baby.
take care of yourself okaes.
IM DEAD ALREADY.

-pearlyn

i walked home alone
crying to myself
whats wrong with me?
i dunno
cause i just cant lose you
you're the only one i desire and love
i miss you

baby
i seriously need to know whats wrong
dont tell me you dont know
theres got to be a reason
i dont care if it hurts me or what
i just need to know
come clean with me please
i dont wanna end up doing it the hard way
you dont wish too right
seeing you like that hurts me alot
i wish everything will be alright
i want us to
be strong like the trees
staying strong in rain, storm
i wanna pull through it together with you
rmb out lil test?
do you wanna fail it or pass it?
i wanna pass it for sure
i know this test is very hard
but yea
love will show everything
i gave my heart to you
i'm giving you my hand to hold
and see whether you wanna hold it now
and walk through this storm tgt hand in hand
dont feel insecure and all already
i'm loving you with all my heart
i just wanna see you be yourself
whatever you're not happy with say
be clear with me
i dont want you to hide anything from me
like how i'm not hiding anything from you
i dont want you to do stupid things already
you know i'll get angry right
and my heart is bleeding now
it just hurts to see you sad nearly everyday
it shows me that i have failed my duty as a gf
just by not making the one i love happy
have some confidence in yourself would you
and have faith in me
dont compare yourself with others
foy you're the only one i love
love cant be compared
sometimes i wished you were in my shoes and i was in your
so that i know what you;re thinkin
love isnt fair
love isnt abt comparing
i've nvr did compare you with her
so stop comparing please
i wanna prove my love for you
could you prove your love for me too
and stop saying abt death
what if something happens to you?
whats going to happen to me
dont be so irresponsible and leave me all alone
i know i'm selfish
i'm sorry
but i'm like that
i've stop all my paranoid and sensitive stuff
would you stop it too
maybe now is karma
in the strating of the r/s i was like that
and now you're like that
i've gotta accept my fate
fate fate fate
my life is all planned out for me
i just wanna be with you baby
you make me happy
you make me smile
you make go crazily in love with you
you make my life so meaningful now
you make my heart beating for you
you make me so addicted to you
you make me smiling knowing that i'll still be with you everyday of my life
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
baby
cheer up alright
bye darling
love you
miss you

i miss you :(
do you?
i cant wait to see you tml

swan
please be alright okay
we're all here for you
now you're all broken and all
and i have confidence in you that you'll pick yourself up once again
take care

hmmm
i hope the lil note i wrote for you
did help a lil
baby what can i do for you?

jade
a true friend indeed
i'll miss you if you go
but you have to study really really hard to stay
i love you jade!

baby
you gave me this love that cant be replaced
its so irristable and addictive
i love you baby
i was so touched today
you showed me how much you cared
and you were there for me when i cried
and just a lil hug from you is so good
you told me even if jade left you'll still be here
baby
and now i'm goin got tell you this
if everyone were to turn thier backs at you
i'll still be there with you all the way
supporting,caring and loving you
i just want you to be happy okay
i love you baby
i miss you
hehes
*BIG FAT WET KISSES*

went all the way to amk to get something for baby
but dont have
so have to go all the way to CLEMENTI
so far lor
haiyoyo
pouts
i'm so damn tired lah
falling asleep in class and all

haiii
i'm getting paranoid
i dunno why
maybe i'm just afraid of losing the one i love
how come it feels like your feeelings are fadding
stop the thinking
pouts pouts pouts

schools not fun at all
haii
but what to do
still have to go
argh!!!!

off i go!

honey stars makes me high!!
hahas

i know your eyes in the morning sun.
i feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
and the moment that you wander far away from me
i wanna feel you in my arms again.
and you come to me on a summer breeze
keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
and its me you need to show.
how deep is your love.
i really need to learnn cause we are living in a world of fools.
breaking us down
when they all should let us be
we belong to you and me.
i believe in you.
you know the door to my very soul
you are the light in my deepest darkest hour
you are my saviour when i fall
and you may not think
i care for you when you know down inside
that i really do care.
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE.
this is familiar to you right.lols.
cus tis is the song lyrics.hahas. (:
nice song lorhs.
anyway.
baby.
i dun know how to live without your love.
you are the only thing within my heart.
i love you alot.
i miss you loads.
how i wish we are staying together now.
den i no need so miserable le.
baby.
i need you now.
i wanna hold you tight in my arms now.
loves.

-pearlyn.15
-010606 ; loads of love.

baby
i'm glad that you feel loved and secured
meeting you is just so great
hahas
oh no
i'm pampering you so much lah
how?
hahas
then who pamper me huh?
its okay that you think about the past
i mean who dont
unless they have concasion right
so i'm fine with it
at least i know you love me!
hahas
you better do
hahas
we'll try our very best together
and make everything work well tgt
lets walk thrugh this path hand in hand
through good and bad
and never let go
:)))
i'm glad you're not moody in class le
it'll at least bring a smile on my face
knowing that you're happy and eating and safe
seeing you happy and all just make me happy
i dont wanna see you sad le okay
dont so emotional le
dont think too much too
cause you know how much i love you
i've already promised not to leave you already
and i'll keep my word
my goodness baby
i miss you like crazy
i love you!!!
i love you earthloads!
hahas!

i love my caramel honey sugary lollipop chocalate BABY-LICIOUS!
hehes

MWAHS

-mICH09
loves

baby.
you have done enough for me.
i know you are trying hard.
im s0rry.
im feeling loved and secure already kaes.
s0rry bout the letter.
hais.
i didnt do anyting much for you..
the past is the past.
even nowadays i keep tinking bout the past.
but so what.
cause i love you now.
love you and only you.
i miss you alot.
i wan you here with me.
these few days have been spending time with you.
im happy already.
even its for one min im oso glad.
cause at least i get to catch a glimpse of you.
there's alot of ways to show that you love me.
dun everytime wait and wait for me.
cause you end up sleeping very very late.
i dun like it.
if its a friday night or sat night den neverminds.
but not on a school day.
im oso tryin my best to secure your heart.
and make you feel love.
i will try all my best kaes.
the day i will stop loving you ish the day you can count the raindrops.
i love you alot alot.
i wun moody in class okaes.
i miss you alot.
miss you till wan go crazy le.
dun leave me.
cause i promise not to leave you no matter what.
baby.
i love you.
i miss you. (:

I LOVE MY BABY! (:
WHEEEEE~

-pearlyn.15
-010606.love you alot. <3

baby
i'm sorry too
not doing enough
i'm easily contented
right now
i already feel loved and secured
you?
if you still dont please tell me
how come when i read your letter
it seems like your feeling are fading
hmmmm
i dunno
i wanna live with youtoo
like swan said
we have to make sacrifices
i know you did for me
like knowing your parents will kill you
you'll still find time to accompany me
i'm already contented
my confidence was gone too
knowiung that you loved her so much
and have done so much for her
the past is the past for me
i dont wanna look into it again
i admit i did loved her
but right now
i know i only love you and only you
i'm being very clear to you already
my love for you is just so simple
i love you beacuse i just love you so
i wanna be there for you too
but you didnt allow me to do so
cause you chose not to talk to me
i dont mind going down nearly everyday to look for you
even if itsd for awhile
so that i could secure you
and tell you i love you everyday
i wanted to run away
cause i sriously cant take it already
i was so tempted.. so tempted
my family is driving me nuts everyday
i'm getting so tensed up at home
one word coming out from their mouth and i feel like slapping them
sigh
whats wrong with me?
i dont mind waitng for your phone calls every night
even if you fall asleep
i'm not angry with you
its just a lil something i could do to show you i love you alot
and i'll do anything just for you
and to try to secure your heart
i'm trying my best
i meant every word i've said
i really love you alot
how deep is it?
deeper than the deepest ocean
the day that i'll stop loving you is the day
when the sky drops down on us
even if it does,
i'll still love you
cause its already so so so deep
that i just cant describe
i cant evern get a strand of hair out of it

baby
i love you
i'm missing you like crazy

i dont want you to be so moody in class already
i know you miss me until wanna die le
but i want you to be happy everyday
cause you should know that i'm missing you like how you are
and i i'm loving you like how you are
and look forward happilly to the day i'm meeting you happily
and you shld be happy
i dont wanna see you like that le
it hurts alot
smile okay baby

i'll not leave you
i promise


i bet you're fast alseep now
but i'll still wait
just in case you wake up all the sudden
but i'll still sleep
but not fall so deep into my sleep


ILOVEYOUBABY
MICHELELOVESPEARLYN
PEARLYNLOVESMICHELE

baby.
im s0rries for everyting that happen
maybe the problem is jus me.
i dunno whether im alright or not.
but i can assure tat i really love you.
its not as if i wanna lose you.
i cant live without your love.
i have alot of tings to say.
but suddenly everyting jus pause there
cause im jus suddenly at a lost of words.
you ask how den i will feel secure and love.
i oso want to know the answer.
im s0rries.
i didnt know that you are trying your best to do all these tings.
i tink its me who ish nort trying.
i know i keep tinking bout the past recently.
but its jus memories.
i wun suddenly have a change of heart.
i know i like that say.
you will say that you oso wun have a change of heart.
reading your past entries oso make me feel so insecure.
i didnt know that you love her so much.
you say you losing that confidence in you.
my confidence is gone over a second.
i jus love you to much to let you go.
i say i was tired and a lot of times i wanted to jus give up.
hais.
i dunno.
baby,
im s0rries.
if i really really bear to give the whole ting up
i will have done that long time ago.
you say that you want know what im tinking and feeling
but you?
did you clear your feelings with me?
the letter..
hais.
i rather you tell me face to face.
i was happy after reading the letter.
but after all its a letter.

please dun break down.
if you were to break down.
den what am i to do.
i still need you to pamper me.

you dun have to tell me whether you cry or not.
cause i know that you cried.
i was waiting for you tell me.
i know you cry cause of your family tingy.
im s0rries for not being tere for you now.
but who is tere for me?hais.
really really s0rries for everyting.

i broke down ytd.
alot of tings are happening around me.
im trying to take it as nothing happened at all.
in my mind is all about you.

you say you wanna run away from everyting.
i rather you face it den to run.
baby,
dun worry already.
i can assure you that i really love you.
please control your temper can.
im crying now as i type.
i dunno what's wrong with me
im toking to you on the fone now.
i try to act normal but i cant.
im s0rries to make you wait for my fone call.
you slept at 6am.
means you sleep only for like half an hr like that.
hais.

baby,
i really love you.
i miss you like crazy too.
but i dunno whard's wrong with me now.
not in the right state of mind.

-pearlyn

haii
baby
tell me you're okay

i dont wanna lose you
you mean so much to me
can you just tell me whats wrong?
what can i do to make you feel loved?
what can i do to secure your heart?
i really dont know what to do.
aint i trying my best doing it already?
that thing have been affecting us alot
you're afraid that i'll be like her
i'm afraid you'll be like her
what if you cant put down the past just like her?
you've been thinking abt the past alot recently
even readin abt your past entries
it makes me so insecure
i'm losing that confidence in me
i really really love you alot
you're leaving me so lost and confused
with so many random thoughts in my mind
you tell me you're tired not meeting me
and you wanna give up
it scares me
what if because of that you wanna give this whole thing up?
so many thought running through my head now
baby...
i really need you to be very clear with me now
to let me know what you're thinking
what you're feeling
i really need to know
i seriously need to know
i'm missing you like crazy already
i thought the letter would help
but i dont think it did

i'm abt to break down
i really am

i cried this afternoon
i didnt tell you
cause i didnt wanna let you see me cry
but i really wanted to hug you
but swan was there
sad enough
i dont wanna make you more worry
the reason i cried was because
i dont wanna live in this family anymore
i cant take it
i hate them
i seriously do
i wanna leave this place
what am i to them?
their maid?
and my sis is the royal princess
fuck it
i cant take this fucking bianess treatment from my family anymore
i've been controlling for the past 15 years
i'm seriously going to explode
i really need you now
where are you?

everything is not right
i'm feeling all stressed up
my nervor system is going to break down
in fact it already did
friends are sad
suidal and all
and i'm feeling so helpless
feeling so worried for them too
and darius is so sick
and i'm the only one who knows how bad his health is
i'm so worried something happens to him
what if today might be the last time i'm seeing him
haiiiii
family...
dont wanna talk abt it
i just wanna run away from this fucked up family
and so much more
today is just not a good day for me

god
please save me

i just wanna run away from everything now
i cant take it already

baby is helping me do my chinese
hahas
bleh
she volunteered herself!!!
hahas
so sweet of you
hahas

you're still sick.
please take care of yourself okay
or not i'm gg to buy a few dozens of liang teh for you
hahs
must take care of yourself
dont let me worry so much
as i cant be there to take care of you now

you better dont so hiong in sch le
rmb what you promise me okay
if you break it
i will be very angry
i dont want you to get into trouble
or get hurt

baby
i love you so much
i'm missing you like crazy
i wanna be in your arms really soon
i wanna pinch your nose
you showed me what true love really is
you showed me the feeling of being so loved by someone you truly love
rest assure
that i love you and only you
you're the only one i think of all the time
my world revolves around you
i'm so addicted to you
no matter what happens
lets be strong and overcome it all
let our love show everything
i dedicate my all to you
you are my everything
i cant leave without you
you are the reason for the smile on my face
you are the reason why i'm still living
i will stand by you
will you too?
the words you said just touched my heart
even if everyone turns their backs on you
even if the world falls down on you
i'll still be there at the end with you
i'm going head over heels over you
you make me go crazy
you are my sugar rush
my love for you is carved and planted in my heart
it will nvr stop growing
even after the day i die
my love for you will still grow
you make my world alright
so dont leave me
or everything will all be bad
cause i really love you with all my heart!

blog blog blog
i'm like going crazy here
cause i'm talking to baby
and that makes me happy!
wheeee

i miss you baby!!!

went kbox with darius and bj
two sad ppl
make it 3
bj was sad
i miss baby terribly
darius i dunno
hahas

i'm home chionging my homework
baby i miss you like crazy!
i wanna see you now!!!
omg!!!
you know my chinese class have air con!
so shiok!!!
i fell asleep until so soundly
unitl baby msg me and scare me
hahas
i have a ugly tan!!
PEARLYN TAN!!~~~
hahass
i'm hungry!!!
bleh
i have no sch on thurs and mon
but still have that stupid e learning
baby can i either go your sch
or you come my sch

my stupid mother so unfair!!
hrmph!!
now love pearlyn more than me lor
*3 claps!!
hahas
oh no
i;m getting influence
hahas

baby i wanna see you now!!
i keep thinking abt you the whole day
you're always on my mind
i love you honey bun
so.....
your my baby-licious
i'm your????
you still haven tell me lor
hahas

i dread gg to sch
argh!!!
can i meet you tml???
my god!

I MISS YOU!!
:(

here to blog then wait for baby to come online
then hit the sheets
hahas

ytd was fuun fun fun!!!
met baby at 10.15
then went down to amk to meet swan
i was eating in the bus
thanks baby for the sandwhiches you made
hahas
as usual she was late
then waited for sam also
then they ate
then we headed down to the ZOO!!!
hahas
we walked and walked
hahas
so fun lah
so many animals
i got shocked by the iguana
thanksarh
hahas
i was talking alot of nonsense
hahas
baby and swan played like small lil kids
me and sam like the mother like that
hahas
we left the zoo when the zoo is closing
we walked for five hours
our legs were dying
then we headed down to the esplanade
ate at the gluttons bay
hahas
then went to walk walk
then i walked with sam and talked alot
hahas
then the two went missing
then we couldnt be bothered
caause they were too short for us to spot
hahas
then we went to the expressway there
hopefully they could spot us
hahas
had a surprise there
hahas
baby was hugging me from the back
keep asking me to look infront
hahas
then she gave me a bouquet of flowers!
*touched*
hhas -beams for joy-
hahas
then me sam swan and baby talked
i talked to swan
baby talked to sam
to solve some things
we talk until drift away from the topic lah
damn funny
hahas
then baby talked to swan
i talked to sam
drift away again
hahas
then finally swan talk to sam and
me and baby
were playing?
hahas
baby was like entertaining the whjole world
hahas
silly baby
we talked until 11 plus lah
then we headed home
dday came to fetch me and baby
so happy you stayed over
hahsa
i told baby this
you know why i love you so much
cause you are silly retarded and cute!
hahas
lalalalalas

baby
you make my day
hahas
if we were to stay tgt we will nvr wake up
hahas
you have to take proper care okay
now you so heaty
i heart pain okay
tml you better not be late

short and sweet

i love you honey bun
i miss you like crazy!!
MWAHS!

baby!!
happy one month!
hahas
i love you!!!

you make me smile
you make me the happiest
you make me so in love with you
you make me think abt you every sec
you make me love you more and more
you make me wanna spend my life with you
you make me wanna see you every second
you make me miss you like crazy
you make me ....
aww... i just love you!!! =)))

i love it
when our eyes meet
when we touch
when we hold each other
when you say you love me
when our hearts beat
when i hear your voice
when i see you
when you act retarded..silly baby
it all just show me how much i love you
and how much you love me
it shows me that you're the one for me
it shows me that i cant live without you
it shows me you're everything for me
it shows me i simply love you!!

i live my life for you baby
hehes

i love you
i miss you
happy one month
MWAHS MWAHS

MICHELE AND PEARLYN

ONE MONTH AND STILL COUNTING!!!

baby
its not your fault
there no need for a sorry
i dont know where you now
you were suppose to call me after you bathe
all you alright
you're either slping or balling
tell me you're alright
you're really sick now baby
i really wanna be there now to take care of you
i can go but nvm..
i'll see you tml then

rest assure that
i really love you
i miss you like crazy.

i'm abt to stab my mum really soon
she such a fucktard
i so wish that she should just go and die
my goodness
ARGH!!!she's irritating the shit out of me
i'm already fucking sick and still ask me to do this do that
fuck you lah!
you think i your maid is it?!?!
what kind of fucking mother are you
come home and just lie on the bed
use com and treat yourself like some royal queen!
wake up lah!!
ARGH!!! ARGH!!!!!

anyway met baby ytd
i was freaking happy
but i was sick but i still went down to pasir ris and look for her
hahas
i just lied on her shoulders ytd night at the playground
and looked into the sky
i so wished that the time could just stop
baby i dont want you to cry le okay
it hurts me to see you cry
i just didnt know wat to do ytd but to hold you tight
siggh
i love you baby

tell me you really love me would you
tell me i'll really see you soon
i'm feeling so afraid inside like a lil girl
tell me everything is alright
sigh

woke up in the afternoon then puked
so i didnt see my phone yet
maybe you;re angry with me now
at first i didnt wanna tell you i puked
cause i didnt wanna let you worry
im so sorry baby
sigh

you asked me what if you went missing
what will i do
i dunno
maybe i'll be like swan
my mind will just run wild
why ask me that?
its scaring me
it really is
sigh...

i'm feelin so lost now
you're acting so weird
pouts
i dunno
i'm so damn afraid to lose you
i really need you now
hearing your blog song
is really making me tear
baby
call me real soon please
sigh..

baby
tell me you're alright
tell me you ment everyword you said
tell me i'm not thinking too much
i cant sleep when i know you're like that
tell me you love me
i so wish you could pop out infront of me tml when i wake up
i so wish u are here with me now telling me everything is alright
i'm having random thoughts like
what if you leave me
what if you were unsure abt everything and made a mistake
what if...
what if...
what if...
sigh...
nvm.
nights people
going to take myt med now and try to slp..................

stupid baby is sleeping now
hahas
go one sch
go until so tired
wat you do huh?!?!

not going sch tml also
still sick
got two days mc from doctor
throat infection until very jia lat
hahas
i'm so bored now
baby. i miss you
another 4 more days!
:(
pouts pouts pouts
miss you unitil wanna die le lah
quick wake up and talk to me
i miss you like crazy lah
i wanna see you now.
i want you now!
i need you now!
:(

baby
i miss you

woke up this morning and puked on y floor
opps
hahas
then slept until 4 plus till baby called me
i was having high fever that it can burn my brains
hahs
ate panadol then went to slp
and now i'm feeling better
still have fever but not that high

i so wish you could be here with me now
i really miss you alot
i will love you and only you
love me and only me
i only have you in my heart
i miss you so damn much
i'm so not used to it without you by my side
even when i arrange my bed,
i arranged it like how you always arranged it when you stay over
i miss your gentle touch
i miss looking into your eye
and telling you i love you
i just miss you so freaking much
when sch reopen you must take care of yourself
you cannot fall sick okay
must eat all your three eals and drink water
baby
i love you alot!
we will not drift apart okay
my love for you is so real
that it will not change
not seeing you will ake me iss you more
and infact love you more
i really cant lose you
life will be so meaningless without you
you made my life right again
i love you too much to evern let you go
you're the only one that i adore
can we make this last forever
i was not prepared to fall so deep in love until i met you
omfg
i love you!!!

fuck you!
watch your Lword until dont wanna care abt me
hrmph!
fuck you fuck you fuck you

baby stayed at my place on mon,wed,thurs,fri
so happy lah
wheee......
i love you baby
22nd was a blast!
hahas
my god
the most exicted ppl were swan me and baby
we clebrated jade and lyds bade
hahas
they were very surprised
hahas
i was drunk
but not that drunk
i still know wat i was doing
i just cant walk properly
hahas
i fell down in the toilet
then my ankle bleed
how dumb
stupid baby make me drunk
she keep giving me drink
knowing that al my hard liqour are like freaking freaking old
she make it so strong for me
ask her for green tea she give me alcohol
idiot
then she keep staring at me drink
make me pressurise
then i drink all in one shot
i drank very fast
no wonder i was drunk
hahas
swan made sam drunk too
hahas
we all slept at abt 7 plus in the morning
woke up in the afternoon
then went to meet lyd at j8
hhahas
then went home
met benji for supper with nigel and benjis cousin
then went home
and baby and me drank somemore
hahas
baby went back at abt 6 plus
:(
i miss you so badly
and i cant see you till sat
pouts
was thinking one of the sch days go down look for you for dinner
but you cant
so nvm lor
have to wait till sat
we're either going zoo or sentosa or beach
hahas
let swan and baby decide
hahas
i'm so looking forward to sat
i miss you!!!

baby
the warmth of your touch;
the feeling of your body near mine;
your hands in mine;
staring at each other in the eyes;
knowing that you love me;
just makes everything feels so good
we're now a step closer:))
i wanna spend my life with you
baby
you cannot stone in sch okay
must concentrate
must try
i wanna do my o level with you
we shall work hard tgt okay
or else i cant do my Os wtih you
when sch starts,
let it be a test to out relationship
and see whether it will be strong enough
since we're not meeting till weekends
omg
baby i fucking love you
each time i stare into your eyes
i know this is real
i want to say i love you
i feel so lucky
i miss you baby
i love you and i wont leave you
tell me you wont tooo
i love you

fuckyou
hehheh

baby
wats wrong
don't doubt my love for you
its real
the reason why i've been moodswinging alot
cause for the whole hols
i havent been sleeping properly
i'm lack of sleep
i'm falling sick
my body is breaking down
my family is killing me
i still have frienship probs i dunno how to solve
i feel so stress that i wanna break down already
schs going to start
i'm not going to meet you until weekends
cause you are busy
pouts
i feel like the worse gf you can ever have
my hearts justs breaks when i reas your blog
i dunno wat to do
i just feel like hugging you so tight and say i;m sorry for treating you like that
sigh....
mich wats wrong with you
sobsssss......
pouts pouts pouts
you're asking me to secure your heart
then whose going to secure mine?
i do feel insecure do you know
i'm crying inside me but i just dont wanna show it
i need you like how you need me
i do care for you
its maybe i'm that expressive
but when you told me you're falling sick ytd
i kinda ignore you and asked you to slp
but inside i was panicking wat to do
i suck lah
i'm the worse gf
you're right
i'm just freaking tired and i needed slp
as you know that today will be a very busy day
i'm just terribly sorry
i'm trying my best to control myself already
how am i going to let you down if i'm so in love with you already?
you say i screamed at you "wat"
i really didnt know i said it
sorry
i didnt mean to say it
i'm so afraid now
when you say you cant feel anything now
wat if i lose you?
tears are rolling down as i type
i dont wanna cry infront of you
i know now you;re feeling very sad and lost
someone help me
tell me wat to do
i really love you alot
haiiii......
baby
you;re not the only one feeling this way too
i'm feeling it too
i saw things that i dont wanna see in your phone
it got me thinking the whole day
have you put down all your past?
i dont think so
you still haven put it down
from wat i know
nvm...

there'll be a party tml
shall enjoy myself
bye


ijustloveyoutoomuchtoevenletyougo
ineedyoutounderstandme
ireallycantloseyou
imeansitwhenibloggeddownthesongnoordinarylove
itsayshowimfeeling
iloveyoubaby...

oh my
i'm so freaking tired
from cleaning up my whole house
that stupid baby suppose to help me packe the house
she ended up sitting in the hall with swan and not helping me at all
how dare she!
i'm, going to kick you out of my house!
hahas!
my lanvin perfume is like used more by that pig lah
she machum use that one and bath like that
asshole!
hahas
actually she's just behind me!
hahas!!!
hurry go bathe!!!!!
we have to go queensway then go town then go newton
so busy
tml morning i'm going to have my BREAKFAST!!!
you better cook tml
tml i'm going to be real busy!!!
morning wake up have to go grocery shopping then come home have to cook
then still have to prepare for so many things
hahas
so many things are going to happen tml
so excited
hahas!!!
yeahness!!!!
i'm exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you stupid fat pig!!!
you are so fucking dead!!!!!!!

okay stop complaining!!!
i love you lah!!!

oh my i have a big blue black on my arm
thanks to the fat pig
hahas
where shall i start blogging
oh my
i cant wait for the 22nd
its going to be damn damn damn happening lah
hahas!
so excited
hope baby would be able to make it
i'm going to be so busy starting from tml
schs going to start
pouts
ytd
we went to downtown east with swan and sam
at like 10.30 like that
cause baby and swan wanted to play bball
hahas
they hppily play until no last bus or last train
so smart huh
tell them going to no more transport they sill stone and play
then we decided to get a cab
then we went to cheers
got drinks then took a cab
hhas
baby stayed over cause she wanted to accompany me
hahas
so sway my sis frens were there too
so me and baby had to sleep in the hall
it was FREZZING!
morning that stupid baby keep trying to wake me up
then i woke up and walked to my moms room
supose to call swan but i fell asleep
until baby msg me to wake up i also cant feel anything
hahas
then went to meet swan
oh yes, swan,jade and lyd gave me a beautiful shock this morning
spoil my beauty sleep
hahas
swan called and said cherish in hospitali was like HUH!?!?!
then baby got a shock cause she was happily using the com
and iw as sleeping then i all the sudden scream
hahas
ebd up cherish only got fever
she better get well really soon!
i dunno wat to blog le
so bye bye!
hahas
i miss you

baby
right now i dunno how i'm feeling
afraid?
maybe
i'm afraid because of my moodswings now i'll lose everything
we're both so sensitive
how can i give you a smile when i kniw you're not okay?
its hard
i've already fallen for you so deeply already
you're a part of my life now
i cant lose you
yes,i'll love you till the rnd of time
i'm ready to live my life with you
i;m sorry for the attitude
but as you've said
which gf wont be jealous and all
because of the jealousy i have i'm like that
i didnt show it last time even when i was jealous
because i think i was just being paranoid
now its because i've tahan for very long
thats why i've been showing it
if maybe you were in my shoes you will know how i'm feeling
i dont wanna be a bitch and control things
thats why i chose not to voive it out
i'm really happy to find someone like you
you lifted me up
sighs...
i just love you

whenwillallthisbeover?

"No Ordinary Love"

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words, it's all been said in the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here [Chorus:]

cause
This is not your ordinary
no ordinary love
I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
no ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything right again with your extraordinary love

[Chorus]
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes sometimes the magic is hard to believe
but you're here before my weary eyes
you brought joy to my world
set me so free I want you to understand you are every breath that I breathe

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can't we make this last forever
This can't be a dream cause it feels so good to me



"Never A Day Goes By"
Even though we're heart to heart
I know you wonder when we part
Do I start to lose my desire for you
Will tomorrow be like tonight
Will I always treat you right
Will our love go on forever
Well...

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time that I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind
Never

I see the doubt there in your eyes
You wonder if I realize
There'll come a time when I'll be tired of you
You say attraction's temporary
This passion, momentary
And that won't keep us together
Well, baby...

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time that I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
It's the purest affection could ever be
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind
On my mind

Every day and every night that comes
I want to be in your arms'
Cause what I say is true
This love is for you
All for you
I want this love to go on forever

Never a day goes by
Not a night that I
Could live my life without you
Never a day goes by
There's no time when I
Can ever forget what you mean to me
It's the purest affection could ever be
Never a day goes by
When you're not on my mind

baby, i chose this two songs to express how i feel
i just want you to know that i love you
i dont want you to be thinking that you;re not the one for me and all
cause each time you say it, it hurts
cause i felt like the most horrible gf to be letting you feel this way
my heart just shatter cause i'm afraid because of this
i might lose you
and i dont want to cause i love you
and thats all that matters
i miss you :/

bleeblahbloo
hahas
i'm nuts
hahas
ne ways on sunday baby came over to tp at night
we watched the omen
my god it sucks
haas
then after that we went to meet darius
went to his place and drink
but we had no mood then we went to cook fried rice
according to them it tasted really bad
hahas!
then baby came over to my place
it was abt 4 already
then we talk talk talk until 7 ?
then went to slp
hahas
suppose to wake up at 11 cause we had to meet lyd at 12.3o
but we were late as usaul
hahas
then met lyd at abt 3 plus at cine
hahas
we slacked ard
then we went back to tp
then i decided to sent baby home by bus
hahas
how nice can i get
hahas
then i was freeazing lah
baby was going crazy!!!
hahas!!!!
damn funny lah
hahas
then i fell asleep in the bus
hahas
i was lazy to go home
so i stayed over at her place
hahas
we talked till her sis came home then we fell asleep
hahas
she was suppose to cook breakfast for me
hahas!
but in the end?
hahas
woke up then went to meet lyd swan and cherish at doentown
was suppose to go escape
and i yes i admit i am scared lah
hahas
in the end nvr go but it startrd to rain so thank me
hahas
we were suppose to head down to tm
but in the end landed up in the arcade
baby swan and cherish was playing the bball think like crazy
hahas
we were laughing and laughing
it was damn funny
hahas
then we headed down to tm
suppose to watch movie but in the end we slceked
hahas
then went to toyrus
had so much fun there lah
hahas
then we headed downt o esplande
and my sis joined us
we had dinner at the gluttons bay
hahas
shiok!
hahas
then we went to walk ard marina
hahas
i can conclude that the day was fun fun fun!!!
hahas

me and baby keep having the same random thoughts
we wanna live together
hahas
it would be great
hahas
we're like half staying tgt already
hahas
cause you everytime stay at my house
hahas
i just wanna fall asleep in your arms every morning
i wanna feel the hugs in the morning
and you being an irritant trying to wake me up
hahas
i miss you already!
i'm falling deeper for you
hahas
i love you baby

baby
i;m so thankful i have you now with me
i'm super happy with my life now
my friends ask me how am i
and i can say it easily that same but happier
you really make me smile and laugh from deep within
dont think so much already okays?
i love you and thats final
i know what i am doing
i know that i'm very serious with you
i can even think of staying with you i like 1o days?
i just freaking love you so much baby
you are the reason for everything
i love you
i miss you
i really wanna see you again soon
and hold you longer than before
i dont wanna let you go
i love you!

baby
have confidence in yourself
i'm no longer that materealistic bitch anymore
i dont need you to shower me with gifts an all
all i need is your love only
i dont need other things
seriously lah
so wat if you;re not the kind for me
anything is possible as long as you try
all i need to know that you love me
thats all
every word i say i mean it
i dont want you to compare yourself with my past
so wat if they showered me with gifts and all
in the end wat did i get
i got cheated in a way
you are my one and only
i just wanna grow old with you
i just love you baby
and i mean it
I LOVE YOU
hehes
mwahs!

hmmmm
there are like so many question in me and your head
but i chose to leave it aside
cause i believe that its all plan already
so dont worry okay baby
i wont break my promises to you
right now i just wanna live with you forever
i didnt wanna be with you one reason was because of her
we are all friends you get the point
but in the end i realise so wat
so wat if you are younger than me and all
and people say you;re not the kinda bung for me
i realised it all not impt
the feelings are the ones that are impt
and how we are willing to compromise with each other
thats wats most impt
i need that confidence too
when i know so many people like you
i start losing confidence again
cause its like there are so many people out there better than me
yupps
and baby
you're not dreaming
its all true!
i dont wish for it to be a dream either
i love you for who you are
i may not seem to be a good gf to you and all
but deep down even one cough from you my heart hurts
knowing that you are sick and all
but i just dunno wat to do
makes me feel really useless
baby
i just want you to know that i love you
and its all true
i'm yours and you're mine
you mean the world to me
i just wanna be with you every second in my life
i just wanna stay with you
so i could see you and hear you first every morning
i just wanna wake up everyday and feel you hugging me
i just wanna wake up and see you here with me
i love you baby
and i miss you lots lots lots!!!
you make me go crazy abt you!
mwahs!

helllo people
i;m here to blog blog blog
BLOG!
done
hahas
i'm wasted!
hahahs!

okay lah
i better blog properly before some asshole kill me!
hahas!
go sleep lah stupid asshole!
hahas!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i got my lanvin perfume!
hahas
lalalallalalala
theres something wrg with me recently
getting more and more retarded lah
hahas
and bitchy
hahas
oh my
hahas!
i need my sleep!!!!!!!!
went to meet darius and aj at night
then went back to tp
they werre playing cs and i was having motion sickness lah
hahas
then after that went to darius place to cook his famous fried rice
hahas'
the rice was soggy but ya its still nice cause of some mistake i did
hahas
the martell took very long to take effect on us lah
hahas!
reached home like in the morning
then stayed awake
cause i needed to meet people at ten
if i were to slp then thats it
but i fell asleep at 8'59
i couldnt hear my phone ring at all lah
hahas
sorry lah stupid fat pig
hahas
me and darius was planning our funeral lah
hahas
so if i die just ask him
he would know
hahas
what will happen if i die?
who will cry?
who will be in joy?
hmmmm
so many questions lah
lalalalalal
so darius or any of my friend isf i die before you do
tell me when you all meet me up or down there what happen
hahas!
retards lah


to a very special friend
okay i admit i change
everyone change and all
but if you realie your egoness is getting overboard
you know what i think?
i think that you think that you're the best lah
no offence but ya
ever since D you've changed so much
wheres the friend i used to know
who will have some reality check
wake up lah girl
you say all these things to me all the time
and now its my turn to say all these things to you
i hope you will read it
i just dont wanna lose a friend like you
sigh... nvm..
see you soon...

MICHELE EE IS BLISSFULLY ATTACHED TO PEARLYN TAN!!
to those that were so freaking eager to know who?
we are going to let everyone know
we dont wanna hide it anymore
cause to us wat really matters is that we love each other
we dont wanna care what other people think already

baby i wanna be with you every second of my life
i need you to be by my side
i miss the touch of your hands in mine
i miss the touch of your lips near mine
i miss your endless hugs
i'm already so committed to you
it wasnt wrong to chose you
i'm freaking in love with you now
you were nvr off my mind
i have to wait till another 2 weeks till i can meet you
unless i go down to look for you
1 sec your gone from my side i miss you already
just imagine how much i'm missing you now
without you in my life i would just die
baby.
you're not selfish at all okay
i understand
you're afraid i might go back to her one day and leave you
i promise you here that i'll nvr leave you and go back to her
i'm already yours and your alone
i know what it'll be like if i were to go back
so now i promise you i wont
you are treated so differently from all my gfs and bfs
it shows how much i love you already
when you are gone i just wanna run out and go look for you no matter what
i just love you baby
i miss you loads

i'm here to blog finally
hahas
or else that stupid pig is gonna pester me
hahas
i am guai the whole day today okay
stayed at home the whole day lah
go out also go out with parents only
hahas
my mum just had to wake me up from my beauty slp just to go bugis lah
and she just dragged me out of the house
hahas
dance night ytd was great
besides some unpleasant things that happened
hahas
me swan and lydho ate like gluttons lah
suppose to drink but we ended up gg home
hahas
woke up today and wake baby up
hahas!
for i dunno wat reason
hahas
since she wanna her my voice first when she wakie
so wake her up lah
hahas
your wake up voice damn cute lha
hahas
shld call you more often
hahas
i shall be mean and deprive you of slp
gonna meet a old fren of mine tml for lunch
so exciting!
hahas

i miss you like crazy too
everything is so meaningless without you
you;re my sugar rush
thou we stay very far. but what matters most is that we hold on to our love
i wish i could be in yr arms forever and not let you go
i love you too.i did a right decision by giving up the previous one and gave both of us a chance
i would not want to break your heart too baby
i miss the days when we are just cuddling tgt
i wish i could hold you tight and never let you go too
promise me not to leave me too okays
i really want you here with me now
you gave me the smile on my face
i wanna be the one who take cares of you
i wanna hold your hand till the end of time
i wanna be the one for you
i wanna be your everything
i just love you so
i promis too that i'll always be there for you and not leave you
i wanna see that wide smile on yr face
i wanan see us happy
i wanna see the future with you
i wanna celebrate every birthdays with you
i wanna cerebrate all the special ocasions with you
i wanns watch the sun rise and sun set with you and your arms
i wanna watch the stars with you in your arms
i'm happy as long as i'm with you
i think abt you all the time
even when i'm sleeping
you were nvr once out of my mind
you make me feel wats its like to be really inlove and committed
you make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have you
i'm so in love with you
thou we are only tgt for a few days
i've nvr felt so loved and committed before in just a few days
its like i'm ready to live my life with you forever
and to love you endlessly
my heart melts in the sweet lil things you do and say
my heart skips a beat whenever i see you too
my heart belongs to you already
i realised too how much you mean to me
what would live be without you
i cant live without you too
i love you and only you
you're my everything
you are mine
baby just really promise me not to leave me okay?
baby i love you !

HEE HOR!
hahas
suppose to go to gym this morning
but i was freaking tired
hahas
till jade called and ask me out at 12
i told them i would be slightly late
cause i was freaking tired
end up i only reached city hall by 2 plus
hahsa
went there
met lydho,jade and cherish.cow
waited for that stupid smurf bird swan
hahas
she always take ages to come
hahas
after that went walking ard at raffles city
trying shoes!! my fav!
hahas
so fun lah
then we walked to marina sq for carls junior
along the way me and swan were playing lah
she just happily keep swinging me in circles can
i wear till so glam then do this to me
hahas
and oh man
i was so freaking full lah
oh yea
i concluded that swan look like smurf
cherish look like goofy!
hahas
then we went candy empire
hahas
i finally ate my marshmallow chocolate!
damn shiok lah
and i'm going to munch on my giant caramello koala!
whee!!!!
hahas
tml is dance night!
wat to wear?!?
i dunno which top to wear
i wearing my denim skirt and lyd's guess stilettos
hahas
wat top should i wear with
must dress to impress
hahas
after that might be drinking
hahas
off i go
toodles!

i miss you!

retard me!! look at my eyebags!





i love you peeps!



i love jade



martial artist and retard! hahas

ELLOS!!!
hahas
hmmm
went to novena with jade
cause of jy and swan lah
hahas
you two arh
faints
hahas
neways
after that met jade and her
then went over to look for darius to drink
he was fucking wasted lah
alamak!
hahas
i didnt get to sleep lah thanks to her
deprived me of mu sleep
only managed to catch a few hours
then called jade and wake her up to swim
blah blah blah blah
today was just filled with laughter lah
hahasd
it was fun fun fun
hahas

its so fun distubing you lah
hehes

when i;m with you i see myself
when i;m with you i'm so happy
when i;m with you it seems like everything is alright
when i;m with you it just feels so good
when i;m with you i just wanna pause the time
when i'm with you i just wanna lie in yr arms forever
when i;m with you i just dont wanna let you go
when i'm with you i just wish to stare into your eyes forever
when i;m with you i;m just speechless
cause a picture speaks more than a thousand words
I LOVE YOU BABY!
I MISS YOU!!!!
BLEAHS