this entry is going to be short and sweet
cause i need to study and have lots of homework
sorry kae baby.

its my duty to take care of you when you're sick
but when i'm not with you
take care of yourself okay.
dont make me worry so much for you
hurry go see doctor okay
at most i bring you go.
cause i also need to go.
i'm glad everything is falling back in place now
you and my family.
i'm still not really happy in this family but i dont wanna think abt
everything must think on the positve side
now i have to concentrate on my studies
must do well.
secured? yes.
happy? yes
loved and loving? yes
happy that you're putting in effort to make me happy
-BIG WIDE SMILE-
i'll put a FULLSTOP
and i want you to out it to.FULLSTOP
that way we only think abt each other
hehes!
i also wanna be selfish
i want everything of you to myself also
no one can share it!!!
WAHAHAHAHA
i'm just really happy now!
caused you made me so
i love my baby!!!
my SUGARLICIOUS-HONEY- BABYLICIOUS
YUMMY!!!
i miss you baby!
cannot sad sad in sch le okay
must be happy
and CONCENTRATE okay!!!
just pretend the teacher is me then you can concentrate le
hahas
i love you!!!
hurry bath!!!
byebye!!!

baby.
im sorry for all the trouble that i cause.
thanks baby for taking care of me when im sick.
i will see a doctor soon okaes.
dun feel hurt..im okaes.
dun let your heart break okaes.
even if it breaks
i will mend it for you. (:
whenever you want that silly smile i will always show it too you.
i just want to see you happy too.
im glad that all the things are over now.
lets live the happy life like how we started off.
nobody hope that things will happen again.
cause it will really kill me.
im sorry for causing you to go crazy on saturday.
if you were to give up at that time.
i think i would have just broke down and be at a lost of what to do now.
i wun allow your mind to go wild again.
i wun allow you to think bout anyting else except bout US.
i really love you.
i will be with you till the end of time too.
im prepared once again just like how we started off.
i secured now.are you?
all the promises that i promised to you still stand true.
like what i say on the day that we were together.
i will always love you and will never let you go.
and i will treat you better den how the others treat you.
thanks for pampering me so much.
i will and MUS pamper you too.
i will and MUS show my feelings out to you and not keep it in me.
baby.
PLEASE put a FULLSTOP in your mind.
so that you wun have things running thru your mind.
you ask whether i still love you as much as before?
my answer to you is that.
i love you more den before,more den you expected.
nothing is holding me back.
i will proof to you that my feelings is deeper each day
by showing it out instead of sayin it everytime.
like what you say...
actiong speaks louder den words.
i so wanna see you now.
i miss you like crazy.
miss you till i dunno even know myself anymore.
how i wish i could jus STOP your mind from running wild.
could you jus think on the positive side?so that you wun think so much.
if there's a problem PLEASE tell me okaes!
i want to share your burden with you.
dun keep everything in your heart.
and now i tell you:
i love you like the never ending river.
i miss you till im going crazy.
all this is true.
this is reality.
everything is real
JUS YOU AND ME.
its not a dream.
im cherishing you!and i will ALWAYS do so.
YOU are the one for ME.
i mean all i say now.
believe me and hand your life to me.
like what i blogged on our first month..
when you touch me
i can feel how much you love me
and it just blows me away.
each time you hold my hand;lie on my shoulders;EVERYTHING that we do.
i just wish that the time could just pause there.
like what i say.
lets hold on to this love and walk down this road together.
no matter how tough or difficult it is.
im always here to be there for you.
and will you be there for me too?
my first month entry was just so touching right. (:
i love you too much till i just cant let you go.
i want to sell fish in the market..
i wan to be selfish.
i wan you all to myself.
i dun wan to share your heart and love with any other people out there.
i feel lost and empty without you by my side
i love you alot.
i miss you alot.
dun ever leave me.

p.s. our second month is coming soon! (:
MIGHT HAVE SURPRISE FOR YOU!! HEES!
LOVES! <3

-pearlyn

baby.
please do something about health
see a doctor for my sake
seeing you suffering but i cant do anything
makes me feel really heart
i could here my heart breaking and aching and reaching out fr you
i'm glad to see that silly smile on your face again
leave it there forever okay
seeing just smile i'm happy already
things are finally fine now
i wish it dont happen again
its very xin ku to go through
i was gg crazy ytd
i just felt like giving up everything
but i talked to myself and ask wtf was i doing
i just dunno
my mind just drove me wild
sorry.
just say you really love me
and i will be with you till the end of time
this i promise you
i've got so many things to ask you
are the promises you promised me still satnd true
since we got tgt?
i hope it does
baby...
sorry but so many things are running through my mind now
do you still love me as much as before?
is something holding you back?
i dunno i dunno i dunno
sorry baby for feeling this way.
you said it was hard to show your feelings
but to me action speaks louder than words.
haii.. sorry
i wanna see you now
i miss you like crazy
stop my mind from running wild would you
tell me you love me
tell me you miss me
tell me its not a dream
tell me everything is real
tell me you're cherishing me
tell me i'm the one for you

i so wanna be with you forever.
babyyou light up my world.
i never felt tis way before.
you are the first person to make me feel this way.
im so ready to live my life with you.
baby.everytime our eyes meet
the feeling inside me ish more den i can take.
when you touch me
i can feel how much you love me
and it jus blows me away.
im so in love in love with you
i wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side forever and ever.
every little ting tat you do
im amazed by you.
baby you surround me
you touch every place in my heart.
it feels like the first yime everytime
i wanna spend the whole night in your eyes.
baby.
you are the one i need
you know my heart ish beating jus for you.
every day and every night
i feel my heart aching without you.
im never gonna hurt youyou are always on my mind.
i will be the one until the end of time.
if i close my eyes forever
i know you will be always there.
i will be there for you to brighten up ur eyes.
i will be there for you to make you realise
when i look into the future
all i seek ish you.
we have been thru good and bad times
and we know we had it all
there were storms we had to weather
we have been down tis road before
as the world jus keep on turning
as the birds that fly so high
as the fire keeps on burning
our love will never die.
we shared the love
we shared the tears
baby
ii dun wanna see you shed your tears for no reason
cause every drop of tears that drop down,
it hurts me.
baby.
lets hold on tight to our love and walk down tis road together
we will be together forever.
im never gonna hurt you.
im never gonna make you cry
i wan you to be happy.
i wan you to be smiling at me and say you love me too.
baby
i love you alot!
i miss you alot too.
dun ever leave me as i will die without you.
dun say you dun love me no more as i will cry.
dun say you play with my heart as my heart wil stop beating and die.

rmb this?
now i'm telling you the same thing
i just love you oh so much
to even let you go

just hurry contact me.
i love you.
i'm feeling so lost and empty without you
i miss you.

baby
stop saying sorry
and sstop saying you dont worth it
you are worth my love okay
dont doubt yourself already okay
if you wont give up i wont give up too
i'll still keep trying until i see that smile on your face.
i seem to be laughing and smiling its cause
i already went mad
i dont know what i'm doing
i could only smile or laugh cause i hope things will be better and i didnt want my frens to worry.
though its written all over my face
i only know i've been staring in my wallet
looking at your picture
and hoping that you're alright
my heart burn is back
my gastric probs ar eback
my wrist hurts more.
maybe something is holding you back
cause you're afraid
i have that fear in me too
but i decide not to think abt it
cause i wanna have more good memories with you
more smiles and laughter with you
you control your brain my dear
not your brain controls you
have some confidence in yourself kae
ots not like i'm some freaking hot and pretty girl right.
you know my love for you is so true.
no matter how tired i am
i'm going to stay strong to pull through it tgt with my precious baby.
it hurts to see you keep blaming yourself
i wanna share all your probs with you.
i love you baby



the card..
i want to be so many things for you.
i want to be someone who reminds you every single day how much you're loved.
i want to be someone who makes you happy.
i want to be someone you can trust.
with absolutely everything.
every feeling you feel like sharing.
every hope and worry.
every joy.
every sorrow.
i want to be the one person in the universe you know you can always turn to.
someone you can laugh with whenever you want to
cry with if you ever need to
and to be youself anytime.
i want to be the one thing you're sure about.
i want to be someone who makes you smile a million times more than i make yo frown.
i want to make beautiful memories with you.
i want to go so many places with you.
i want to see more sunsets with you than i could even begin to count.
i want to see across from you at dinner.
i want to talk about the day.
i want to hold you and walk with you as many times as i possibly can in my time on this earth.
i want to be part of your tomorrows.
i want to be part of every one of mine.
and more than anything else,
i want to be what you think of everytime you think of
happiness.
forever.
and love.
i love you.



remember that true love are forevery.
and theres is no love truer than the love i feel for you.
remember that you're the most wonderful thing that has ever happen to me.
my happy ending;
my dream come true;
my friend;
my love;
all wrapped up in one
you are the love of a lifetime i've wanted as mine.
and the very special soulmate i always hope i'd find.
you are my very own one perfect person.
everything i've alwayshope for.
my sevret dream that set me off my feet.
yo have a gentle soul i always want to be close to and an amazing way of touching my heart.
i'd love to go on loving you forever




you are like a miracle that happen to me
you are just so special to me
i love everything about you
even all your flaws and stubborness
i love you the way you are
but you gotta have that cute lil smile back and that confidence back
i'll try my best to get it all back for you
but first,
you've gotta open you're heart and accept it
always look on the bright side
i've so many more things to talk to you about
but i have to say it face to face.
its more sincere.
though i keep sayin those 3 words
i mean it everytime i say it
it always comes from th bottom of my heart
we must stay really strong alright
and baby
you cant give up on yourself
or else noone can ever help you
if you give up on youself
so would i
cause have you forgotten,
our hearts as joined as one
so if one dies,
both dies.
so dont okay baby.
i love you so damn much


everyword i say is coming from the bottom of my heart.
i really love you more than anyont can expect.
i miss you.

baby.
im sorry to make you cry...
sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..
tears are rolling down as yu read the card to me..
god damn it..
im not worth it.
but i can assure you.
i wun give up.

-pearlyn

if you are left with no more way.
den take the hard way ok.
i wun blame you..
im sorry for everything!

-pearlyn

baby
what you are dead already
you wanna leave me all alone now is it?
is that so

right now i'm still thinking whether you're okay already?
do you really wanna want me to not love you so much?
that line scares me
are you going to leave me soon?
haiii
all these thoughts are still running in my head
seeing you msn nick
leaves me with nth to say
am i causing your life to be like that?
you're dead again?
what does it means?
you claim to love me alot
then could you be happy just for me?
haii
i feel like i've really did not done my part as a gf
instead i change your world from white to black
haiii
baby baby baby
seriously tell me whats wrong
dont say i dunno
cause i know there are reasons to it
haii
you're sleeping now
so i shall just wait for you to call me

baby.
take care of yourself okaes.
IM DEAD ALREADY.

-pearlyn

i walked home alone
crying to myself
whats wrong with me?
i dunno
cause i just cant lose you
you're the only one i desire and love
i miss you

baby
i seriously need to know whats wrong
dont tell me you dont know
theres got to be a reason
i dont care if it hurts me or what
i just need to know
come clean with me please
i dont wanna end up doing it the hard way
you dont wish too right
seeing you like that hurts me alot
i wish everything will be alright
i want us to
be strong like the trees
staying strong in rain, storm
i wanna pull through it together with you
rmb out lil test?
do you wanna fail it or pass it?
i wanna pass it for sure
i know this test is very hard
but yea
love will show everything
i gave my heart to you
i'm giving you my hand to hold
and see whether you wanna hold it now
and walk through this storm tgt hand in hand
dont feel insecure and all already
i'm loving you with all my heart
i just wanna see you be yourself
whatever you're not happy with say
be clear with me
i dont want you to hide anything from me
like how i'm not hiding anything from you
i dont want you to do stupid things already
you know i'll get angry right
and my heart is bleeding now
it just hurts to see you sad nearly everyday
it shows me that i have failed my duty as a gf
just by not making the one i love happy
have some confidence in yourself would you
and have faith in me
dont compare yourself with others
foy you're the only one i love
love cant be compared
sometimes i wished you were in my shoes and i was in your
so that i know what you;re thinkin
love isnt fair
love isnt abt comparing
i've nvr did compare you with her
so stop comparing please
i wanna prove my love for you
could you prove your love for me too
and stop saying abt death
what if something happens to you?
whats going to happen to me
dont be so irresponsible and leave me all alone
i know i'm selfish
i'm sorry
but i'm like that
i've stop all my paranoid and sensitive stuff
would you stop it too
maybe now is karma
in the strating of the r/s i was like that
and now you're like that
i've gotta accept my fate
fate fate fate
my life is all planned out for me
i just wanna be with you baby
you make me happy
you make me smile
you make go crazily in love with you
you make my life so meaningful now
you make my heart beating for you
you make me so addicted to you
you make me smiling knowing that i'll still be with you everyday of my life
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
baby
cheer up alright
bye darling
love you
miss you

i miss you :(
do you?
i cant wait to see you tml

swan
please be alright okay
we're all here for you
now you're all broken and all
and i have confidence in you that you'll pick yourself up once again
take care

hmmm
i hope the lil note i wrote for you
did help a lil
baby what can i do for you?

jade
a true friend indeed
i'll miss you if you go
but you have to study really really hard to stay
i love you jade!

baby
you gave me this love that cant be replaced
its so irristable and addictive
i love you baby
i was so touched today
you showed me how much you cared
and you were there for me when i cried
and just a lil hug from you is so good
you told me even if jade left you'll still be here
baby
and now i'm goin got tell you this
if everyone were to turn thier backs at you
i'll still be there with you all the way
supporting,caring and loving you
i just want you to be happy okay
i love you baby
i miss you
hehes
*BIG FAT WET KISSES*

went all the way to amk to get something for baby
but dont have
so have to go all the way to CLEMENTI
so far lor
haiyoyo
pouts
i'm so damn tired lah
falling asleep in class and all

haiii
i'm getting paranoid
i dunno why
maybe i'm just afraid of losing the one i love
how come it feels like your feeelings are fadding
stop the thinking
pouts pouts pouts

schools not fun at all
haii
but what to do
still have to go
argh!!!!

off i go!

honey stars makes me high!!
hahas

i know your eyes in the morning sun.
i feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
and the moment that you wander far away from me
i wanna feel you in my arms again.
and you come to me on a summer breeze
keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
and its me you need to show.
how deep is your love.
i really need to learnn cause we are living in a world of fools.
breaking us down
when they all should let us be
we belong to you and me.
i believe in you.
you know the door to my very soul
you are the light in my deepest darkest hour
you are my saviour when i fall
and you may not think
i care for you when you know down inside
that i really do care.
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE.
this is familiar to you right.lols.
cus tis is the song lyrics.hahas. (:
nice song lorhs.
anyway.
baby.
i dun know how to live without your love.
you are the only thing within my heart.
i love you alot.
i miss you loads.
how i wish we are staying together now.
den i no need so miserable le.
baby.
i need you now.
i wanna hold you tight in my arms now.
loves.

-pearlyn.15
-010606 ; loads of love.

baby
i'm glad that you feel loved and secured
meeting you is just so great
hahas
oh no
i'm pampering you so much lah
how?
hahas
then who pamper me huh?
its okay that you think about the past
i mean who dont
unless they have concasion right
so i'm fine with it
at least i know you love me!
hahas
you better do
hahas
we'll try our very best together
and make everything work well tgt
lets walk thrugh this path hand in hand
through good and bad
and never let go
:)))
i'm glad you're not moody in class le
it'll at least bring a smile on my face
knowing that you're happy and eating and safe
seeing you happy and all just make me happy
i dont wanna see you sad le okay
dont so emotional le
dont think too much too
cause you know how much i love you
i've already promised not to leave you already
and i'll keep my word
my goodness baby
i miss you like crazy
i love you!!!
i love you earthloads!
hahas!

i love my caramel honey sugary lollipop chocalate BABY-LICIOUS!
hehes

MWAHS

-mICH09
loves

baby.
you have done enough for me.
i know you are trying hard.
im s0rry.
im feeling loved and secure already kaes.
s0rry bout the letter.
hais.
i didnt do anyting much for you..
the past is the past.
even nowadays i keep tinking bout the past.
but so what.
cause i love you now.
love you and only you.
i miss you alot.
i wan you here with me.
these few days have been spending time with you.
im happy already.
even its for one min im oso glad.
cause at least i get to catch a glimpse of you.
there's alot of ways to show that you love me.
dun everytime wait and wait for me.
cause you end up sleeping very very late.
i dun like it.
if its a friday night or sat night den neverminds.
but not on a school day.
im oso tryin my best to secure your heart.
and make you feel love.
i will try all my best kaes.
the day i will stop loving you ish the day you can count the raindrops.
i love you alot alot.
i wun moody in class okaes.
i miss you alot.
miss you till wan go crazy le.
dun leave me.
cause i promise not to leave you no matter what.
baby.
i love you.
i miss you. (:

I LOVE MY BABY! (:
WHEEEEE~

-pearlyn.15
-010606.love you alot. <3

baby
i'm sorry too
not doing enough
i'm easily contented
right now
i already feel loved and secured
you?
if you still dont please tell me
how come when i read your letter
it seems like your feeling are fading
hmmmm
i dunno
i wanna live with youtoo
like swan said
we have to make sacrifices
i know you did for me
like knowing your parents will kill you
you'll still find time to accompany me
i'm already contented
my confidence was gone too
knowiung that you loved her so much
and have done so much for her
the past is the past for me
i dont wanna look into it again
i admit i did loved her
but right now
i know i only love you and only you
i'm being very clear to you already
my love for you is just so simple
i love you beacuse i just love you so
i wanna be there for you too
but you didnt allow me to do so
cause you chose not to talk to me
i dont mind going down nearly everyday to look for you
even if itsd for awhile
so that i could secure you
and tell you i love you everyday
i wanted to run away
cause i sriously cant take it already
i was so tempted.. so tempted
my family is driving me nuts everyday
i'm getting so tensed up at home
one word coming out from their mouth and i feel like slapping them
sigh
whats wrong with me?
i dont mind waitng for your phone calls every night
even if you fall asleep
i'm not angry with you
its just a lil something i could do to show you i love you alot
and i'll do anything just for you
and to try to secure your heart
i'm trying my best
i meant every word i've said
i really love you alot
how deep is it?
deeper than the deepest ocean
the day that i'll stop loving you is the day
when the sky drops down on us
even if it does,
i'll still love you
cause its already so so so deep
that i just cant describe
i cant evern get a strand of hair out of it

baby
i love you
i'm missing you like crazy

i dont want you to be so moody in class already
i know you miss me until wanna die le
but i want you to be happy everyday
cause you should know that i'm missing you like how you are
and i i'm loving you like how you are
and look forward happilly to the day i'm meeting you happily
and you shld be happy
i dont wanna see you like that le
it hurts alot
smile okay baby

i'll not leave you
i promise


i bet you're fast alseep now
but i'll still wait
just in case you wake up all the sudden
but i'll still sleep
but not fall so deep into my sleep


ILOVEYOUBABY
MICHELELOVESPEARLYN
PEARLYNLOVESMICHELE

baby.
im s0rries for everyting that happen
maybe the problem is jus me.
i dunno whether im alright or not.
but i can assure tat i really love you.
its not as if i wanna lose you.
i cant live without your love.
i have alot of tings to say.
but suddenly everyting jus pause there
cause im jus suddenly at a lost of words.
you ask how den i will feel secure and love.
i oso want to know the answer.
im s0rries.
i didnt know that you are trying your best to do all these tings.
i tink its me who ish nort trying.
i know i keep tinking bout the past recently.
but its jus memories.
i wun suddenly have a change of heart.
i know i like that say.
you will say that you oso wun have a change of heart.
reading your past entries oso make me feel so insecure.
i didnt know that you love her so much.
you say you losing that confidence in you.
my confidence is gone over a second.
i jus love you to much to let you go.
i say i was tired and a lot of times i wanted to jus give up.
hais.
i dunno.
baby,
im s0rries.
if i really really bear to give the whole ting up
i will have done that long time ago.
you say that you want know what im tinking and feeling
but you?
did you clear your feelings with me?
the letter..
hais.
i rather you tell me face to face.
i was happy after reading the letter.
but after all its a letter.

please dun break down.
if you were to break down.
den what am i to do.
i still need you to pamper me.

you dun have to tell me whether you cry or not.
cause i know that you cried.
i was waiting for you tell me.
i know you cry cause of your family tingy.
im s0rries for not being tere for you now.
but who is tere for me?hais.
really really s0rries for everyting.

i broke down ytd.
alot of tings are happening around me.
im trying to take it as nothing happened at all.
in my mind is all about you.

you say you wanna run away from everyting.
i rather you face it den to run.
baby,
dun worry already.
i can assure you that i really love you.
please control your temper can.
im crying now as i type.
i dunno what's wrong with me
im toking to you on the fone now.
i try to act normal but i cant.
im s0rries to make you wait for my fone call.
you slept at 6am.
means you sleep only for like half an hr like that.
hais.

baby,
i really love you.
i miss you like crazy too.
but i dunno whard's wrong with me now.
not in the right state of mind.

-pearlyn

haii
baby
tell me you're okay

i dont wanna lose you
you mean so much to me
can you just tell me whats wrong?
what can i do to make you feel loved?
what can i do to secure your heart?
i really dont know what to do.
aint i trying my best doing it already?
that thing have been affecting us alot
you're afraid that i'll be like her
i'm afraid you'll be like her
what if you cant put down the past just like her?
you've been thinking abt the past alot recently
even readin abt your past entries
it makes me so insecure
i'm losing that confidence in me
i really really love you alot
you're leaving me so lost and confused
with so many random thoughts in my mind
you tell me you're tired not meeting me
and you wanna give up
it scares me
what if because of that you wanna give this whole thing up?
so many thought running through my head now
baby...
i really need you to be very clear with me now
to let me know what you're thinking
what you're feeling
i really need to know
i seriously need to know
i'm missing you like crazy already
i thought the letter would help
but i dont think it did

i'm abt to break down
i really am

i cried this afternoon
i didnt tell you
cause i didnt wanna let you see me cry
but i really wanted to hug you
but swan was there
sad enough
i dont wanna make you more worry
the reason i cried was because
i dont wanna live in this family anymore
i cant take it
i hate them
i seriously do
i wanna leave this place
what am i to them?
their maid?
and my sis is the royal princess
fuck it
i cant take this fucking bianess treatment from my family anymore
i've been controlling for the past 15 years
i'm seriously going to explode
i really need you now
where are you?

everything is not right
i'm feeling all stressed up
my nervor system is going to break down
in fact it already did
friends are sad
suidal and all
and i'm feeling so helpless
feeling so worried for them too
and darius is so sick
and i'm the only one who knows how bad his health is
i'm so worried something happens to him
what if today might be the last time i'm seeing him
haiiiii
family...
dont wanna talk abt it
i just wanna run away from this fucked up family
and so much more
today is just not a good day for me

god
please save me

i just wanna run away from everything now
i cant take it already

baby is helping me do my chinese
hahas
bleh
she volunteered herself!!!
hahas
so sweet of you
hahas

you're still sick.
please take care of yourself okay
or not i'm gg to buy a few dozens of liang teh for you
hahs
must take care of yourself
dont let me worry so much
as i cant be there to take care of you now

you better dont so hiong in sch le
rmb what you promise me okay
if you break it
i will be very angry
i dont want you to get into trouble
or get hurt

baby
i love you so much
i'm missing you like crazy
i wanna be in your arms really soon
i wanna pinch your nose
you showed me what true love really is
you showed me the feeling of being so loved by someone you truly love
rest assure
that i love you and only you
you're the only one i think of all the time
my world revolves around you
i'm so addicted to you
no matter what happens
lets be strong and overcome it all
let our love show everything
i dedicate my all to you
you are my everything
i cant leave without you
you are the reason for the smile on my face
you are the reason why i'm still living
i will stand by you
will you too?
the words you said just touched my heart
even if everyone turns their backs on you
even if the world falls down on you
i'll still be there at the end with you
i'm going head over heels over you
you make me go crazy
you are my sugar rush
my love for you is carved and planted in my heart
it will nvr stop growing
even after the day i die
my love for you will still grow
you make my world alright
so dont leave me
or everything will all be bad
cause i really love you with all my heart!

blog blog blog
i'm like going crazy here
cause i'm talking to baby
and that makes me happy!
wheeee

i miss you baby!!!

went kbox with darius and bj
two sad ppl
make it 3
bj was sad
i miss baby terribly
darius i dunno
hahas

i'm home chionging my homework
baby i miss you like crazy!
i wanna see you now!!!
omg!!!
you know my chinese class have air con!
so shiok!!!
i fell asleep until so soundly
unitl baby msg me and scare me
hahas
i have a ugly tan!!
PEARLYN TAN!!~~~
hahass
i'm hungry!!!
bleh
i have no sch on thurs and mon
but still have that stupid e learning
baby can i either go your sch
or you come my sch

my stupid mother so unfair!!
hrmph!!
now love pearlyn more than me lor
*3 claps!!
hahas
oh no
i;m getting influence
hahas

baby i wanna see you now!!
i keep thinking abt you the whole day
you're always on my mind
i love you honey bun
so.....
your my baby-licious
i'm your????
you still haven tell me lor
hahas

i dread gg to sch
argh!!!
can i meet you tml???
my god!

I MISS YOU!!
:(

here to blog then wait for baby to come online
then hit the sheets
hahas

ytd was fuun fun fun!!!
met baby at 10.15
then went down to amk to meet swan
i was eating in the bus
thanks baby for the sandwhiches you made
hahas
as usual she was late
then waited for sam also
then they ate
then we headed down to the ZOO!!!
hahas
we walked and walked
hahas
so fun lah
so many animals
i got shocked by the iguana
thanksarh
hahas
i was talking alot of nonsense
hahas
baby and swan played like small lil kids
me and sam like the mother like that
hahas
we left the zoo when the zoo is closing
we walked for five hours
our legs were dying
then we headed down to the esplanade
ate at the gluttons bay
hahas
then went to walk walk
then i walked with sam and talked alot
hahas
then the two went missing
then we couldnt be bothered
caause they were too short for us to spot
hahas
then we went to the expressway there
hopefully they could spot us
hahas
had a surprise there
hahas
baby was hugging me from the back
keep asking me to look infront
hahas
then she gave me a bouquet of flowers!
*touched*
hhas -beams for joy-
hahas
then me sam swan and baby talked
i talked to swan
baby talked to sam
to solve some things
we talk until drift away from the topic lah
damn funny
hahas
then baby talked to swan
i talked to sam
drift away again
hahas
then finally swan talk to sam and
me and baby
were playing?
hahas
baby was like entertaining the whjole world
hahas
silly baby
we talked until 11 plus lah
then we headed home
dday came to fetch me and baby
so happy you stayed over
hahsa
i told baby this
you know why i love you so much
cause you are silly retarded and cute!
hahas
lalalalalas

baby
you make my day
hahas
if we were to stay tgt we will nvr wake up
hahas
you have to take proper care okay
now you so heaty
i heart pain okay
tml you better not be late

short and sweet

i love you honey bun
i miss you like crazy!!
MWAHS!

baby!!
happy one month!
hahas
i love you!!!

you make me smile
you make me the happiest
you make me so in love with you
you make me think abt you every sec
you make me love you more and more
you make me wanna spend my life with you
you make me wanna see you every second
you make me miss you like crazy
you make me ....
aww... i just love you!!! =)))

i love it
when our eyes meet
when we touch
when we hold each other
when you say you love me
when our hearts beat
when i hear your voice
when i see you
when you act retarded..silly baby
it all just show me how much i love you
and how much you love me
it shows me that you're the one for me
it shows me that i cant live without you
it shows me you're everything for me
it shows me i simply love you!!

i live my life for you baby
hehes

i love you
i miss you
happy one month
MWAHS MWAHS

MICHELE AND PEARLYN

ONE MONTH AND STILL COUNTING!!!

baby
its not your fault
there no need for a sorry
i dont know where you now
you were suppose to call me after you bathe
all you alright
you're either slping or balling
tell me you're alright
you're really sick now baby
i really wanna be there now to take care of you
i can go but nvm..
i'll see you tml then

rest assure that
i really love you
i miss you like crazy.

i'm abt to stab my mum really soon
she such a fucktard
i so wish that she should just go and die
my goodness
ARGH!!!she's irritating the shit out of me
i'm already fucking sick and still ask me to do this do that
fuck you lah!
you think i your maid is it?!?!
what kind of fucking mother are you
come home and just lie on the bed
use com and treat yourself like some royal queen!
wake up lah!!
ARGH!!! ARGH!!!!!

anyway met baby ytd
i was freaking happy
but i was sick but i still went down to pasir ris and look for her
hahas
i just lied on her shoulders ytd night at the playground
and looked into the sky
i so wished that the time could just stop
baby i dont want you to cry le okay
it hurts me to see you cry
i just didnt know wat to do ytd but to hold you tight
siggh
i love you baby

tell me you really love me would you
tell me i'll really see you soon
i'm feeling so afraid inside like a lil girl
tell me everything is alright
sigh

woke up in the afternoon then puked
so i didnt see my phone yet
maybe you;re angry with me now
at first i didnt wanna tell you i puked
cause i didnt wanna let you worry
im so sorry baby
sigh

you asked me what if you went missing
what will i do
i dunno
maybe i'll be like swan
my mind will just run wild
why ask me that?
its scaring me
it really is
sigh...

i'm feelin so lost now
you're acting so weird
pouts
i dunno
i'm so damn afraid to lose you
i really need you now
hearing your blog song
is really making me tear
baby
call me real soon please
sigh..

baby
tell me you're alright
tell me you ment everyword you said
tell me i'm not thinking too much
i cant sleep when i know you're like that
tell me you love me
i so wish you could pop out infront of me tml when i wake up
i so wish u are here with me now telling me everything is alright
i'm having random thoughts like
what if you leave me
what if you were unsure abt everything and made a mistake
what if...
what if...
what if...
sigh...
nvm.
nights people
going to take myt med now and try to slp..................

stupid baby is sleeping now
hahas
go one sch
go until so tired
wat you do huh?!?!

not going sch tml also
still sick
got two days mc from doctor
throat infection until very jia lat
hahas
i'm so bored now
baby. i miss you
another 4 more days!
:(
pouts pouts pouts
miss you unitil wanna die le lah
quick wake up and talk to me
i miss you like crazy lah
i wanna see you now.
i want you now!
i need you now!
:(

baby
i miss you

woke up this morning and puked on y floor
opps
hahas
then slept until 4 plus till baby called me
i was having high fever that it can burn my brains
hahs
ate panadol then went to slp
and now i'm feeling better
still have fever but not that high

i so wish you could be here with me now
i really miss you alot
i will love you and only you
love me and only me
i only have you in my heart
i miss you so damn much
i'm so not used to it without you by my side
even when i arrange my bed,
i arranged it like how you always arranged it when you stay over
i miss your gentle touch
i miss looking into your eye
and telling you i love you
i just miss you so freaking much
when sch reopen you must take care of yourself
you cannot fall sick okay
must eat all your three eals and drink water
baby
i love you alot!
we will not drift apart okay
my love for you is so real
that it will not change
not seeing you will ake me iss you more
and infact love you more
i really cant lose you
life will be so meaningless without you
you made my life right again
i love you too much to evern let you go
you're the only one that i adore
can we make this last forever
i was not prepared to fall so deep in love until i met you
omfg
i love you!!!

fuck you!
watch your Lword until dont wanna care abt me
hrmph!
fuck you fuck you fuck you

baby stayed at my place on mon,wed,thurs,fri
so happy lah
wheee......
i love you baby
22nd was a blast!
hahas
my god
the most exicted ppl were swan me and baby
we clebrated jade and lyds bade
hahas
they were very surprised
hahas
i was drunk
but not that drunk
i still know wat i was doing
i just cant walk properly
hahas
i fell down in the toilet
then my ankle bleed
how dumb
stupid baby make me drunk
she keep giving me drink
knowing that al my hard liqour are like freaking freaking old
she make it so strong for me
ask her for green tea she give me alcohol
idiot
then she keep staring at me drink
make me pressurise
then i drink all in one shot
i drank very fast
no wonder i was drunk
hahas
swan made sam drunk too
hahas
we all slept at abt 7 plus in the morning
woke up in the afternoon
then went to meet lyd at j8
hhahas
then went home
met benji for supper with nigel and benjis cousin
then went home
and baby and me drank somemore
hahas
baby went back at abt 6 plus
:(
i miss you so badly
and i cant see you till sat
pouts
was thinking one of the sch days go down look for you for dinner
but you cant
so nvm lor
have to wait till sat
we're either going zoo or sentosa or beach
hahas
let swan and baby decide
hahas
i'm so looking forward to sat
i miss you!!!

baby
the warmth of your touch;
the feeling of your body near mine;
your hands in mine;
staring at each other in the eyes;
knowing that you love me;
just makes everything feels so good
we're now a step closer:))
i wanna spend my life with you
baby
you cannot stone in sch okay
must concentrate
must try
i wanna do my o level with you
we shall work hard tgt okay
or else i cant do my Os wtih you
when sch starts,
let it be a test to out relationship
and see whether it will be strong enough
since we're not meeting till weekends
omg
baby i fucking love you
each time i stare into your eyes
i know this is real
i want to say i love you
i feel so lucky
i miss you baby
i love you and i wont leave you
tell me you wont tooo
i love you

fuckyou
hehheh

baby
wats wrong
don't doubt my love for you
its real
the reason why i've been moodswinging alot
cause for the whole hols
i havent been sleeping properly
i'm lack of sleep
i'm falling sick
my body is breaking down
my family is killing me
i still have frienship probs i dunno how to solve
i feel so stress that i wanna break down already
schs going to start
i'm not going to meet you until weekends
cause you are busy
pouts
i feel like the worse gf you can ever have
my hearts justs breaks when i reas your blog
i dunno wat to do
i just feel like hugging you so tight and say i;m sorry for treating you like that
sigh....
mich wats wrong with you
sobsssss......
pouts pouts pouts
you're asking me to secure your heart
then whose going to secure mine?
i do feel insecure do you know
i'm crying inside me but i just dont wanna show it
i need you like how you need me
i do care for you
its maybe i'm that expressive
but when you told me you're falling sick ytd
i kinda ignore you and asked you to slp
but inside i was panicking wat to do
i suck lah
i'm the worse gf
you're right
i'm just freaking tired and i needed slp
as you know that today will be a very busy day
i'm just terribly sorry
i'm trying my best to control myself already
how am i going to let you down if i'm so in love with you already?
you say i screamed at you "wat"
i really didnt know i said it
sorry
i didnt mean to say it
i'm so afraid now
when you say you cant feel anything now
wat if i lose you?
tears are rolling down as i type
i dont wanna cry infront of you
i know now you;re feeling very sad and lost
someone help me
tell me wat to do
i really love you alot
haiiii......
baby
you;re not the only one feeling this way too
i'm feeling it too
i saw things that i dont wanna see in your phone
it got me thinking the whole day
have you put down all your past?
i dont think so
you still haven put it down
from wat i know
nvm...

there'll be a party tml
shall enjoy myself
bye


ijustloveyoutoomuchtoevenletyougo
ineedyoutounderstandme
ireallycantloseyou
imeansitwhenibloggeddownthesongnoordinarylove
itsayshowimfeeling
iloveyoubaby...

oh my
i'm so freaking tired
from cleaning up my whole house
that stupid baby suppose to help me packe the house
she ended up sitting in the hall with swan and not helping me at all
how dare she!
i'm, going to kick you out of my house!
hahas!
my lanvin perfume is like used more by that pig lah
she machum use that one and bath like that
asshole!
hahas
actually she's just behind me!
hahas!!!
hurry go bathe!!!!!
we have to go queensway then go town then go newton
so busy
tml morning i'm going to have my BREAKFAST!!!
you better cook tml
tml i'm going to be real busy!!!
morning wake up have to go grocery shopping then come home have to cook
then still have to prepare for so many things
hahas
so many things are going to happen tml
so excited
hahas!!!
yeahness!!!!
i'm exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you stupid fat pig!!!
you are so fucking dead!!!!!!!

okay stop complaining!!!
i love you lah!!!

oh my i have a big blue black on my arm
thanks to the fat pig
hahas
where shall i start blogging
oh my
i cant wait for the 22nd
its going to be damn damn damn happening lah
hahas!
so excited
hope baby would be able to make it
i'm going to be so busy starting from tml
schs going to start
pouts
ytd
we went to downtown east with swan and sam
at like 10.30 like that
cause baby and swan wanted to play bball
hahas
they hppily play until no last bus or last train
so smart huh
tell them going to no more transport they sill stone and play
then we decided to get a cab
then we went to cheers
got drinks then took a cab
hhas
baby stayed over cause she wanted to accompany me
hahas
so sway my sis frens were there too
so me and baby had to sleep in the hall
it was FREZZING!
morning that stupid baby keep trying to wake me up
then i woke up and walked to my moms room
supose to call swan but i fell asleep
until baby msg me to wake up i also cant feel anything
hahas
then went to meet swan
oh yes, swan,jade and lyd gave me a beautiful shock this morning
spoil my beauty sleep
hahas
swan called and said cherish in hospitali was like HUH!?!?!
then baby got a shock cause she was happily using the com
and iw as sleeping then i all the sudden scream
hahas
ebd up cherish only got fever
she better get well really soon!
i dunno wat to blog le
so bye bye!
hahas
i miss you

baby
right now i dunno how i'm feeling
afraid?
maybe
i'm afraid because of my moodswings now i'll lose everything
we're both so sensitive
how can i give you a smile when i kniw you're not okay?
its hard
i've already fallen for you so deeply already
you're a part of my life now
i cant lose you
yes,i'll love you till the rnd of time
i'm ready to live my life with you
i;m sorry for the attitude
but as you've said
which gf wont be jealous and all
because of the jealousy i have i'm like that
i didnt show it last time even when i was jealous
because i think i was just being paranoid
now its because i've tahan for very long
thats why i've been showing it
if maybe you were in my shoes you will know how i'm feeling
i dont wanna be a bitch and control things
thats why i chose not to voive it out
i'm really happy to find someone like you
you lifted me up
sighs...
i just love you

whenwillallthisbeover?

"No Ordinary Love"

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words, it's all been said in the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here [Chorus:]

cause
This is not your ordinary
no ordinary love
I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
no ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again with your extraordinary love

[Chorus]
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes sometimes the magic is hard to believe
but you're here before my weary eyes
you brought joy to my world
set me so free I want you to understand you are every breath that I breathe

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can't we make this last forever
This can't be a dream cause it feels so good to me



"Never A Day Goes By"
Even though we're heart to heart
I know you wonder when we part
Do I start to lose my desire for you
Will tomorrow be like tonight
Will I always treat you right
Will our love go on forever
Well...

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time that I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind
Never

I see the doubt there in your eyes
You wonder if I realize
There'll come a time when I'll be tired of you
You say attraction's temporary
This passion, momentary
And that won't keep us together
Well, baby...

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time that I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
It's the purest affection could ever be
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind
On my mind

Every day and every night that comes
I want to be in your arms'
Cause what I say is true
This love is for you
All for you
I want this love to go on forever

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time when I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
It's the purest affection could ever be
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind

baby, i chose this two songs to express how i feel
i just want you to know that i love you
i dont want you to be thinking that you;re not the one for me and all
cause each time you say it, it hurts
cause i felt like the most horrible gf to be letting you feel this way
my heart just shatter cause i'm afraid because of this
i might lose you
and i dont want to cause i love you
and thats all that matters
i miss you :/