
baby can i either go your sch
or you come my sch

my stupid mother so unfair!!
hrmph!!
now love pearlyn more than me lor
*3 claps!!
hahas
oh no
i;m getting influence
hahas

baby i wanna see you now!!
i keep thinking abt you the whole day
you're always on my mind
i love you honey bun
so.....
your my baby-licious
i'm your????
you still haven tell me lor
hahas

i dread gg to sch
argh!!!
can i meet you tml???
my god!

I MISS YOU!!
:(

here to blog then wait for baby to come online
then hit the sheets
hahas

ytd was fuun fun fun!!!
met baby at 10.15
then went down to amk to meet swan
i was eating in the bus
thanks baby for the sandwhiches you made
hahas
as usual she was late
then waited for sam also
then they ate
then we headed down to the ZOO!!!
hahas
we walked and walked
hahas
so fun lah
so many animals
i got shocked by the iguana
thanksarh
hahas
i was talking alot of nonsense
hahas
baby and swan played like small lil kids
me and sam like the mother like that
hahas
we left the zoo when the zoo is closing
we walked for five hours
our legs were dying
then we headed down to the esplanade
ate at the gluttons bay
hahas
then went to walk walk
then i walked with sam and talked alot
hahas
then the two went missing
then we couldnt be bothered
caause they were too short for us to spot
hahas
then we went to the expressway there
hopefully they could spot us
hahas
had a surprise there
hahas
baby was hugging me from the back
keep asking me to look infront
hahas
then she gave me a bouquet of flowers!
*touched*
hhas -beams for joy-
hahas
then me sam swan and baby talked
i talked to swan
baby talked to sam
to solve some things
we talk until drift away from the topic lah
damn funny
hahas
then baby talked to swan
i talked to sam
drift away again
hahas
then finally swan talk to sam and
me and baby
were playing?
hahas
baby was like entertaining the whjole world
hahas
silly baby
we talked until 11 plus lah
then we headed home
dday came to fetch me and baby
so happy you stayed over
hahsa
i told baby this
you know why i love you so much
cause you are silly retarded and cute!
hahas
lalalalalas

baby
you make my day
hahas
if we were to stay tgt we will nvr wake up
hahas
you have to take proper care okay
now you so heaty
i heart pain okay
tml you better not be late

short and sweet

i love you honey bun
i miss you like crazy!!
MWAHS!

baby!!
happy one month!
hahas
i love you!!!

you make me smile
you make me the happiest
you make me so in love with you
you make me think abt you every sec
you make me love you more and more
you make me wanna spend my life with you
you make me wanna see you every second
you make me miss you like crazy
you make me ....
aww... i just love you!!! =)))

i love it
when our eyes meet
when we touch
when we hold each other
when you say you love me
when our hearts beat
when i hear your voice
when i see you
when you act retarded..silly baby
it all just show me how much i love you
and how much you love me
it shows me that you're the one for me
it shows me that i cant live without you
it shows me you're everything for me
it shows me i simply love you!!

i live my life for you baby
hehes

i love you
i miss you
happy one month
MWAHS MWAHS

MICHELE AND PEARLYN

ONE MONTH AND STILL COUNTING!!!

baby
its not your fault
there no need for a sorry
i dont know where you now
you were suppose to call me after you bathe
all you alright
you're either slping or balling
tell me you're alright
you're really sick now baby
i really wanna be there now to take care of you
i can go but nvm..
i'll see you tml then

rest assure that
i really love you
i miss you like crazy.

i'm abt to stab my mum really soon
she such a fucktard
i so wish that she should just go and die
my goodness
ARGH!!!she's irritating the shit out of me
i'm already fucking sick and still ask me to do this do that
fuck you lah!
you think i your maid is it?!?!
what kind of fucking mother are you
come home and just lie on the bed
use com and treat yourself like some royal queen!
wake up lah!!
ARGH!!! ARGH!!!!!

anyway met baby ytd
i was freaking happy
but i was sick but i still went down to pasir ris and look for her
hahas
i just lied on her shoulders ytd night at the playground
and looked into the sky
i so wished that the time could just stop
baby i dont want you to cry le okay
it hurts me to see you cry
i just didnt know wat to do ytd but to hold you tight
siggh
i love you baby