Monday, April 07, 2008

what is love?
you <3>




been really hectic and relax these pass few days
DARIUS WONG!
i really hope you enjoyed your birthday.
thanks for the LV purse and the letter
<33333>




p.s, its the rectangular coin pouch.
and its a limited edition that i wanted.
THANK YOU!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

when i'm with you i make every second count
what about you?

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartacheI could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And todayI'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you


i dont know why you're so confused and all?
have you fallen for someone else?
i dont know but thats what i'm feeling
i know there is a certain risk of me blogging
but its the only way i can say it out
i cant act as if nothing happened
neither can you.
can you say you only have me in your heart?
if you think you like someone else can you just let me know
i'm suffering like crazy you know
somehow, its impossible that you've fallen for me again
ya, you miss me, but do you love me?
thats a totally different story already
you're confused, what about me?
you've got so many friends to talk to,
what about me? i have no one i can relate too at all
are you afraid you'll lose me cause you are selfish or you love me?
said it a million and one times,
do something before i dont have the energy to hold on anymore
i've been holding on every moment
i wont deny that i'm still breathing now because of you
i still put that smile on my face because of you

right now,
can anyone find me back and really put that smile on my face again?
i'm tired, will anyone lend me to just rely on a little while
i'm afraid i cant take all these any longer

Goodbye.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Reopen (:

its been ages since i touched this thing
but i'm not going to tell anyone.

time flew and many things happened
you took my heart and never returned it
i hope you still have our memories with you
yes, i miss you

i wish upon the brightest star everynight,
that you'll be happy and smiling
and not frowning every moment
because you look the cutest when you smile.
and everyday i'd pray that i'll see you soon
cause i really miss you alot.
promise;
i;ll be there for you
i'll never stop loving you
i'll never forget you

Friday, April 27, 2007

I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me


I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Friday, April 20, 2007

BANG BANG! YOU SHOT ME DOWN
I SHOT MYSELF DOWN

Thursday, March 29, 2007

shall update.
went for sis birthday dinner
my goodness.
haven.t been feeling well these few days.
vomitted and all. should i see a doc?
hahaha
anyway i got nothing much to update
but ya.


B's dad is so funny luh
have been spending alot of time with her family
her dad asked b why never send me home?
hahahaha
and he keep eating and eating. so cute luh
hahahaha
you know BB is sleeping now
hahahahhahaha
i haven't beem going to school.
WO XIANG NI! <3


why is it that when you treat a friend so nicely and this is what they do to you
i gave you food and tried to provide you when you needed food
i never let myself see you suffering and all
i try my best to help you with your problems
listen to you
when you cry and call me
i always want to go down to look for you but i cant
you want me to help you things that are against my own will
i will cause i just dont wanna see you sad
i treated you as my best friend
someone i could look up to
now because of money
you have to pretend to be so fake
hearing your friend getting humilliated like fuck
you just keep quiet
you totally leave me speechless
i will not hate you
you better take care of yourself
eat! or else your gastric will give you problem again


to another friend
you two were the most impt to me
the reason why i msged you i say you
was not because of someone that has been telling me things
but it was because i cannot stand seeing change so much
you used to be the best among the three
and now?
you can tell her that she cause you to lose your CLOSEST FRIEND
i didnt feel like your closest friend at all
where was the support i needed from you
which you always used to give me last time
i could rant and rant about my unhappy stuff
and conclude we're alike
we could cry tgt on the phone and talk rubbish
we used to understand each other really well
you were there for me all the time and i was there at your weakest weakest moment
and slowly seeing you smile again
i want to know back the old you thats always so bubbly and adorable
now its all gone

now you also could just stand there and here me get humillated so badly
i felt so devastated
i also wont hate you
you also take care and i wish you all the best

Monday, March 05, 2007

silly baby
you're asleep now but still on the phone with me
dinner with your relatives was freaky but great
hahahahha
stayed over on friday and sat as usual
friday we went to meet amanda and bella
always fun with them arnd
then saw yao and rest at cine by surorised
cabb-d down to pasir ris after that to mmet amanda again
then walked back to BB place
we woke up in the moring
and i finally had my mac breakfast
the bagel thing is actually not bad
then walked around ntuc
BB bought me a pair of fake lashes
then she said she wants to bring me to some family fuction
where i have to be elegant and decent
hahahahahhahahaha
then we met lijie and waited for her friends
went to sentosa
the sun was okay
cafe del mar was so frigging nice i tell you
hahha
wemt back to BB house for her family dinner
then went to mac with her brother gf to eat agin
then she sent us back with her car
i dont really like her thou
hahaha
didnt manage to sleep the whole night
cause i think i slept too much
left BB place at abt6 went home
had 2 dinners
then went tp to get makeup and shoews and clothes.
hahah
made ginger drink for my mum

aye people. if next time you can't contact me call pearlyn alright

i love you BB

Sunday, February 25, 2007

BABY!
I LOVE YOU!
and you're finally forgiven!
stop stealing my things you this copy cat!
I love you alot alot alot (:

Thursday, February 15, 2007

baby, thanks for the card you made for me (:
hope you like the gift i made for you
its nothing fanciful but it came from the heart

anyway, baby stayed over on V'day
then we went out in the evenign to bishan!
ate and we took neos
like finally can, hahas (:

eating my subway now :))))
just now in the cab baby was trying so hard to teach me how to do the star thing
fine i admit my fingers are cha cha-d okay
hahas.
CNY is coming!!!
friday gg out with baby friends.


jade, i miss you.
the old you.
where have the jade i known been?
the one thats also smiling taking things rather easy.
i just miss you luh k.


ah pui! i love you <3

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

hello!
i'm in school now
hahahahha

having like F&N now
my goodness.. she's so naggy can

i'm freaking bored!
sch hurry end.
oh yes. MISS XINYI!!!
I MISS YOU!

and i miss my AH PUI TOO! (:

Monday, February 12, 2007

i'm going to blog.
these few days have been spendin it with baby
self awareness camp was GREAT!
i think it should be longer
but i will miss my baby more
o yes. thanks for comin down just to see me and give me food (:
ytd aft camp went home and slept
then baby cabbed down to pick me up
then we cab to ikea and walked ard
afater that we went to her place then slack awhile
then went to dinner with ah pui and family
her daddaye went to simlim and me mumaye and ah pui went to og
and ah oui bought CLOTHES! (:
hahahhahahahha
then had dinner then went to ah pui house
watch dvd then went to sleep
suppose to have dim sum in the moringn but stupid ah pui pig luh
sleep so much
then when we wole up we ate chicken rice
then packed her room
then fell asleep until her mum came in and vaccum
woke both of us up
then went down to get dinner
ate and then went to chinatoen to meet my family
baby didnt let me go at fitst luh
hahas
now i'm talking to you
and you so petty can
tsk.

I LOVE MY AH PUI! <3

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

HAPPY 8TH MONTH BABY! Y

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that

so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.
how i wish could just spend the whole day with you today
but i cant. sigh
my heart's so heavy that its going to come out from my mouth soon
its that feeling of messed up and confusion
i dunno what you want. one moment its like that
so happy so sweet
next moment we dont contact each other
sigh.
sorry to say this,
but i feel like i'm being made used of
friends saying that when you need someone
you just call me, if not you just throw me aside
if thats the case, tell me
sometimes i refuse to believe
you're sick and you still wanna go out
i'm speechless.
what if the next one lying in hospital is me?
would you come? would you?
sigh. just forget it.

my card has no more money,
no point contacting me.
and i cant contact you.
some things are better left unsaid.
maybe today will be last day
i dunno but maybe
i really cannot take it
maybe it have become a habit
i cannot take it without knowing who you msg
i'm sorry.
dunno whats your prob
go what hospital when you're okay
nvm. forget it

Monday, January 29, 2007

i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry

i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye



if only time could rewind back
i'll stop at all the happy moments
ans we'll be happily tgt forever.

people. think before you act.
i feel like an asshole.
causing everything to be like this now
all i can say is that i'm sorry

i'll prove it to you in actions.
thats all i can say.

3 more days to our 8th month
18 more days to v'day


i feel like shit.

goodbye

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

read _ blog.
i feel like i'm not the one thats suppose to be with_
i feel like i'm the third party instead
am i thinkin too much?

why do i feel that you're rather moody now
cause you read her blog
you still have something for her
and you obviously still miss her
bye.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

HELLO!
i'm at baby's house you know you know
HAHAS
we are so spas luh can
play batman spiderman and superman!
then we started playing like lil kids
so fun luh.
baby, with you around everything is so fun luh
lets ARGUE! heheheheheh
baby: dont give me that fuck face
me: dont give me that fuck face too
us: -STARES HARD-
us:-LAUGHS REALLY HARD-
WAHAHAHAHAS!

your baby kaven is here to invade your blog.
stupid shit.
all i did was to play with my blanket.
& i say batman.
then you say spiderman!
haha!
then i play superman!! WEEEEEEEEES*
all your fault.
weakling lahs you.
take clothes only say heavy.
lousy fool!
stop pulling my PRECIOUS HAIR!
it hurts fuck! OUCH*
ROARRRRRRRR!!
better let her continue blogging. (:
love you baby. <3>

kk. i;m back
stupid idiot watch her tv the whole day luh.
anyways sch is such a bore luh
my goodness.
i feel so damn smart
cause the class is so quiet then i can concentrate
heheheheheheh
aft sch met shan at tp interchange
wait for him for so long luh
thank goodness ELEANOR accompanied me
THANK YOU! :D
he came then we went to my place and met xy & v
chose clothes for v at my house
lending her my jeans and my dorothy perkins top
i'm so nice can. :))
shannon cut hair papi also cut hair
tsktsktsk

CAN'T WAIT FOR SOFT@DXO
GONNA PARTAYE LIKE CRAZY
so many ppl i know are going
fun to the max!

shall upload photo later
btw, kaven is laughin like mad watching TV
RETARDED!

woaini! <333

Monday, January 08, 2007

wo ai si ni uhhh. HAHA!
ii lubb lubb euu worxXx! (:

iloveyoubaby. <3

-kaven
its like 12.34 am
and i'm still at xinyi's house

she satyed over at my house ytd so did kaven
shannon came over in the morning
awww. so sweet aint it. hahas
woke up then went to SNIP my hair
now its short :)
then send kavenn to lavender then went home
to change and take money.
then went bishan to meet xinyi
walked ard at ntuc
come let me tell yo uthe cutest part
miss xinyi got all her stuff but i havent so
me: eh come lei
xy: dont want lei
then we walked separate ways
then i was finding her outside ntuc
she was looking for me inside ntuc

then we cabbed dwn to xinyi house
waiting for my daddy to pick me up from here
lalala.
will upload photos soon :)

will this change be permanent?
i seriously wonder.





sily stuff we do tgt. i love xinyi :D Y

Sunday, January 07, 2007

your words can never be trusted
HELLO!
i'm at varron's hse now
went out with xinyi today
walked ard far east first then kaven came along
i saw this cheong sum at far east
so nice can!
its the perfect length
but but but its a top so the lace part is too high
nvm. got the dress but dont have the colour i want

shall go tailor make my dress
hahas!

oh i ate my apple!
i'll be addicted to eat every meal
hahas! i shall go on a apple diet :)

then walked to wisma. walked around. saw gorgeous shoes
then headed dwn to ssc to meet xinyi fren ; varon, cc,wk
then rayne kang and bentan came ssc to find us
then they played pool too.

so boring luh. nobody entertain me :(
then mr kaven pearlyn oyster eggplant brinjal eggshell tan qian hui kuku went to city hall to meet her fren
leave me all alone
then went down to this prata hse to eat with them
walked to varons hse after that
and later we have to walk baack to my house
which is like damn effing far

friendship is not abt quantity.
its abt the quality
you always think i dont have a life on my own
and thinks that i get brainwashed so easily
in other words you always think i'm stupid
stupid enough to know what kind of person someone is
come on luh, this shows how well you know me
so what if you know me for nearly 2 years?

pearlyn knws me for nearly a year also knw that i'm not that stupid
and even ppl that knw me for not that long knws that i'm not that dumb
you knw something abt you
look around you
you have frens that really treat you like treasure
and yet you dont cherish them.

you have frends who treat you like dirt
and will only come to you when they need you finanacially or what ever
and you treat them like treasure
wtf is wrong with you
you ask yourself okay. who was there nearly all the time when you break down
rmb right after the chalet thing. you couldnt sleep and i rushed right over even i was tired to see whether you were okay
dont forget all the late nights when you always break down
who was always there to give you a hug and be there for you
who took care of you when your leg broke and you were sick
who cooked for you and teach you how to take care of yourself when you have gastric

no matter what time it was, if i could make it i would have gone down to meet you
even if i as tired sick or whatever.

its not that i got brainwashed by her
its just that she;s not doing any harm to me
and not to anyone.
when we're out we dont even bitch abt ppl
get it?
she's not as bad as you think she as.
if i could now i really dont ind slappin you and waking you up form your own world
stop thinking abt the friendship abt you and him
if things are not meant to be like that then let it be.
trust me you're freaking him out
and making everyone think that you're gay
snap back to reality. he's not the only friend okay
for god's sake open your eyes bigger and see for yourself okay
i dont wanna say anymore.
you will nvr understand.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007


first time clubbing with kaven at DXO :D

while waiting for hanjin.


sch is startign in like few hours time and i cant get to sleep
these are the two people i love, xinyi and kaven!
the rock my socks to the max
i love you!
i cant wait for sch to start
and meet keith and rest and see all of them in sch uni
so cute luh!
hahas
the holidays have been fun
i should be in the same class as emu and jy i hope!
ph i'd better me

wo ai ni :D

Monday, January 01, 2007

HELLO!
its 2007 now.
its a new beginning for everyone including me
so many good and bad things happened in 2006
but now its just the past.
many things are different now
sometimes things are just so obvious
but people just dont see it
this is called self denial
its not good to be lying to yourself
thats running away from reality
and so many things have proven to me that a leopard will nvr change its spots
year 2006 made me grow up even more
we have to learn how to let go
dont leave things unsaid and undone
you only live that very one time
trust me you'll nvr go wrong treasuring ppl ard you

ytd went for countdown at ESPLANADE
with kaven and xinyi and zave
the fireworks was okay luh
my heels were killing me!
then WALKED to cathay to meet shan,krys,jeremy&alex
watched deathnote 2
nice nice. ahas. L is weirdly cute
hahas
while waiting for a cab to fetch us to macpherson to meet KEITHLENG
talked to krystal.
found out so many things.
but its a secret between both of us
HAHAS!
then went down to macpherson and the stupid prata shop is not open!
then walked to the market there to eat vegetarian noodles
then talked alot of rubbish
then walk to the bus stop and went home and saw rayne
reached home wore the big big big shirt and sleep!
i'm hungry now. i'm gg to bite someone soon!

school is gg to start!
i so cant wait!
haahas
me and xinyi are hoping for 3 points for N's
hahas!
and we are gg to meet everybody in sch uni afterr sch
so exciting!
i might be in the same class as jy!
7 yrs of frenship.
cannot escape from being in the same class as you all the time.
its like p1-p4 same class then sec1-2 same class. now till sec 5 also same
hahas. i miss you bitch!
hahas

i'm gg to cough to my grave soon
just in case i really do
i love you xinyi!
plus kaven tan!
(:

this will be my last words to you
after this i dont wanna talk abt it anymore
i've made things clear enough in my phone
understand!
the answer is obvious
go with her luh
i'll still be here for you if you need me
i can always be your bestfriend
cause i und you inside in outside out
you wanna know why i made up my mind?
cause of the things you do and say
in the end you will still go down
so whats the point get it
not only to see her but also another her
and when sch starts if we're still tgt things wont be good
cause there will be so many new girls better than me
so we'll argue for sure.
its a fact that you can nvr settle down and change for me
it shows that i'm not the one for you
go find someone that you can change for
take care alright. :)
LOVES
and hurry go home. your parents are worried
and they love you okay. thats impt

Thursday, December 14, 2006

☆卓文萱&曹格-梁山伯与茱丽叶☆

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
I Love You
我爱你 你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着 未来
为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

can say it kinda describe me.
toodles

Don’t take too long to say
“I love you” to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you’ve gone away,
Stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
With each and every word that passes by,
Like a distant memory,
And time keeps slipping away,
And time will turn to grey,
And time will be the one who holds you down

i like this song. someone send it to me please
oh you are suppose to sing a song t me

i'm going to fall asleep soon
anyways.
today is like the first time for the past one month
that me and the rest didnt meet

feeling so amazed

dunno why but i feel so moodless
so moodless to do anything
someone asked me abt us

ask if were goin to patch
my ans was lets not talk abt it
i'm being left speechless when the topics comes to US
i dunno what to tell people.

anyway woke up not really happy
then went to vivo to catch a movie with kaven
watched deja vu
not quite a bad movie. something new

wanna watch so many movies with you
happy feet&the holiday&cinderella&death note 2 etc etc
but dunno whether can watch with you
then headed down to pasir ris for dinner
finally ate the fish noodle
yummy yum yum
then was disturbing kaven
so funny luh
then walked her back
then now i'm home

i still hate my family

rah!
my sister is getting rather irritating
its freaking hell not my fault
she come and scold me and slap me

fuck her lah
@#$^&$%@#

then my dad scold me when i'm so nice to him
then my mum screamed at me for being a nuisance when i wanted to talk to her
and chased me out of the room
grandparents. usual. nag non stop at me
i rather not be at home and die ont he streets

when i decide to be a good girl to yall
i get scolded in the end
whats the point
FUCK THIS FAMILY

what the hell is wrong with me
ppl hurt me and all
and i still care for them so much
verbally i hate them alot.
inside me i still care for them alot
yes, just call me stupid

cheer up okay.
things will be just fine.
even if the whole world is falling on you
i'll still be here as promised


sometimes i just need someone
to hug me once in awhile and tell me everything is fine too
its been a long time since such family thing happen

if you get what i mean
sigh. its going to carry on
nights people

currently very moodless

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

HUNHUN YOU'RE FINALLY BACK!
I MISS YOU LUH


you reached at 5 plus.
fell asleep in btw while waiting for your call
did a video for you. be happy okay.
didint sleep properly for the past few days cause of you
msg me at weird timings. come online eearly in the morning and all
anyways.
you reached home then i called you all the way until 9 plus?

then you slept until 11 plus and woke me up
then i still fell back to sleep in the end
met you,xinyi,steff,friend,rayne.jade,keith,hanjin
then walked ard eat drink coffee
i've been drinking coffee everyday can
you bought a tinkerbell polo tee for me! :DDD
THANK YOU!
watched deck the halls
quite nice luh
then towned
had dinner then sent that stupid hun back home
then cabbed home

talked to her on the phone and so funny luh
cause i kept questioning her abt so many stuff
then talked rubbish
and now xy is at my place.
i'm hungry!!!
you fell asleep on the phone!
ROAR!

no promises
you send to me one rmb :)))
this nearly one mth when you're not mine
i realised that its not reliance
but something i call love
its not that i cant get use to not having you w/o you by my side
but is i just cant let you go and miss you so dearly
this time when you're back
promise that you'll stay by me
and not lie to me anymore
& dont treat me nice and all only for awhile
and then be back the ugly kaven alright
hoped that you'll be really ready soon
i dont wanna preasure you and all
blahblahblah
just no lies from you
i just want pure honestly :))
found out so many things today
cleared most of my doubts
thanks!
i just wanna stay happy when i'm with you
& i feel so blissed by the way you treat me today
but i became a meanie and bullied you
hahas.
can you still treat me the same?
pamper me and all like today okay
and yes
kaven tan.
WO AI NI!
ILOVEYOU!

p.s i'm still waiting for you to say it to me.

Monday, December 11, 2006

i miss you. yes i do
but is there anything i can do?
i so wanna hug you tight now
i so wanna tell you so many things now
i wanna tell you how much i love you
i wanna hear from you these 3 words iloveyou from the bottom of your heart
but can i?
i felt so chrashed up looking at your friendster.
you still didnt change your profile at all.
it was for her and its stil for her.
and your testimonials and your reply to my testimonial
its so hurting. honeyed kaven. ouch!
you've got a honey already.
i shant call you hun anymore.
its not for me to call.
i shall just call you friend, kaven
when you're back. dont need to meet me everyday.
its okay
you've got so many ppl to meet in so lil time.
so just meet them. i'm not impt.
its okay.
i'll just let you fly. dont let me tie you down when you cant
come back to me only when you're ready for promises and commitments
come back to me only when i see that trust in you fo rme to trust
come back to me only when i see that you stop flirting
bye

Thursday, December 07, 2006

HELLO!!
i'm going to blog again! hahas
stupid xinyi is driving me and rayne so crazy
that me and him have to blog abt her retardedness!
my GOODNESS
hahas.
RETARDED=RAYNE
right xinyi?
CRAZY/RETARD/WORZXWORZX/POTATO=XINYI!!!
XINYI'S THEORY:
there are so many WORX(walls)eveywhere
you know your heart also got WOrx(walls)
RAYNE'S THEORY:
therefore all the ah lians bang into the WorX(walls)

oh shrimp!
i'm going to go nuts with them around worxzing here and there!
i swear i'm going to send XY back to her house
IMH (INSTITUE of MENTAL HEALTH)

XINYI SHALL INVADE. C:
HELLO EVERYBODDAYE,
MICH HAS A WORX CARD (:
for more offers on worxzx pink combs&pinkishh puremilkxzx tshirt,
pleas go t her (:
ANYWAY, HELLLLOOO -SHOUTS.
:}
I DONT STAY IN IMH YKNOW, too quiet for me alr,
well mich stays beside my ward (:
BYEBYE
HELLO! :D
my blog is abt to grow dust.
hahas.
jade's chalet was fun fun fun.
i love JADE!!!
people i love came too. hahas
i feel so stress now
cause miss xinyi and rayne is lookin at me blog
haiyo!
dont look can?!?!?!?! stress you know.
oh btw i'm at the airport now. hahas!
things are getting rather confusing now
hurry come back you stupid fat pig
hahas. then you can listen to all my complaints!
hahas. lalalalalala
stupid cramps is gg to killing soon.hahas
oh i'm gg to die of pain everywhere. hahas
we're geeting really bored at the airport!
i'm hungry!!! ROAR!
xinyi is gg crazy soon taking the stupid miss sixty bottle
i better entertain her. hahas
TOODLES

idomissyouprecious.
TOODLES

Saturday, November 25, 2006

this few days so tired
but was fun. made new friends like xinyi. nicole. pui pui. rayne. kenneth and AH SOON
hahas. i miss the bugger.

anyways..
i miss you
i miss my MUMMY!!!
i miss my baby zenn. HAHA! jk only
i miss JADE!
i miss DAN!
i miss GRACE!
i miss EMU!
i miss CHOW!
i miss my fellow 3-10ners!!!
i miss so many ppl!
hahas. but still someone the most.
you know when you wanna sweet talk with me you have to say something that i cant shoot you back
for instance if someone says i'll love you like the nvr ending river
i'll most probably say what if theres a drought!
hahas!
so so far the best ans would be even if the world is coming to an end i'll still carry on loving you

hahas
after so may things.
i realise the different faces of my frens.
it just disgust me. why be so arrogant
be HUMBLE!!! dont brag!
and dont lie! especially to me
i'll hateyou.

anyways
updated with cyn lots of stuff.
i love her lah.
mummy you better take good care okay.
lalalala
i dunno what to blog abt already

Sunday, November 12, 2006

everything ended just like that
listen to me and just move on
you'll be able to find someone else better
i have to keep lying to myself everynow and then
to make myself happy
not to let ppl worry for me
i cried myself to sleep last night as i thought of you and wrote the book
everywhere i go just reminds me of you
anything i do just reminds me of you
even when i'm out pooling
the songs they play was all the songs we used to listen
roar!
it died long ago? hmmm i wonder
take care alright

Saturday, November 11, 2006

enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know
can you please answer my questions
enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know

Friday, November 10, 2006

baby. could you tell me what you feel now
thats all i need to know
its killing me not knowing
that post is just not for me right
cause i didnt even give you any cold treatment lah
but the song lyrics,.
i dunno
ytd i had this very blissed feeling
as if we're staying tgt again
like that feeling we had last time
if its for her just say its for her
why did you still call me baby ytd
why?
i'm very very lost
baby. please, take it as i'm begging you
tell me everything
even if it hurts me.
please
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies
baby. would you just tell me how you feel
thats all i need to know
why is your heart tearing apart

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
'Cause

This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You're every breath that I breathe
From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'Cause it feels so good to me


Wednesday, November 08, 2006

WRONG SONG CHOICE.
it was for somebody else.
not me.
michele. whats wrong with you
when its for you you think its not for you
now when its not for you you think its for you
how dumb of you
she wont love you anymore lah michele
she'll be happier without the bitchy me
stop dreaming lah michele



to you.

i really miss you so much now
i wanna spend every second lying on you
i feel so safe and bliss on you shoulders
each time you hold my hand now
my heart thumps so fast
just like we first met
i felt like a lil girl falling in love with you again
you are the only one that ever made me feel like this
when can i ever call you mine again
when is the next time i can cuddle you for long
i wanted to say i love you
but i just didnt have the courage to say it
i'll nvr stop loving you
right now i feel like we're dating all over again
i have to pluck up alot of courage to say i miss you and call you baby
right now
i'm willing to do anything just to call you mine
or just to hear you calling me baby
and knowing that you miss me every sec
maybe that will be impossible.
i dunno.
why did i still let you go when i love you so so much
maybe its beacuse i feel you'll be better off without me
right noe arent you happier that you have all your freedom back
if ever one day fate might bring us back
i dont wanna argue with you at all
and just live everyday happily and loving you
and not letting you go again
but i want no more lies from you
it hurts my heart each time you lie,
haii...
i miss you.
p.s
you know sometimes is not i wanna be bitchy to you
or scream at you
i just need to know how you feel
whether you still want me
or you already have someone else
i swear my condition is getting worst
i want you to take care of me
but i dont wanna be your burden
i also wish to hold you tight and say i love you
wait maybe thats not for me
but yupps
baby.. could you tell me what you're thinkin?
if you want me to be your friend i will
and i force myself to stop loving you and be your friend
you want me to keep loving you tell me
baby would you justy tell me everything
even if it hurts me
you said you knew what you want and now you dont
i'm confused. i'm trying to control my temper
i got scolded by my frens for my horrible temper towards you
i'm really trying my best to be that understanding gf
you want us to be dating all over again
or just be friends
dont always eat maggi mee
not good for health
mosquito bite then do the cross thing then run it under water
you'll feel better.
haii.
just take care

Monday, November 06, 2006

i miss you. :'(
alot.
but how am i suppose to tell you
its so difficult to say out
i cried cause i regretted not hugging you.
i cried because i miss you soo soo much you know

Sunday, October 15, 2006

it seems like you've stop loving me
it seems like you've gotten over me
you are still so happy
you dont need me
you have your eye candy your fling your darlings your laopos and the girls you like and all
i'm just nobody to you now
browsed thru your friendster
and our pictures are slowly gettin lesser
captions becoming like normal friends
i dont wanna give you up
i still want you so badly
but so
i cant trust love anymore
could you make me trust it once again?
and not break it
i'm so lost i'm so lost
holding back my tears eveyrday but now i cant take it already
i dunno whats wrong with me but i just wanna cry
i watch humour show i can still cry
whats wrong with me
i feel llike the whole world is crashing upon me
will you still be here for me
hugging me tight andkissing me telling me everything is fine
theres something b/w us
and thats our friends
now i dont think thats our problem already
maybe the problem lies in you?
you dont wanna commit?
you still wanna fling around?
using your freinds as a excuse so that even if you flirt no one will say you?
i dunno
but so many things are running thru my head now
i'm breaking down for sure
i'm losing myself
i'm losing everything
my love, my friends, my family
i miss you so terribly you know
can you ever make the luckiest girl
to make you change and settle down for me?
i dunno i dunno i dunno
right now i know i only want to see you
i wanna hold you in my arms so tightly espeacially your heart
but it takes two hands to clap.
i can only love you and misss you secretly
i can only try to help you secretly
i love you.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

i miss you.
do you know?
can you hear me calling out for you?
you are all that i ever needed
you are all that i ever wanted
i wanna tie your heart so that you'll only love me
will you give me a chance to do so?
you you give us another chance so that everything restarts from the day we messaged?
the messages you messaged was so sweet to me that i'll nvr forget
you made me dared to love again
becuase i thought you were very faithful
i would dare to love you cause i thought i would not get hurt
rmb the fisrt time we met at bugis?
the first time you came over my place
the first time from everything
the fisrt time we held hands
the first time we hugged
the first time we kissed
rmb the days i stayed at your house we felt so blissed
rmb the days when we are just so in love with each other
rmb the silly dreams and thoughts we have
like what will happen if we stay tgt
we think we dont need to go out le cause you'll be hugging me so tight
and our dream house; our future house
purple orange?
big bed?
cosy corners
and all that stuffs
whenever i feel down
al i need is a hug from you. telling me everything is fine
inside me i can tell you i'm still a lil girl that cant handle my frendship and family problems
when i'm queit and emo. i think of my family and friends and if you're beside eme i hoped you will just sayang me
whenever you're down too. i'll always be there for you
i hoped that whenever i msged you
you will at leaset reply lettin me know that you're okay
how i wish everything will be alright now
everything will be like b4
the love and passion we once shared
i just wanna tell you that my love for you nvr changed but its growing everyday
i just wanna tell you i miss you alot too.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

i dunno what can i do to make you smie again
i'm trying real hard
but you still haven cooled down.
all i can do is maybe give you the time to cool down
i wanna hug you so tight now i tell you everything is alright
but can i ? i wished i can
i'm seriusly not blaming you for anything
i know you are changing
i'm supporting you all the way
including my frens like darius
please dont pressure yoursef too much
cause you're good enough already
you're already perfect in my eyes
i know things haven been good for you
you want me to share my unhappiness with you
i want you to share it with me
even if i cant do anything to solve it
at least you know you can always count on m when you need me
my heart hurts to know you scald you're hand
but what can i do now. i feel useless for not hugging you right now
i never once did blame you or anything
i blamed myself for maybe trying to tie you down too tight
now you can hardly breathe
you can say its my fault to be so protective over you
cause i dont want you to get urt in anyway
i want the best for you
but if now the best for you is to let you breathe
i will
you know what
i dont care about label. you should know that right from the start
to me theres no such thiings as what a bung is suppose to do what a passive is suppose to do
as longg as both are giving and taking
its good enough
cause when you love,you and me have the freedom to do what a bung or passive is suppose to do
i felt very bad about that
for lowering you're pride
i lowered mine alot alot too you knwo
i already apologised to her
you should know no matter how wrong i am i wont say sorry
but i still did for you to have that pride back in you
i promise no such thing will hppen again
we're both gettin haunt by nightmares
so afraid that it'll all come true
but i've told yu this before
as long as we still love each other
nothing is impossible
i know you're crying too.
i can nvr bear to let you cry or be angry with you for even 15 mins
cause i know you are sorry and you'll try notto let it happen again
and cause i love you
tell me now...
do you still want this r/s
do you wanna save it
cause if you do...i really wanna do all things to make it good
do you still love me
do you need that space
case if you do i'll give it to you
as long as i see you smile
i'm wiling to sacrifice everything just for you even myself
have faith in the both of us
i was so paranoid cause i'm afraid whatif you got tai ji again
or you very sick how
sorry about it
but its just me. sorry.
i didnt meant for this to happen
sorry.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

so many thiings happen
and it did change somethings
you ask whether there is somthing in between
yes there is, theres obviously a fear in me
i'm so insecure
when you're with me is your heart and mind too?
am i the only one you think about
am i the only one for everything
when its time to meet me
you dont seem to have any sense or urgency
when you meet your friends
you rush
when you're suppose to meet me at that time
the time will keep changing to a few hours later.
all i can say now is i'm scared and insecured
can you prove that you're really worth it
and not change for just that few days or weeks or just that 1 month
i'm giving time to you to change
you know how long i haven heard a i love you and i miss you and some sweet stuff from you
but please say it only when you mean it
and it seems like you wont message me unless i message you
sometimes you dont even reply
i dunno
please dont make me let go and hold myself back even more.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

i'm at baby's house now
just cooked for baby nick swan van and cyn
thanks cyn for helping =)
swan's fried mars bar failed
hahas
i was doing all the washing lah
hahas

ytd was our 3rd month
=)
baby
days were tough for us
we had so many ups and down
no matter how much jade and swan said not happy then break lah
we still hold on to this relationship and love =))
there were times when we have cold wars
there were times when we cried
there were times when we argued
there were times we nearly lost each other
but we pulled through it all
my heart was dropping
when you were so cold to me
when you shout at me
when you scold me
it happen in the pass few days
i was so sad and all
cause you are still troubled with your stuff
i hope you will really be fine again
i can assure you that my love for you never ever did change
i'll do anything just for you
i hope when you say you'lll be my good good gf
it'll happen.
cause i'm already puttin in alot for you
but i still love you no matter what =)
i really wanna be with you forever
the word forever and pure love
was cancelld out of my life
ever since i was hurt and cheated so many times in the pass
tilll i met you. then i believe in the two words once again
so sweep me off my feet so easily
just by looking into your eyes i can melt
i'm all yours;
treasure and cherish me please
will you do anything just for me?
hmmm
i dunno
loves you