Monday, May 08, 2006

"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.
"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

ytd was fun fun fun
thanks to lyd ho, jade, dan, swan and nick
met dan at j8 there
then went to lyd house because i was a lil sick and tired
they were acting fishy
i knew what they were up too
sure cook one
and i was right
the part i got shocked waS
i only saw nick shoe
then swan poped out in front off me
got bdae huggs from all of them
ahas
then walked to the kitchen
they baked a cake for me
really touched
they went into the room and cried
because... i think they shld know
then swan came in with a ribbon tied on her head
and ask me to untie
she is my present hahas
damn funny lah
people dont get the wrong idea
then went to eat the food they cooked
after that we were playing in the room
then they went over to my place to drink
hahas
swan treated my room like a playgrond lah
keep hanging on my bed
taking stupid photos
taking random videos
my mu made jade go buy cake for me
syprised lah
i love my mum now
hahas
swan was sad
both of us were crying
then when we stood up and looked at each others
retarded face we started laughing lah
so random
ytd i cry still can burp like five time
and say random stupid stuff to dan dan
live dan dan said shout all you want got nobody
then i was got PAP
and iwas crying until so jia lat
still can joke
hahas
went home with dan
talk to her
msg that pig the whole night
talk to lyd ho and swan on the phone
it was all damn nonsence lah
me and dan ony slept at like 5?
hahas
me and her tried to finish all the liquor
not because i;m sad
i;m happy cause its my bdae
and i just feel damn good
hahs

this moring woke up at 9 plus
then went to church with dan and jade
then had lunch then now i'm at home
going to mug soon
hahas
someone can actually fell asleep while studying
not surprie that she can do it anywhere
hahas
i feel like sleeping
ahash
though i'm hurt
and its hard to let go
but i'm happy now
after letting all my anger and unhappiness go
i realised how much i changed for you
and i was no longer the michele i know anymore
i lost all my friends that are so impt to me
i suffered beacause of you
yes you made me smile
we had many good memories
i cant stand this lydia now anymore
i think i'm still in love with the old lydia
that i fell in love with and used to know
the lydia now we all know
changed to someone that somewhat not faithful anymore
changed to someone that people would hate
we all miss the old lyd
and we still love the old lyd
which is so caring, loving,faithful,friendly and so many more good things
i know you dont care
if you;re happy the way you are now
then be that way

whats goes around comes around
what goes down must come down
thats what i beieve in


right now i just need someone
that love me the way i am
and accept all my flaws
and not make me change into someone i dont even know
cause when you fall for someone
you fall for the way she is
if in the relationship
she wants you to change
she just dont love you that much anymore
she just want you to be perfect to her
dont let yourself suffer in silence
its a free world
do whatever you want

i've learnt so much from this reationship
change for the better for myself
and not to somone whom you dont even know

i guess it was a mistake we patch back again and again
knowing that it wld never be the same
i just love the lyd i fell for
hoping you wld change back
but nth happen
and you dunno what you want
you always get sick and tired of things
you cant stick to one person
thats what i see now

all i can say that
this time i'm really happy
i've got all my friends back
and even my life

special thanks for all my friends that supported me and were there for me

complicated family:
sorry got no more father. will find a better one for you all soon'
thanks for being there for me all the time
and you all didnt think i treated you all like a spare tyre
i'm really thankful for making it one of my unforgetable bdae
you all always make my day. :DD

chow:
sorry for not listening to you most of the times
this time we have all the time in the world
and talk abt anything under the sun
we can go out more often
and get close again as really good friends
thanks for being there for me
no matter how much i changed
you will always make me smile in sch :D

benji:
though we are not very close
cause you are her friend
i guess now you became my friend
hahas
you were there for me too
asking me to cheer up and all
i'm thankful to find a new friend like you
hang out really really soon
at lao di fang
hahas
you make my day too :D

the pig that messaged me:
thanks for helping me
making me smile
you were there for me too
you accompanied me the whole nite ytd
through sms
ahahs
thankful i found a new friend like you too
you make my day too.
:D
and to all my other friends out there
thanks alot
i love you people!!!!
mwahs!!!!!
Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
So good, so good, since you've left

Whoa! I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, since you've left

when you've left,i got every part of me back

i feel damn good. so damn good. feeling damn happy. and this time it's true. im not lying

Thursday, May 04, 2006

i hate it i hate
how long more must i wait?
nvm...
haiiiiii
i dunno wat to say
yes i'm impatient
i feel like an irritant
kill me someone
i hate everything now
why?
honey when will y ou be okay?
i'm very distracted already
haiii

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

deep dpwn inside
i'm shaking
michele ee thinks too much
i should use all these time to think of my gf and studies
why am i thinking of useless stuff
god please dig out that part of my brain that keeps thinking like that
i really wanna stop thinking
so that things will really be okay
iloveyouhunnybunny

Monday, May 01, 2006

heylos
i finally get to see baby
she told me the camp end at 12.30
and when its gg 12 she called and said she was on the way to my place
gave me a fright
cause i didnt have time to prepare babys surprise
hahas
cooked fish for baby to eat.

baby is sleeping like a pig now
hahas
its raining and you have to leave soon
:(
dont even know whether we're meeting tml
you might be going out with your friends
i'm gonna study for my ss
you silly girl
eat more lah
see you lose so much weight my heart pain you know
i'm feeling irritated
i dunno why
pms i guess
haii
guess i shall go off now
i dunno wat else to blog abt
hmmm
hahas

Sunday, April 30, 2006

haiiii
i'm like super bored can
i'm like waiting for baby to be free
hahas
hope you break camp early
hahs
i have a lil surprise for you tml
haahs
bleah
hahas
i'm super super bored lah
haahs
someone entertain me please
so time could pass faster
hahas
i'm a lil tired but still waiting for baby
hahas
i miss you baby
oh yes
my tagboard is up again
and is my skin nice???
hahas

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

baby.
words cant discribe hpw much i love you
you made me realised so many things
i'm sorry for the past things i've done
this promise i make to you
i'll stop doing it
for you i'll change for the better
i hope you do too
i'm trying to be your perfect gf
i know you are too
but to me as long as your love stands true
its enough
you're already perfect to me
we have so many up and downs
we have alot of arguments
i'm afraid when there is any argument
that we might just end
but everything argument to us is a lil test for the both of us
and we manage to pull thru it
i'm glad
i dunno how long all these is gonna last
but i'm gonna love you like it lasts forever
i hope you would too
baby, i can't stop loving you.
;D
you were the one who taught me how to smile once again
you were the one that brought joy into my life
you were the one that taught me the meaning of true love
you were the one whom changed me
you were the one whom i love
haiiii
i'm like super bored can
i'm like waiting for baby to be free
hahas
hope you break camp early
hahs
i have a lil surprise for you tml
haahs
bleah
hahas
i'm super super bored lah
haahs
someone entertain me please
so time could pass faster
hahas
i'm a lil tired but still waiting for baby
hahas
i miss you baby
oh yes
my tagboard is up again
and is my skin nice???
hahas

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

baby.
words cant discribe hpw much i love you
you made me realised so many things
i'm sorry for the past things i've done
this promise i make to you
i'll stop doing it
for you i'll change for the better
i hope you do too
i'm trying to be your perfect gf
i know you are too
but to me as long as your love stands true
its enough
you're already perfect to me
we have so many up and downs
we have alot of arguments
i'm afraid when there is any argument
that we might just end
but everything argument to us is a lil test for the both of us
and we manage to pull thru it
i'm glad
i dunno how long all these is gonna last
but i'm gonna love you like it lasts forever
i hope you would too
baby, i can't stop loving you.
;D
you were the one who taught me how to smile once again
you were the one that brought joy into my life
you were the one that taught me the meaning of true love
you were the one whom changed me
you were the one whom i love

Saturday, April 29, 2006

baby
right now i know you're still angry with me
please forgive me already
i promise you i'll stop it already
i really wish you could cool down
i dont wanna see you like that anymore
i feel very.... i dunno how to say
i'm so afraid all these things will affect us
you said you might never cool off
i hope you will
or i'll be very sad
right now i feel so lost
all i ask is for us to be okay
baby..
please
thats all i'm asking for...
i'm sorry
sigh...
baby
right now i know you're still angry with me
please forgive me already
i promise you i'll stop it already
i really wish you could cool down
i dont wanna see you like that anymore
i feel very.... i dunno how to say
i'm so afraid all these things will affect us
you said you might never cool off
i hope you will
or i'll be very sad
right now i feel so lost
all i ask is for us to be okay
baby..
please
thats all i'm asking for...
i'm sorry
sigh...

Thursday, April 27, 2006

maybe i might sound irritating to you now
i only know how to make you angry
i always spoil the day
sigh...
its like we're so happy then like that
i'm trying my best to make you smile
i hate it when you attitude me
like how you hate it when i attitude you
i really just wanna go to her house only with you
theres always another time i could go her place anyway
baby..
don't like that already please
smile :D
i'm really fine with not going
and i'm not lying
cause if i'm lying i'll find excuses
but now you dont wish to talk to me
it hurts :(
sorry if i did anything wrong alright
i can't wait to see you later.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

i'm so tired!!!
not enough of sleep lah
had my english paper today
compo was okay
rather amazed with my self
but compre was a horror
i think i dont even have one question right
sucks lah
during compre had stomach ache
tahen umtil end of paper amd flew to take my phone and zoom to the toilet
i lao sai lah can
i visited the toilet three times lah
one durinhg lesson two before lesson
i think its the maths blues
caused after maths i was perfectly fine
and those who were not feeling well
was feeling better after maths
hahas
after that went grocery shopping for FnN
hahas
then went home
tried to defrost the fish but
it didnt defrost in time
so i went straight to town to meet baby
baby is going for camp for 4 days!!!
:(
and i'll be all alone
sians...
then before her camp she got training
lesser time to spend with baby
sians...
anyways
wish me all the best for FnN prac tml
hahas
i think baby is falling asleep on the phone now
hahas
hopes she snores so i can laugh at her tml
hahas
cant wait to see baby tml
hope you would pick me up from sch tml
:D
exams are like next week
better start revising and prove all my teaccher wrong
hahas

baby.
i'm really happy that our relationship is getting stronger
day by day.
i hope this will never stop.
i'll always remember what you told me
iloveyoubaby
:D

Sunday, April 23, 2006

hmmms..
baby is complaining that i dont blog
hahas
anyways..
baby went to her gramps house today
and i was at home whole day lah
so boring lah
i cant stay at home for long
cause i keep eatin and eating
i am playing maple??
hahas
yes i am
hahas
i level up for my sister ytd lah
hahsas
my mum is super irritating lah
i rather her work 24/7
she stay at home like a sick patient like that
i must serve her
samn irritating lah
stupid bitch
okays. i shall stop it
oh ya my dad is finally back
after more than a week
hahas
i actually missed him
anyways
ytd i talk to baby at my place
now you finally know why
i think so much
simply cause i'm afraid
cause you lift me to the highest point and drop me to the end
more then two times
obviously i'm afraid
but all these have not stop me from loving you
hehes
my love for you is true
when you hugged me tight
i feel so secure
its the feeling i always wanted
to feel loved and secured in your arms
you've secured me that night
you told me you ren ding is me
and you hope 5 years later its still the same
i hope so too.
iloveyou baby
=D

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

happy nine months baby!!
i love you
all these months have been tough but still had some good memories
there have been lots of ups and downs.
hope from this months on things will get better.
iloveyou baby.

picked baby up at woodlands
it was raining so heavily
and baby was drenched
hahas
her hair was MARVELLOUS!!!
hahas
then took a train back to tp
bought bread
and corn with mushroom soup
headed back to my place
i cooked the soup while baby did her journal
good boy ar someone
hahas
then rest awhile at my place
then she left at 8
hahas.
going to see you train later
hahas
cant wait to see you tml lah.
hahas.
i miss you baby
and once again happy nine month!!

Friday, April 14, 2006

today slacked at home with my baby.
hahas
it was good friday
i cant eat meat.
and all my cravings atart coming.
i wanna eat ikea meatballs all the sudden
hahas
yupps..
my grandma cokked meat for baby.
so tempting
but i resisted the temptation.
i'm hungry now. hhas

things are rather bad for me and baby now
cause her parents found out and are making a big fuss abt it.
they want us to break up :((
we wont. we will never.
i hope so..
i want you to hold my hand until the very end
we shall walk thru this together
hand in hand.alright?
after this happen it made me realised hpw much i love you
and i couldnt live my life properly without you
we have to take this as a big big test.
and maybe if we pass it.
we are really meant to be?
this test can help build our relationship stronger
and our love too...
hehes
iloveyoubaby.
i cant wait to see you tml.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

baby.
i dont want you to think so much already
just remember i'll be there for you
like i always do.
baby cheer up kae.
it hurts to see you like that now.
i dunno how to help you
i feel useless.
just shun qi zi ren okay.
seriously dont think anymore.
cheer up and smile for me okay.
i wanna hear your laughter again.
i wanna hear you sing again
i wanna hear you talk nonsense with me.
i just wanna see you happy again.
iloveyoubaby.
iwillalwaysbethereforyou.

hmmm..
nth much to blog abt but
my heart have been giving me probs.
i have heart burn
and no body seems t obelieve me
except for baby.
thansk.
have been going out as usual.
yupps.
waiting for baby to be alright.
loves.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

HELLO!
had band concert today.
i'm so tired everyday lah.
hahas.
one day must sleep the whole day!!
ahahs
during band concert i seriously felt like digging a hole and hide my face
baby,swan and nick was going crazy
screaming and screaming
hahas
pai seh lah
hahas
i'm a lil high now
i'm in a good mood cause of.. hehe
baby of course
hahs

i'm glad you're sure now
hope you really are.
hope things will get better
between the both of us
i'm sorry that i doubted you
but i need assurance
cause i felt a lil insecure
thats why i had doubts.
sorry..
but i really hope you mean everything you said.
you better do
if you dont mean it then dont say it.
sorry abt just now.
but it takes two hand to clap
so we must learn how to understand
learn how to compromise
learn how to assure each other
hehes
i just love you lah.
you silly girl
i love you!!!
and i really miss you alot!
its been in my heart for so long
but i didnt tell you..
i really miss you alot.
and i hate that feeling.
its terrible.
hahas.
just pray that everything gets really better.
:))))
iloveyou baby

Sunday, April 02, 2006

ytd was fun fun fun!
its was christines birthday!!
we met up at cine
then we all headed down to marina and eat!!
had lotsa of fun cooking and taking photos!
hahas
damn ridiculous lah
hahas
walked to the bay.
they were taking photos again
and breakdancing.
today was a lil horrid
all my fault lha
i wsa being super paranoid
just thinking too much lah
from then on thinigs werent really good lah
quite cold towards each other lah
thats what i felt.
then saw swan and christine. ate dinner
then crapped and went home.

baby is so busy now lah.
that busy girl.
i have faith but i still need some assurance.
this is damn contradicting.
i cant help but to keep falling for you.
i'm falling deeper and deeper each time.
i fell too much for you that i cant take any pain anymore
cuase it;ll really hurt for sure.
i'm lost with words
but all i can say that is that i love you anf i freaking miss you.