HELLO!
i'm at varron's hse now
went out with xinyi today
walked ard far east first then kaven came along
i saw this cheong sum at far east
so nice can!
its the perfect length
but but but its a top so the lace part is too high
nvm. got the dress but dont have the colour i want
shall go tailor make my dress
hahas!
oh i ate my apple!
i'll be addicted to eat every meal
hahas! i shall go on a apple diet :)
then walked to wisma. walked around. saw gorgeous shoes
then headed dwn to ssc to meet xinyi fren ; varon, cc,wk
then rayne kang and bentan came ssc to find us
then they played pool too.
so boring luh. nobody entertain me :(
then mr kaven pearlyn oyster eggplant brinjal eggshell tan qian hui kuku went to city hall to meet her fren
leave me all alone
then went down to this prata hse to eat with them
walked to varons hse after that
and later we have to walk baack to my house
which is like damn effing far

friendship is not abt quantity.
its abt the quality
you always think i dont have a life on my own
and thinks that i get brainwashed so easily
in other words you always think i'm stupid
stupid enough to know what kind of person someone is
come on luh, this shows how well you know me
so what if you know me for nearly 2 years?
pearlyn knws me for nearly a year also knw that i'm not that stupid
and even ppl that knw me for not that long knws that i'm not that dumb
you knw something abt you
look around you
you have frens that really treat you like treasure
and yet you dont cherish them.
you have frends who treat you like dirt
and will only come to you when they need you finanacially or what ever
and you treat them like treasure
wtf is wrong with you
you ask yourself okay. who was there nearly all the time when you break down
rmb right after the chalet thing. you couldnt sleep and i rushed right over even i was tired to see whether you were okay
dont forget all the late nights when you always break down
who was always there to give you a hug and be there for you
who took care of you when your leg broke and you were sick
who cooked for you and teach you how to take care of yourself when you have gastric
no matter what time it was, if i could make it i would have gone down to meet you
even if i as tired sick or whatever.
its not that i got brainwashed by her
its just that she;s not doing any harm to me
and not to anyone.
when we're out we dont even bitch abt ppl
get it?
she's not as bad as you think she as.
if i could now i really dont ind slappin you and waking you up form your own world
stop thinking abt the friendship abt you and him
if things are not meant to be like that then let it be.
trust me you're freaking him out
and making everyone think that you're gay
snap back to reality. he's not the only friend okay
for god's sake open your eyes bigger and see for yourself okay
i dont wanna say anymore.
you will nvr understand.

first time clubbing with kaven at DXO :D

while waiting for hanjin.


sch is startign in like few hours time and i cant get to sleep
these are the two people i love, xinyi and kaven!
the rock my socks to the max
i love you!
i cant wait for sch to start
and meet keith and rest and see all of them in sch uni
so cute luh!
hahas
the holidays have been fun
i should be in the same class as emu and jy i hope!
ph i'd better me

wo ai ni :D

HELLO!
its 2007 now.
its a new beginning for everyone including me
so many good and bad things happened in 2006
but now its just the past.
many things are different now
sometimes things are just so obvious
but people just dont see it
this is called self denial
its not good to be lying to yourself
thats running away from reality
and so many things have proven to me that a leopard will nvr change its spots
year 2006 made me grow up even more
we have to learn how to let go
dont leave things unsaid and undone
you only live that very one time
trust me you'll nvr go wrong treasuring ppl ard you

ytd went for countdown at ESPLANADE
with kaven and xinyi and zave
the fireworks was okay luh
my heels were killing me!
then WALKED to cathay to meet shan,krys,jeremy&alex
watched deathnote 2
nice nice. ahas. L is weirdly cute
hahas
while waiting for a cab to fetch us to macpherson to meet KEITHLENG
talked to krystal.
found out so many things.
but its a secret between both of us
HAHAS!
then went down to macpherson and the stupid prata shop is not open!
then walked to the market there to eat vegetarian noodles
then talked alot of rubbish
then walk to the bus stop and went home and saw rayne
reached home wore the big big big shirt and sleep!
i'm hungry now. i'm gg to bite someone soon!

school is gg to start!
i so cant wait!
haahas
me and xinyi are hoping for 3 points for N's
hahas!
and we are gg to meet everybody in sch uni afterr sch
so exciting!
i might be in the same class as jy!
7 yrs of frenship.
cannot escape from being in the same class as you all the time.
its like p1-p4 same class then sec1-2 same class. now till sec 5 also same
hahas. i miss you bitch!
hahas

i'm gg to cough to my grave soon
just in case i really do
i love you xinyi!
plus kaven tan!
(:

this will be my last words to you
after this i dont wanna talk abt it anymore
i've made things clear enough in my phone
understand!
the answer is obvious
go with her luh
i'll still be here for you if you need me
i can always be your bestfriend
cause i und you inside in outside out
you wanna know why i made up my mind?
cause of the things you do and say
in the end you will still go down
so whats the point get it
not only to see her but also another her
and when sch starts if we're still tgt things wont be good
cause there will be so many new girls better than me
so we'll argue for sure.
its a fact that you can nvr settle down and change for me
it shows that i'm not the one for you
go find someone that you can change for
take care alright. :)
LOVES
and hurry go home. your parents are worried
and they love you okay. thats impt

☆卓文萱&曹格-梁山伯与茱丽叶☆

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
I Love You
我爱你 你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着 未来
为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

can say it kinda describe me.
toodles

Don’t take too long to say
“I love you” to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you’ve gone away,
Stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
With each and every word that passes by,
Like a distant memory,
And time keeps slipping away,
And time will turn to grey,
And time will be the one who holds you down

i like this song. someone send it to me please
oh you are suppose to sing a song t me

i'm going to fall asleep soon
anyways.
today is like the first time for the past one month
that me and the rest didnt meet
feeling so amazed

dunno why but i feel so moodless
so moodless to do anything
someone asked me abt us
ask if were goin to patch
my ans was lets not talk abt it
i'm being left speechless when the topics comes to US
i dunno what to tell people.

anyway woke up not really happy
then went to vivo to catch a movie with kaven
watched deja vu
not quite a bad movie. something new
wanna watch so many movies with you
happy feet&the holiday&cinderella&death note 2 etc etc
but dunno whether can watch with you
then headed down to pasir ris for dinner
finally ate the fish noodle
yummy yum yum
then was disturbing kaven
so funny luh
then walked her back
then now i'm home

i still hate my family
rah!
my sister is getting rather irritating
its freaking hell not my fault
she come and scold me and slap me
fuck her lah
@#$^&$%@#
then my dad scold me when i'm so nice to him
then my mum screamed at me for being a nuisance when i wanted to talk to her
and chased me out of the room
grandparents. usual. nag non stop at me
i rather not be at home and die ont he streets
when i decide to be a good girl to yall
i get scolded in the end
whats the point
FUCK THIS FAMILY

what the hell is wrong with me
ppl hurt me and all
and i still care for them so much
verbally i hate them alot.
inside me i still care for them alot
yes, just call me stupid

cheer up okay.
things will be just fine.
even if the whole world is falling on you
i'll still be here as promised

sometimes i just need someone
to hug me once in awhile and tell me everything is fine too
its been a long time since such family thing happen
if you get what i mean
sigh. its going to carry on
nights people

currently very moodless

HUNHUN YOU'RE FINALLY BACK!
I MISS YOU LUH

you reached at 5 plus.
fell asleep in btw while waiting for your call
did a video for you. be happy okay.
didint sleep properly for the past few days cause of you
msg me at weird timings. come online eearly in the morning and all
anyways.
you reached home then i called you all the way until 9 plus?
then you slept until 11 plus and woke me up
then i still fell back to sleep in the end
met you,xinyi,steff,friend,rayne.jade,keith,hanjin
then walked ard eat drink coffee
i've been drinking coffee everyday can
you bought a tinkerbell polo tee for me! :DDD
THANK YOU!
watched deck the halls
quite nice luh
then towned
had dinner then sent that stupid hun back home
then cabbed home
talked to her on the phone and so funny luh
cause i kept questioning her abt so many stuff
then talked rubbish
and now xy is at my place.
i'm hungry!!!
you fell asleep on the phone!
ROAR!

no promises
you send to me one rmb :)))
this nearly one mth when you're not mine
i realised that its not reliance
but something i call love
its not that i cant get use to not having you w/o you by my side
but is i just cant let you go and miss you so dearly
this time when you're back
promise that you'll stay by me
and not lie to me anymore
& dont treat me nice and all only for awhile
and then be back the ugly kaven alright
hoped that you'll be really ready soon
i dont wanna preasure you and all
blahblahblah
just no lies from you
i just want pure honestly :))
found out so many things today
cleared most of my doubts
thanks!
i just wanna stay happy when i'm with you
& i feel so blissed by the way you treat me today
but i became a meanie and bullied you
hahas.
can you still treat me the same?
pamper me and all like today okay
and yes
kaven tan.
WO AI NI!
ILOVEYOU!

p.s i'm still waiting for you to say it to me.

i miss you. yes i do
but is there anything i can do?
i so wanna hug you tight now
i so wanna tell you so many things now
i wanna tell you how much i love you
i wanna hear from you these 3 words iloveyou from the bottom of your heart
but can i?
i felt so chrashed up looking at your friendster.
you still didnt change your profile at all.
it was for her and its stil for her.
and your testimonials and your reply to my testimonial
its so hurting. honeyed kaven. ouch!
you've got a honey already.
i shant call you hun anymore.
its not for me to call.
i shall just call you friend, kaven
when you're back. dont need to meet me everyday.
its okay
you've got so many ppl to meet in so lil time.
so just meet them. i'm not impt.
its okay.
i'll just let you fly. dont let me tie you down when you cant
come back to me only when you're ready for promises and commitments
come back to me only when i see that trust in you fo rme to trust
come back to me only when i see that you stop flirting
bye

HELLO!!
i'm going to blog again! hahas
stupid xinyi is driving me and rayne so crazy
that me and him have to blog abt her retardedness!
my GOODNESS
hahas.
RETARDED=RAYNE
right xinyi?
CRAZY/RETARD/WORZXWORZX/POTATO=XINYI!!!
XINYI'S THEORY:
there are so many WORX(walls)eveywhere
you know your heart also got WOrx(walls)
RAYNE'S THEORY:
therefore all the ah lians bang into the WorX(walls)

oh shrimp!
i'm going to go nuts with them around worxzing here and there!
i swear i'm going to send XY back to her house
IMH (INSTITUE of MENTAL HEALTH)

XINYI SHALL INVADE. C:
HELLO EVERYBODDAYE,
MICH HAS A WORX CARD (:
for more offers on worxzx pink combs&pinkishh puremilkxzx tshirt,
pleas go t her (:
ANYWAY, HELLLLOOO -SHOUTS.
:}
I DONT STAY IN IMH YKNOW, too quiet for me alr,
well mich stays beside my ward (:
BYEBYE

HELLO! :D
my blog is abt to grow dust.
hahas.
jade's chalet was fun fun fun.
i love JADE!!!
people i love came too. hahas
i feel so stress now
cause miss xinyi and rayne is lookin at me blog
haiyo!
dont look can?!?!?!?! stress you know.
oh btw i'm at the airport now. hahas!
things are getting rather confusing now
hurry come back you stupid fat pig
hahas. then you can listen to all my complaints!
hahas. lalalalalala
stupid cramps is gg to killing soon.hahas
oh i'm gg to die of pain everywhere. hahas
we're geeting really bored at the airport!
i'm hungry!!! ROAR!
xinyi is gg crazy soon taking the stupid miss sixty bottle
i better entertain her. hahas
TOODLES

idomissyouprecious.
TOODLES

this few days so tired
but was fun. made new friends like xinyi. nicole. pui pui. rayne. kenneth and AH SOON
hahas. i miss the bugger.
anyways..
i miss you
i miss my MUMMY!!!
i miss my baby zenn. HAHA! jk only
i miss JADE!
i miss DAN!
i miss GRACE!
i miss EMU!
i miss CHOW!
i miss my fellow 3-10ners!!!
i miss so many ppl!
hahas. but still someone the most.
you know when you wanna sweet talk with me you have to say something that i cant shoot you back
for instance if someone says i'll love you like the nvr ending river
i'll most probably say what if theres a drought!
hahas!
so so far the best ans would be even if the world is coming to an end i'll still carry on loving you
hahas
after so may things.
i realise the different faces of my frens.
it just disgust me. why be so arrogant
be HUMBLE!!! dont brag!
and dont lie! especially to me
i'll hateyou.
anyways
updated with cyn lots of stuff.
i love her lah.
mummy you better take good care okay.
lalalala
i dunno what to blog abt already

everything ended just like that
listen to me and just move on
you'll be able to find someone else better
i have to keep lying to myself everynow and then
to make myself happy
not to let ppl worry for me
i cried myself to sleep last night as i thought of you and wrote the book
everywhere i go just reminds me of you
anything i do just reminds me of you
even when i'm out pooling
the songs they play was all the songs we used to listen
roar!
it died long ago? hmmm i wonder
take care alright

enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know
can you please answer my questions

enjoyed myself today
thanks baby. playin ard at sentosa
but something was holding me back
i dunno whether to hold you or not
dunno whether to be close to you or not
we are just next to each other but we seem so far away
you know you can tell me anything
and i'll be here for you
someone said even if you were to run
you'll still come back to me for forever.
but maybe i cant be that open with love.
i want you all to myself and only myself
would you come back to me?
i want you to tell me.
our couple friend at least know how each other feels
but us. i dunno how you feel.
sorry baby. i just need to know
whether to be your friend or too be your lover
given a choice i would be your lover
but if you want me to be you friend i would.
must take care alright and i need to know

baby. could you tell me what you feel now
thats all i need to know
its killing me not knowing
that post is just not for me right
cause i didnt even give you any cold treatment lah
but the song lyrics,.
i dunno
ytd i had this very blissed feeling
as if we're staying tgt again
like that feeling we had last time
if its for her just say its for her
why did you still call me baby ytd
why?
i'm very very lost
baby. please, take it as i'm begging you
tell me everything
even if it hurts me.
please

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart 
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

baby. would you just tell me how you feel
thats all i need to know
why is your heart tearing apart

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
'Cause
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
And everything right again with your extraordinary love
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You're every breath that I breathe
From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'Cause it feels so good to me

WRONG SONG CHOICE.

it was for somebody else.

not me.

michele. whats wrong with you

when its for you you think its not for you

now when its not for you you think its for you

how dumb of you

she wont love you anymore lah michele

she'll be happier without the bitchy me

stop dreaming lah michele

to you.

i really miss you so much now
i wanna spend every second lying on you
i feel so safe and bliss on you shoulders
each time you hold my hand now
my heart thumps so fast
just like we first met
i felt like a lil girl falling in love with you again
you are the only one that ever made me feel like this
when can i ever call you mine again
when is the next time i can cuddle you for long
i wanted to say i love you
but i just didnt have the courage to say it
i'll nvr stop loving you
right now i feel like we're dating all over again
i have to pluck up alot of courage to say i miss you and call you baby
right now
i'm willing to do anything just to call you mine
or just to hear you calling me baby
and knowing that you miss me every sec
maybe that will be impossible.
i dunno.
why did i still let you go when i love you so so much
maybe its beacuse i feel you'll be better off without me
right noe arent you happier that you have all your freedom back
if ever one day fate might bring us back
i dont wanna argue with you at all
and just live everyday happily and loving you
and not letting you go again
but i want no more lies from you
it hurts my heart each time you lie,
haii...
i miss you.

p.s

you know sometimes is not i wanna be bitchy to you

or scream at you

i just need to know how you feel

whether you still want me

or you already have someone else

i swear my condition is getting worst

i want you to take care of me

but i dont wanna be your burden

i also wish to hold you tight and say i love you

wait maybe thats not for me

but yupps

baby.. could you tell me what you're thinkin?

if you want me to be your friend i will

and i force myself to stop loving you and be your friend

you want me to keep loving you tell me

baby would you justy tell me everything

even if it hurts me

you said you knew what you want and now you dont

i'm confused. i'm trying to control my temper

i got scolded by my frens for my horrible temper towards you

i'm really trying my best to be that understanding gf

you want us to be dating all over again

or just be friends

dont always eat maggi mee

not good for health

mosquito bite then do the cross thing then run it under water

you'll feel better.

haii.

just take care

i miss you. :'(
alot.
but how am i suppose to tell you
its so difficult to say out
i cried cause i regretted not hugging you.
i cried because i miss you soo soo much you know

it seems like you've stop loving me
it seems like you've gotten over me
you are still so happy
you dont need me
you have your eye candy your fling your darlings your laopos and the girls you like and all
i'm just nobody to you now
browsed thru your friendster
and our pictures are slowly gettin lesser
captions becoming like normal friends
i dont wanna give you up
i still want you so badly
but so
i cant trust love anymore
could you make me trust it once again?
and not break it
i'm so lost i'm so lost
holding back my tears eveyrday but now i cant take it already
i dunno whats wrong with me but i just wanna cry
i watch humour show i can still cry
whats wrong with me
i feel llike the whole world is crashing upon me
will you still be here for me
hugging me tight andkissing me telling me everything is fine
theres something b/w us
and thats our friends
now i dont think thats our problem already
maybe the problem lies in you?
you dont wanna commit?
you still wanna fling around?
using your freinds as a excuse so that even if you flirt no one will say you?
i dunno
but so many things are running thru my head now
i'm breaking down for sure
i'm losing myself
i'm losing everything
my love, my friends, my family
i miss you so terribly you know
can you ever make the luckiest girl
to make you change and settle down for me?
i dunno i dunno i dunno
right now i know i only want to see you
i wanna hold you in my arms so tightly espeacially your heart
but it takes two hands to clap.
i can only love you and misss you secretly
i can only try to help you secretly
i love you.

i miss you.
do you know?
can you hear me calling out for you?
you are all that i ever needed
you are all that i ever wanted
i wanna tie your heart so that you'll only love me
will you give me a chance to do so?
you you give us another chance so that everything restarts from the day we messaged?
the messages you messaged was so sweet to me that i'll nvr forget
you made me dared to love again
becuase i thought you were very faithful
i would dare to love you cause i thought i would not get hurt
rmb the fisrt time we met at bugis?
the first time you came over my place
the first time from everything
the fisrt time we held hands
the first time we hugged
the first time we kissed
rmb the days i stayed at your house we felt so blissed
rmb the days when we are just so in love with each other
rmb the silly dreams and thoughts we have
like what will happen if we stay tgt
we think we dont need to go out le cause you'll be hugging me so tight
and our dream house; our future house
purple orange?
big bed?
cosy corners
and all that stuffs
whenever i feel down
al i need is a hug from you. telling me everything is fine
inside me i can tell you i'm still a lil girl that cant handle my frendship and family problems
when i'm queit and emo. i think of my family and friends and if you're beside eme i hoped you will just sayang me
whenever you're down too. i'll always be there for you
i hoped that whenever i msged you
you will at leaset reply lettin me know that you're okay
how i wish everything will be alright now
everything will be like b4
the love and passion we once shared
i just wanna tell you that my love for you nvr changed but its growing everyday
i just wanna tell you i miss you alot too.

i dunno what can i do to make you smie again
i'm trying real hard
but you still haven cooled down.
all i can do is maybe give you the time to cool down
i wanna hug you so tight now i tell you everything is alright
but can i ? i wished i can
i'm seriusly not blaming you for anything
i know you are changing
i'm supporting you all the way
including my frens like darius
please dont pressure yoursef too much
cause you're good enough already
you're already perfect in my eyes
i know things haven been good for you
you want me to share my unhappiness with you
i want you to share it with me
even if i cant do anything to solve it
at least you know you can always count on m when you need me
my heart hurts to know you scald you're hand
but what can i do now. i feel useless for not hugging you right now
i never once did blame you or anything
i blamed myself for maybe trying to tie you down too tight
now you can hardly breathe
you can say its my fault to be so protective over you
cause i dont want you to get urt in anyway
i want the best for you
but if now the best for you is to let you breathe
i will
you know what
i dont care about label. you should know that right from the start
to me theres no such thiings as what a bung is suppose to do what a passive is suppose to do
as longg as both are giving and taking
its good enough
cause when you love,you and me have the freedom to do what a bung or passive is suppose to do
i felt very bad about that
for lowering you're pride
i lowered mine alot alot too you knwo
i already apologised to her
you should know no matter how wrong i am i wont say sorry
but i still did for you to have that pride back in you
i promise no such thing will hppen again
we're both gettin haunt by nightmares
so afraid that it'll all come true
but i've told yu this before
as long as we still love each other
nothing is impossible
i know you're crying too.
i can nvr bear to let you cry or be angry with you for even 15 mins
cause i know you are sorry and you'll try notto let it happen again
and cause i love you
tell me now...
do you still want this r/s
do you wanna save it
cause if you do...i really wanna do all things to make it good
do you still love me
do you need that space
case if you do i'll give it to you
as long as i see you smile
i'm wiling to sacrifice everything just for you even myself
have faith in the both of us
i was so paranoid cause i'm afraid whatif you got tai ji again
or you very sick how
sorry about it
but its just me. sorry.
i didnt meant for this to happen
sorry.

so many thiings happen
and it did change somethings
you ask whether there is somthing in between
yes there is, theres obviously a fear in me
i'm so insecure
when you're with me is your heart and mind too?
am i the only one you think about
am i the only one for everything
when its time to meet me
you dont seem to have any sense or urgency
when you meet your friends
you rush
when you're suppose to meet me at that time
the time will keep changing to a few hours later.
all i can say now is i'm scared and insecured
can you prove that you're really worth it
and not change for just that few days or weeks or just that 1 month
i'm giving time to you to change
you know how long i haven heard a i love you and i miss you and some sweet stuff from you
but please say it only when you mean it
and it seems like you wont message me unless i message you
sometimes you dont even reply
i dunno
please dont make me let go and hold myself back even more.

i'm at baby's house now
just cooked for baby nick swan van and cyn
thanks cyn for helping =)
swan's fried mars bar failed
hahas
i was doing all the washing lah
hahas

ytd was our 3rd month
=)
baby
days were tough for us
we had so many ups and down
no matter how much jade and swan said not happy then break lah
we still hold on to this relationship and love =))
there were times when we have cold wars
there were times when we cried
there were times when we argued
there were times we nearly lost each other
but we pulled through it all
my heart was dropping
when you were so cold to me
when you shout at me
when you scold me
it happen in the pass few days
i was so sad and all
cause you are still troubled with your stuff
i hope you will really be fine again
i can assure you that my love for you never ever did change
i'll do anything just for you
i hope when you say you'lll be my good good gf
it'll happen.
cause i'm already puttin in alot for you
but i still love you no matter what =)
i really wanna be with you forever
the word forever and pure love
was cancelld out of my life
ever since i was hurt and cheated so many times in the pass
tilll i met you. then i believe in the two words once again
so sweep me off my feet so easily
just by looking into your eyes i can melt
i'm all yours;
treasure and cherish me please
will you do anything just for me?
hmmm
i dunno
loves you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUGAR

hahas
hope you really cheer up and feel better
i was rushing the book
thinking wat to write
paste what photo and all lor
hahs
somemore my poor finger got cut
hahas
its all okay lha
cause i was doing it for you
continue the book okay
write finish le but another book
i wanna have alot alot of books
with all the memries of you and me
i think when you are really really okay is when your msn nick starts to change
nvm take your time
i'm glad you finally sort things out
you have to be my 24 hours good goood gf
hahas

my mind started to run wild
when you treated me so coldly
i was very sad and emo
swan they all tried very hard to cheer me up
thanks
i just teared and teared
cause i dont want them to worry
though wat you post sounds wrong
but yupps i'll understand
i'll always love you
and cherish you forever
i'll not give up on you
i hope you wont too
i'll always be there for you
:)))
i love you!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUGAR

hahas
hope you really cheer up and feel better
i was rushing the book
thinking wat to write
paste what photo and all lor
hahs
somemore my poor finger got cut
hahas
its all okay lha
cause i was doing it for you
continue the book okay
write finish le but another book
i wanna have alot alot of books
with all the memries of you and me
i think when you are really really okay is when your msn nick starts to change
nvm take your time
i'm glad you finally sort things out
you have to be my 24 hours good goood gf
hahas

my mind started to run wild
when you treated me so coldly
i was very sad and emo
swan they all tried very hard to cheer me up
thanks
i just teared and teared
cause i dont want them to worry
though wat you post sounds wrong
but yupps i'll understand
i'll always love you
and cherish you forever
i'll not give up on you
i hope you wont too
i'll always be there for you
:)))
i love you!!!

do you know how much it hurts to see you cry so hard
you told me you'vre never cried so much for anyone before
that day when i went down to look for you
i saw you cry and weep and keep saying you want her back
you want her back
end up i crued cause i felt the pain in me
the same pain you're feeling or maybe even worse
on sat i just wanted you to enjoy yourself
and i wanted to be the one that make you smile
but it wasnt me that make you smile. i made you sad
it was the others that made you smile
i guess i bring more tears than smiles into your life
i'm sorry for that
we;re both emotionally and phsically tired
no matter how tired i am
our things and you will never be off my mine
cause i love you
i'll still do anything just for you
cause i know its all worth doing
cause you are my one and only most loved gf i have
you just mean so much to me
i am just afraid to lose you
thats explains why i'm so sensitive
i know right now you're crying
but i cant do anything but just to let you cry
i'm awaiting for your call later
i wanna hear your voice
i miss you so much
looking forward to later hoping that it'll be a better day
i love you
wo de ai ai
wo ai si ni le
wo hen xiang hen xinag ni
<333>

okay
i'm really tired
dodnt sleep well ytd
infact i didnt even sleep
had a nightmare. :(((
woke up at 6 plus
was thinking not to go sch then went in the end cause got f&n pract
in the end 3 straight periods of theory
oh my
i was falling asleep every lesson lah
after sch went home changed and all
then went to look for baby
then went for dinner at 5 plus 6 lah
so early can
then went to babys place

today was just really awesome
i really really wanna stay with you now
we had so much fun today
laughing away
lying in your arms
hugging you when i'm tired
you feeding me my bear bear
and eating kindler surprise
hahas!
gosh. baby i love you!
i cant wait to meet you on wednesday
hahas
dont wanna meet you tml lei
i wanna sleep and let you miss me!
hahas!
the song everytime we touch really means alot of what i wanna say to you

i still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
i can still feel your touch in my dreams
without you its hard to survive.
everytime we touch i get this feeling
everytime we kiss i swear i could fly and i can reach for the sky.
cant you feel my heart beat fast
i want this to last
i need you by my side.
your arms are my castle
your heart is my sky
they wipe away tears that i cry
the good and bad times we have been thru them all.

i need you my precious baby
you always pick me up when i fall
you're my dream come true
you're my sweet love
i never wanna say goodbye to you
i bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
baby i'm so in love with you now
really dont ever let me go please
i need you and want you so much in my life
without you life is so empty
without you i rather die
i wanna hug you so tight everyday
letting you know that i cant leave without your love
i love you baby
=D

thinking about what baby told me
i should just be a good girl and stay at home more often
mummy you know i love you
what will happen if i told you me and pearlyn are tgt
will it be very dissapointing?
i just want you to know
nvm.. its okay

baby
sometimes i think whether are you really that faithful to me
i think everyone will flirt even when they are in a relationship right?
i hope not
cause i know i'm not
but what i see that you are
but i hope you will realise and stop it
cause you know if you dont stop it what will happen right
i really dont weant it to happen already
i may not be your perfect gf
but i'll try all ways to be your perfect gf
i just wanna hold you tight and not let you go
i dont want you to leave my sight even if its for 1 sec
cause i'll be missing you like crazy already
what if you leave me and never come back?
that will be the end of me
you ask me whether can we make this last forever
my answer is yes
you said yes too
but we have to work towards it
we have to remain faithful loyal and honest
i trust that you dont flirt, your faithful, loyal and you dont lie to me
so dont ever break that trust
as once that trust is broken
things are hard to be like the same
my love for you is deeper than the deepest ocean
you nvr fail to my me smile again
yes i love you for who you are
but when you're attach thers somethings that should be different right?
i'm very very serious in this r/s
so i hope you are too
though you are not my first love
but the love i have for you is greater than my first love
and hope this will be the last
and last forever
i wanna go through every thick and thin tgt with you
i wanna celebrate every special occasions with you
i wanna spent every seconds with you
i just love you way too much to let you go
baby
please dont ever leave me
please dont ever lie to me
please dont ever cheat on me
please dont ever dissapoint me
as it will hurt alot
and i really mean alot alot alot.
i love you sweetlove
miss you so much
MWAHS!

i'm still sick
haii
not feeling too good either
i need you to take care of me this time round
but its okay
dont worry about me
i'll be fine
theres something thats affecting me now
its those buch of fake and desperate ppl
i really want them to vanish!
they make my blood boil.
seriously they do
cause i despise them
i hate thme

now we're a step closer
i really wish i dont want such things to affect us anymore
its a terrible feeling
i'm glad you're gettin a lil more sensitive towards my feeling
but i'm alright
okay no more emo stuff
lets talk abt happy astuff

baby
i love you so much
im so afraid to lose you
now we're closer
and our relationship is improving
its so hard for me to let go
without you life so so empty and boring
ytd i had that very special feeling of staying tgt again
i reached your house
food was ready for me
then we went to the room and nap
hahas
then ya
then did our homework
watched tv
had a major pillow fight
running around the house hitting each other
hahas
i'm sorry for throwing my temper ytd
i was just very stressed out and tired
my exams are very very near
and my sch standard is so damn high
its no diff from taking my Os
thats why i feel so stressed up
baby
i wanna stay with you
you aer my star
you light up my life in everyway
so sad that i cant meet you today
i miss you so much that its gg to cause my emo really soon
i need your love in every way
i'm not someone wordy
so i cant blog much
so i shall show it to you
i love you baby.

actions speaks louder than words
cause sometimes
words are just words
what are words without actions.
iloveyou

i'm at baby's place now
forced to blog by that meanie
hahas
anyway...
baby cooked for me when i reached
it was a surprise
hahas
so sweet of you
hahas
we are studying
hahas
we are guai
hahas
baby
i dont owe you anything now
hahahahahaha!!!
so too bad!
i dunno what to blog already lah.
you blog first can.

lalalalalalala
feeling better
but still sick and having fever
baby is a slow poke
take so long to walk home
hahas!
i miss you honey sugar!
i want you sweater!!!
so i can sleep with it everynight
then when i return it to you
it'll smell like me!
MWAHAHAHAH.
you can slp with my photo
so be fait and let me sleep with your sweater!
or not i lend you mine
hahas
i miss you so so so much lah
though we just met ytd
i wanna see you really soon
like really really soon
i love you baby!!!!

fuck it fuck it fuck it
i hate evrything thats happening to me now!
ARGH!!!
it seems like the whole world is crashing onto me!
stab me to death !!!!!!
you know i hate her contactin you
why do you still contact her even when you said you wont
liar!!!!!
ARGH ARGH ARGH!!!!
tears are continously flowing like an endless ocean
friends are leaving
friends are changing but i cant help
family just sucks terribly
tell me you still love me as much as before now
cause i really feel like everything is just chrashing on me
i need you so badly now
i really do
i dont wish to show you attitude at all
but sometimes just be hearing your sian voive on the phone leaves me speechless
and when you talk to other ppl you're so much happier
i feel that i cant bring the happiness you want instead the unhappiness you dont want
haiiii
there are just so many thing running thru my head now
i'm going crazy. very crazy.
and my fever and everything is making it worse.
fuck it lah!

my kaven baby!!
i miss you so much lah
conclude that if we stay tgt
dont need to meet ppl le
whole day just sleeping eating and using com tgt
eat maggie mee
watch youtube
sleeping in your arms
i felt so blissed ytd
falling asleep in your arms
and you gave me two kisses while i was sleeping
waking up smiling
hehes
i just wanna stay with you forever
you are my everything
things around me are so dull when you're not around
i think abt you every second
i wanna hug you everynight and day
and hold you so close to me
and nvr let go of you
cause you are so special and important to me
please fast forward time so that we could stay tgt
you're gg overseas for quite long during the hols
i'm so going to miss you like crazy
how i wish you can dont go but you have to
can yo pack me in your laguage? hehes
i love you so so so much more then i ever expected
you bring joy to my world
you are everything that i need and i ever longed for
ytd was amazing and unforgettable
i swear
you are the only one that can lift me so high up
and not drop me down
oh baby.
i'm so in love with you
drinking session will be back. no worries
hehes
i miss and love evrything abt you
you will forever be my adorable baby and my kaven baby
i've nvr regretted my choice and decision
and i know my friends are supporting it
and they are loving you more then loving me. poots
i'm willing to do anything for you
as long as i see a smile on your face
seeing you smile and be silly and happy
its like even better then winning a million dollars
hahas
right here i declare my love for you
i'm willing to love you foever
and hand my life over to you
and rely on you forever
you are my SILLY BABY BOY!
i miss you i miss you i miss you
i love my kaven baby-licious!
mwahs mwahs

didnt go home ytd.
stayed at baby's place
i conclude i have a violent gf
i have her teeth marks on my fingers
mean baby.
you made me the luckiest girl to own you
you all are i desire
i just wanna hold you everynight and day
everytime when we spent the night together
i just want time to stop
so that we could spent the night longer
i so wanna stay with you
watching my cute lil baby sleeping so soundly
you helping me adjust the blankie
making my hair when i'm sleeping
taking care of me when i'm sleeping like a piggy
i wanna stay with you honey!!!
i love you i love you i love you!!
the moment i left you,
i miss you so much already
without you everything is so weird
everything is so different and boring
going without you makes me emo and then cry
i told you wat i'm unhappy about already
so do me a favour by not doing the same things again
cause i dont wanna have anymore bad things happening already
cause i'm so afraid that i'll lose you
cause it will cause the fear of losing you
its terrible baby
cause i've fallen way too deep with you
its going to be your birthday soon
i so wanna spend the whole day with you
but family is impt too
so we'll celebrate early okay
i just wanna hold your hand and not let it go forever
you asked me
why am i so cute?
why are my eyes so nice?
why is my smile so sweet?
why i make you so happy and high?
hmmm.... i dunno
but maybe cause i love you so
and you make me smile deep from my heart
you make my day
i'm your pretty lil baby
you're my adorable honey
i'm your angel
your my star
hehes
i love you so baby
i've gave you my everything from the first time we met
just you amd me
my feelings tell me so that you're the one
you're the one i can relay on forever
you're the one i can trust and love forever
you brought that sweet smile that has been missing n my face for ages out again
your sweet lil prases abt my eye and my smile and everything just life me onto cloud nine
makeing me more in love with you
making me miss you so much more
telling me again and agin that you love me and you're my one and only
i want you to smile all the time okay
i dont wanna see you frown already
my heart aches
i love all the silly things that iyou do
oh baby
i just love you so much!!!
i miss you!
honey sugar baby.!

didnt go home ytd.
stayed at baby's place
i conclude i have a violent gf
i have her teeth marks on my fingers
mean baby.
you made me the luckiest girl to own you
you all are i desire
i just wanna hold you everynight and day
everytime when we spent the night together
i just want time to stop
so that we could spent the night longer
i so wanna stay with you
watching my cute lil baby sleeping so soundly
you helping me adjust the blankie
making my hair when i'm sleeping
taking care of me when i'm sleeping like a piggy
i wanna stay with you honey!!!
i love you i love you i love you!!
the moment i left you,
i miss you so much already
without you everything is so weird
everything is so different and boring
going without you makes me emo and then cry
i told you wat i'm unhappy about already
so do me a favour by not doing the same things again
cause i dont wanna have anymore bad things happening already
cause i'm so afraid that i'll lose you
cause it will cause the fear of losing you
its terrible baby
cause i've fallen way too deep with you
its going to be your birthday soon
i so wanna spend the whole day with you
but family is impt too
so we'll celebrate early okay
i just wanna hold your hand and not let it go forever
you asked me
why am i so cute?
why are my eyes so nice?
why is my smile so sweet?
why i make you so happy and high?
hmmm.... i dunno
but maybe cause i love you so
and you make me smile deep from my heart
you make my day
i'm your pretty lil baby
you're my adorable honey
i'm your angel
your my star
hehes
i love you so baby
i've gave you my everything from the first time we met
just you amd me
my feelings tell me so that you're the one
you're the one i can relay on forever
you're the one i can trust and love forever
you brought that sweet smile that has been missing n my face for ages out again
your sweet lil prases abt my eye and my smile and everything just life me onto cloud nine
makeing me more in love with you
making me miss you so much more
telling me again and agin that you love me and you're my one and only
i want you to smile all the time okay
i dont wanna see you frown already
my heart aches
i love all the silly things that iyou do
oh baby
i just love you so much!!!
i miss you!
honey sugar baby.!