happy nine months baby!!
i love you
all these months have been tough but still had some good memories
there have been lots of ups and downs.
hope from this months on things will get better.
iloveyou baby.

picked baby up at woodlands
it was raining so heavily
and baby was drenched
hahas
her hair was MARVELLOUS!!!
hahas
then took a train back to tp
bought bread
and corn with mushroom soup
headed back to my place
i cooked the soup while baby did her journal
good boy ar someone
hahas
then rest awhile at my place
then she left at 8
hahas.
going to see you train later
hahas
cant wait to see you tml lah.
hahas.
i miss you baby
and once again happy nine month!!

today slacked at home with my baby.
hahas
it was good friday
i cant eat meat.
and all my cravings atart coming.
i wanna eat ikea meatballs all the sudden
hahas
yupps..
my grandma cokked meat for baby.
so tempting
but i resisted the temptation.
i'm hungry now. hhas

things are rather bad for me and baby now
cause her parents found out and are making a big fuss abt it.
they want us to break up :((
we wont. we will never.
i hope so..
i want you to hold my hand until the very end
we shall walk thru this together
hand in hand.alright?
after this happen it made me realised hpw much i love you
and i couldnt live my life properly without you
we have to take this as a big big test.
and maybe if we pass it.
we are really meant to be?
this test can help build our relationship stronger
and our love too...
hehes
iloveyoubaby.
i cant wait to see you tml.

baby.
i dont want you to think so much already
just remember i'll be there for you
like i always do.
baby cheer up kae.
it hurts to see you like that now.
i dunno how to help you
i feel useless.
just shun qi zi ren okay.
seriously dont think anymore.
cheer up and smile for me okay.
i wanna hear your laughter again.
i wanna hear you sing again
i wanna hear you talk nonsense with me.
i just wanna see you happy again.
iloveyoubaby.
iwillalwaysbethereforyou.

hmmm..
nth much to blog abt but
my heart have been giving me probs.
i have heart burn
and no body seems t obelieve me
except for baby.
thansk.
have been going out as usual.
yupps.
waiting for baby to be alright.
loves.

HELLO!
had band concert today.
i'm so tired everyday lah.
hahas.
one day must sleep the whole day!!
ahahs
during band concert i seriously felt like digging a hole and hide my face
baby,swan and nick was going crazy
screaming and screaming
hahas
pai seh lah
hahas
i'm a lil high now
i'm in a good mood cause of.. hehe
baby of course
hahs

i'm glad you're sure now
hope you really are.
hope things will get better
between the both of us
i'm sorry that i doubted you
but i need assurance
cause i felt a lil insecure
thats why i had doubts.
sorry..
but i really hope you mean everything you said.
you better do
if you dont mean it then dont say it.
sorry abt just now.
but it takes two hand to clap
so we must learn how to understand
learn how to compromise
learn how to assure each other
hehes
i just love you lah.
you silly girl
i love you!!!
and i really miss you alot!
its been in my heart for so long
but i didnt tell you..
i really miss you alot.
and i hate that feeling.
its terrible.
hahas.
just pray that everything gets really better.
:))))
iloveyou baby

ytd was fun fun fun!
its was christines birthday!!
we met up at cine
then we all headed down to marina and eat!!
had lotsa of fun cooking and taking photos!
hahas
damn ridiculous lah
hahas
walked to the bay.
they were taking photos again
and breakdancing.
today was a lil horrid
all my fault lha
i wsa being super paranoid
just thinking too much lah
from then on thinigs werent really good lah
quite cold towards each other lah
thats what i felt.
then saw swan and christine. ate dinner
then crapped and went home.

baby is so busy now lah.
that busy girl.
i have faith but i still need some assurance.
this is damn contradicting.
i cant help but to keep falling for you.
i'm falling deeper and deeper each time.
i fell too much for you that i cant take any pain anymore
cuase it;ll really hurt for sure.
i'm lost with words
but all i can say that is that i love you anf i freaking miss you.

hello earthlinks!
hehes
today didnt go to sports day
then met mae and baby
went BV to walk walk
we heard that the maid was ther
so we waited for her there
benji and doreen came down
waited fir her
and finally she reached
walk down to zack shop
she was there.
she got shockkedf
they confronted her
this was what baby said which maid me laugh
baBy: you say i;ll regret, i;ll never, look at this (pendent) it say never regret loving you.
she was like showing infront of her big eyes
i was laughing lah
the way baby confronted her was scary and funny
but i had to go off for dinner at rendevous
they had chocolate and strawbrry fondue!!
yummy!!!!
then after that walked with my coussies and sis to scc
wee were retarded and talking lots of crap.
after that i'm home now talking to baby.
hahas
iloveyou

today is gan ren day.
hahas\thrashed so many things out.
wat shld i blogged abt
oh ya oh ya!!!
my block was on FIRE!!!
hahas
but only on the 21st floor
heng i stay on the 6th floor
so scary lah
baby and darius scadal.
amazed..'
haha
haahas.
everything i wanna say abt that maid is all in baby blog
shee waste my time and energy lah
CHILDISH
for grace i have nth to say but maybe
i don wanna be frinds with you anymoire
i dont wanna stupidly walk ard this circle again.
seriously afmit whatever you're doin lah
bitch!
fuck off..
waiting for baby to blog finish.
then i'm going to sleep le.

baby sometimes i want my face to..
i'm like a tamed dog.
i know its for my own good..
i dont mind
but sometimes i need my face infront of my frens
same like you wan face infront of your frens.
i'm not asking for much..
but just all this..
i already told you you've been screaming at me
i'm scared.
i told you why already..
i know that i walk away too..
i'll try my best to really understand you..
you have too also...'
or not things wont work out..
but i still have to tell you that my love or you have not changed
in fact i'm falling deeper and deeper each time.
iloveyou-

BOO!!!
hahas
my poor baby is sick.
please take care of yourself okay.
hehes
things haven really been going well for us
cause you were having tremondous moodswings
BUT
we manage to pull thru it ny something called UNDERSTANDING!
hahas
i'm glad. hehes
i love you!!!
anyways,
have been going down to pasir ris to take care of her
and caus she;s lazy to get out of the house.
hahas
lazy bum bum'
but this cant carry on cause your parents are back alredy
sad
so its your turn to come my place!
hahas
we shall save money and lose weight together
so we can look hot and sexy together!
hahas.
i'm a lil crazy now.
hahas
wheeee..........
my poor baby,
i hope you;re feeling better.
or else i drag you to the doctor!!!
hahas
tml you going to pick me up from school!!
then we go cityhall.
haha
then my place for dinner.
good!
hahas
i miss you like crazy and you are like opening gifts now lha
so good!!
hahas

BOO!!!
hahas
my poor baby is sick.
please take care of yourself okay.
hehes
things haven really been going well for us
cause you were having tremondous moodswings
BUT
we manage to pull thru it ny something called UNDERSTANDING!
hahas
i'm glad. hehes
i love you!!!
anyways,
have been going down to pasir ris to take care of her
and caus she;s lazy to get out of the house.
hahas
lazy bum bum'
but this cant carry on cause your parents are back alredy
sad
so its your turn to come my place!
hahas
we shall save money and lose weight together
so we can look hot and sexy together!
hahas.
i'm a lil crazy now.
hahas
wheeee..........
my poor baby,
i hope you;re feeling better.
or else i drag you to the doctor!!!
hahas
tml you going to pick me up from school!!
then we go cityhall.
haha
then my place for dinner.
good!
hahas
i miss you like crazy and you are like opening gifts now lha
so good!!
hahas

baby.
happy eight month!!!
iloveyou-

today was fun fun fun
hahas
woke up in the morning
met benji amd andrea and baby.
followed him to have his hair cut.
then we went to walk ard and all
after that me and baby headed down to my place.
i cook bake rice with lots of MOZERELLA chesse!!
yum yum.
hahas
we pigged out.
hahas
then now baby is at home.
hahas
so sad she forgot something.
talking to you now on the phone.

this blog was only for you and its still for you.
i fucking miss you lah
i tried loving someone else
but it failed
no one could ever ever replace that very special place
i was obviously happy when you said all those to me lah
i'll wait
but make sure you think things through first lah
i'm afraid history will repeat itself
when i was with ahem i was back to my usual self which i hate
i realise that i could only change for you
i realise that i've fallen for you too deeply already
i realise that my life is so different without you
i realise that you're the only one i love truely
i can tell you i dont mind you controlling me
i need someone to tie me down.
i hope your impression of some of my frens changed.
i know theirs did
cause they told me that they're really happy to see me with you.
i just want you to think really careful
i dont wanna pressure you anymore
i will wait for you.

imissyou
iloveyou

it seems like you're avoiding me.
i dunno why
maybe you're thinking of some stuffs today
so i shall disturb you
but i hope you'll tell me even if it hurts
but whatever it is i'll still stand strong
and try my best to work things out
i have total faith in you and our relationship
things are going to work out well right?
i hope so..
i plan my vday and my special days already
hahas
hope you can make it on those days
so my plan can work
hehes
anyways i cant wait to see you tml lah
smile alright!
i wanna see you happy again :D

i swear i love you with all my heart
dont say you're not worth it.
you are.
iloveyou and imissyou--

did our relationship get worse?
i hope not
i really wanna pull through all the stress we have together
i'm sorry for being not understanding and pissing you off most off the times.
i'm sorry for being so childish
i'm sorry to irritate you
i'm sorry for every single thing i've done to you
i feel like a lousy girlfriend
always making moody
making your mood worse
but i'm very scraed to lose you again thats all
you ask me to treasure you and so will you
i am really treasuring you alot!!!!
i miss you..
when i said i miss you i heard nth but okay
as if i was talking to myself
when you kinda say that you dont miss me
i''m really scared
i asked you whether you sure with your feelings
you said i dunno
i got more scared
i feel very confuse
but i'll still concentrate on my studies
baby i'm very lost in your words
if you're willing to give ourselfs somemore chance
i think things will really work up
i think our problem is that both of us are really hot tempered
for you i'm really willing change
i'm willing to do anything for you
even death
evry minute i'm thinking of you..
i hope you are too..
i want you to be very honest with me even if its hurts
but sometimes i rather not know anything thats gonna hurt
i'm lost..
i dunno what to do..
all i know that i wanna be with you
and to change myself not to make you moody
you told me that you're gonna hold my hand and and not let me go
and walk through this together
i want you to share all your probs with me.
i'm just very SORRY for everything..

i'm so freaking stress with everything.
school is really giving me tons ad tons of stress
i'm gonna break down already
i'm sorry for all my moodswings
i cant help it.
its just that i'm really stress
i cant take all my moodswings already
i gonna die
school sucks!!!!
i dont wanna go school already!!!
fuck!
could you understand me
and help me pull through this period of time
encourage me.make me happier.
i really need you by my side now
to support me all the way
other wise i will really go mad
will you?
i dont want you to say anymore things to scare me
i feel very insecure and scared like a little girl
each time you say such things.
i'm scared that i lose you again
i dont wanna lose you again
the feeling is horrible
i can tell you that no matter what
your the only one i love.

hellos people.
hahas
i think no one else reads my blog except you.
hahas
i actually pay attention in class today lah
hahas
except for chinese and geog
hahas
i have motivation by you!
hhas
i'm falling sick!!!
my gastric problem is like everyday now
every few hours lah
even if i eat also got.
after school went to pick you up after your school
you maluated me lah.
make me got bioo by two other people and a sea of yellows
hahas
stupid
after that went to have lunch at lido ljs
then went to far east to look for benji and walk around
after town went to bugis with you and met my mom
was talking rubbish..
i'm really feel very sickkkkk!!!
might not be able to go to school tml
haiii.........
dont pon netball because of me lah.
netball to you is very impt
if you miss one training then i dunno
hmmm...
up to you...
waithing for my grandma to come home now
tell her something then i going to sleep already
for now, cheeros people

ILOVEYOU-
promise me that you will never leave me again and that you will be honest with me for everything. i can really change for you.i'm afraid to lose you again. i really love you.

You've been the first in my life
Who has ever made me feel this way
And I will not deny
I'm gonna need you right here
By my side
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(by holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(until the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
Now that you're here, boy I'm never gonna let you go
Can I touch you there, oh
Do you mind if we kiss real slow
You're my everything
You're my hopes and dreams
Baby, you know it ain't no lie I'm gonna be with you till the day I die
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(no no, til the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]
You're the one that lights my fire
You're the one that keeps me strong
You're the one that I depend on
When my world is goin' wrong
You're the one that I hold closer
You're the man I'm dreaming of
And I really really love you
I just want you to know that

[CHORUS 2X]
I can't wait till the day I hear you say
You're the one that
I need You're the one that
I'll keep For all time

this is what is truely feel.
i really love you
and i dont wanna lose you again

baby is in camp now lah
leave me all alone
so mean!
hahas

MONDAY
stayed at home the whole day
i miss that stupid girl!!!
hehes
i miss you
hehes
hmmm...
nothing much to post abt ytd..

TUESDAY
hmmm..
woke up at 1 plus
suppose to meet cherre at 3
but in the end she said she had something
stay at home to wait for time to pass sso i could meet baby
hehes
later might be staying at my friends place
we're gonna crap and make things for christmas
but i think i'll be back in the morning
if i'm going to her place
that means i'm sending my mum off
then going to have supper with my dad
going to be home real late
cause my mum is leaving at abt 11 or 12 liddat
hehs

baby i'm going to meet you now

things are also changing for me.
you said i've change
maybe to you i've change to the worst
i'm sorry for that
our relationship is turning sour
i also want it to be smooth
we keep arguing
your moodswings are scaring me
you're also changing
i hate the state we are in now
i hate it!!
i also need your understanding
need your care
need your love
need your patient
need your gentle touch
need your little sweet words to make me smile
you're not a failure
i've let you down more than you let me down
obviously i'm loving you like i used to
infact i've fallen too deep for you
i'm willing to give up everthing for you even my friends!
i will keep my promises that i've made

i really dont want our relationship to carry on liddat
today i've tried my best not be so childish or irritating
i dont wanna see you sad or angry
i only wanna see smile like you always do
i miss the times when we always smile
i miss the times when we always play
i miss the times when we were so close
i miss everything
why did this thing happen
and made our life like this
everytime i meet you or talk to you ,
you seem to be moody
i'm sorry if i was the one that cause it

i'm just very sorry for everything!

Invasion from the one and one one...

Baby Dun wan to blog...
You are so mean can...
Pls be nice and start blogging ok...
Anyway....
We finally got our Adidas watch!!!Weeeeee...
Been spending the past few days wif ya...
ANd thanks for coming down to my place to study wif me...=)
One weeks time will be da 18th nov!!!!
Time past real fast when I'm wif you...=D
Oh ya...ANd pls take care k...
SOmeone is sick...
Drink lots of water alritez...
If only I can be wif you 24/7 then I will be able to look after you...
Anyway I'll be seeing ya later...
Can't wait...

Oh ya...Someone is so addicted to da tv now...
Sigh...=( It is now place above me...How sad...
Eh!!!Cannot hor!!!

Right now you are in sch...
msg you but I got no reply...
I'm waiting...Still waiting...
Hurry reply me!!!=X

happy third month baby!
i wanted it special and you really made it really really special.
iloveyou.

anyways.
went to town with cher then i met baby.
went home with baby.

cook for her while she was doing her things.
then later when i went into the room.

she gave me our third month give.
it was a vcd with a letter and a note.

she played the vcd for me.

the vcd really got me moved to tears.
you are just so thoughtful.

putting all our photos together and made it a video

you are the first person that got me moved to tears for a very special gift.
i seriously love you lots!!!

then later baby bluffed me that we are going night safari.
ya right.

we ended up at the airport

and ate swensens.
i so knew it from the start.

baby.

i'm sorry for being unreasonable and being a total bitch sometimes.
but i thank you for controlling.

somehow i wonder how you really give in to me all the time.
but thats just something i really love abt you.
tolerance,patience,caring...
you're like an angel god has given to me.
you are just so precious to me.
i'm never going to let you go.
i want you all to myself!!!
although when i'm feeling really down

and you cant be there with me physically

but i could still feel your presence mentally.

you never fail to make me smile.

in fact you made me smile happily again!
you gave me this very special feeling that no one else has ever gave me before.

that feeling tells me that you're the right one.

that feeling tells me that my life is perfect.

that feeling tells me that i'll die without you.

that feeling tells me that you are my only one.

that feeling tells me that i'll never find someone like you.

that feeling just tells me that i'm blissfully in love!!!

i love you baby!!!!
fogive me for all my childishness kaes?
mwahs
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