LADEEDAM!
hahas
i collected my results today
mr yap was making no sense
he's one stubborn man
told him that my parents wont interferre he just wont listen
he was shock when he heard things from me and my sister abt my family
yes, my family looks perfect
but inside all of us, its broken
theres no more warmth already
all we do at each other its scream at each other
thats why i dont like going home
we cant even have a decent meal together at the same table
it was nvr possible
and its not going to be possible already
sigh.. nvm

after results went to inter mac for breakfast with sis
waited for alice and darius to come
hahas
then we headed down to the gym
yeahness
like finally
i'm going to firm my body
and lose all my fats
hahas!
after gym went to tp
oh my it was damn retarded
my sister was stealing my clam chowder
after that we went to the hub gallery
cause suaku darius and my suaku sister dunno whats in there
hahas
we were playing there
like lil kids deprived of childhood
hahas
we took alot of stupid pictures
with the statues
jumping
in the "lift"
infact everywhere
hahas!!!
we spent nearly an hour there
hahas
we took a stupid video too
hahas!
then went to ntuc and bought HAM!!!
yum yum
hahas
will upload the pictures and video soon
hahas
lalalala

and now i'm home
i;m so bored lah can
i think i should be staying at home
THINK
hahas

i know its hard to have you totally
but i'm satisfied with what i have now
i so wish things will work out
and i wish i could have you totally

clear all my doubts
i'm just thinking too much
i;m just afraid to get hurt again
tell me you;re not playing with me
tell me its real
tell me you really love me
tell me you meant every word you said
tell me the truth though it hurts.
the mich now
is really weak
someone pick me up again
i wanna see myself with full of confidence and strong and all
but the mich i see now has none
-pouts

to jade and dan
i dunno if you two are reading
it seems like we're drifting again
it hurts
i think there are some misunderstanding among all of us
dan i was just irritated with you
like how jade was irritated with you
i didnt know how to put it to you cause i was afraid i'd lose you
maybe to you all i seem like i;m just using you all
but i really treat you two as my best friends
i really wanted the three of us to stick together
like the other time when three of us were close again i was so happy and teared
but when i saw three of us sitting at diff table my heart shatt
thsi shows of much i treasured the both of you
you two really mean alot to me
all the best to your o levels

to chow
you emo cock
hahas
thank god you are or else i think once we argue we will nvr give in to each other
thanks for giving in to me all the time
we're both stubborn
you're always true to me
and i'm thankful for that
you were always there for me when i needed you
you showed me you cared and all
word just cant described how thankful i am to have a friend like you
hahas
thanks chow~!!

to darius!!
hahas
we've been through quite alot hur
hahas
you;ve seen all the sides of me
i've seen all the sides of you
you were there for me when i needed you all the time
you show understanding when i was with lyd
you kept complaining that when i'm with her you are forgotten
i was unreachale to you
but in the end you said as long as i;m happy
i really thank god you undersatnd
but now i realised that i havent really done my part as a friend
casue i zhong se qing you
i promise i'll nvr do that again
i'll balance it
hahas
thanks alot darius!:D

i dunno what i'll become without you guys
i really love you guys alot!
you guys mean alot to me
and i hope our friendship will stay strong
you guys lead me back to the right path
when i go onto the wrong path
thanks alot!


You magnify my happiness
When I am feeling glad;
You help to heal my injured heart
Whenever I am sad.
You’re such a pleasure in my life;
I hope that you can see
How meaningful your friendship is;
You’re a total joy to me.
Thank you, friend, for all the things
That mean so much to me--
For concern and understanding
You give abundantly.
Thanks for listening with your heart;
For cheering me when I'm blue;
For bringing out the best in me;
And just for being you.
Thanks for in-depth conversation
That stimulates my brain;
For silly times we laugh out loud;
For things I can't explain.
For looking past my flaws and faults;
For all the time you spend;
For all the kind things that you do,
Thank you; thank you, friend.

hmm
it seems like we're both moving on
thats good
you found someone you like and i've found someone i like
hopefully us and the one we like will turn out good
hahas
all the best to you and her. my fren and you will always be

tell me its real and you're not lying
dont love me for fun girl
love me for a reason
let the reason be love
.....


went to make my ic today
then went tp to meet chow and calli
i was in shorts and tshirt and flip flops only lah
super unglam can!
i was unprepared to go anywhere
i thought we were just going to stay at tp but!
we went tamp mall
to catch xmen3
it was damn nice lah'
i pity chow sit between me and calli
i was pulling one side of her tshirt
calli was pulling the other side
hahas
after that had to wait for chow to end her guitar lesson
so me and calli was walking ard tm to waste 1 hr
hahas
time was passing so slow...
hahas
after that we went to mac for dinner
my god
we were throwing tissue at each other
hahas
talking so loudly
they were stealing my fries
we were laughing our ass off lah
hahas
today was fun fun fun
hahas
i found out something abt darius!!!
hahas!!!
i've got something to blackmail you with DARIUS WONG!
hahas
i'm goin to get a job lah
my allowance is gonna get cut by half!
so i might as well not go out
and not eat
chow i;m going to kill you!!
bluff me lah!!!
say still got my private msges in yr phone
dont wanna let me delete
make a big hu ha in the bus
so pai seh can
end up now you tell me you lying!!!
asshole
you're gonna get it on monday!!
i make sure the doctor poke wrongly!
hahas

SCREW EVERYTHING LAH!!!
FUCK IT!!!
someone just stab me real hard
stop all the crying for me please
my heart is crying and bleeding
so many false hopes and all
god
let me really be happy
and not fake all the smiles and laughter
PLEASE!!
thats all i'm asking for
what has gotten into me?
i wake up everyday
thinkin that things will be fine
but no.
i'm suffering from ********** once again
i'm left speechless now
bye.

netball carnival was a success!!
yeah!
though cheerleading we didnt win
but it was freaking good!
i'm so proud of myself and 3/10!
you all rocked my day
we came in first in netball
third in overall!
great improvement from last year!
hahas
i'm burnt!
stupid sun!!!!
my body i really gonna break
i tore my thigh muscles
thanks to the stunts
cause miss dawn actually bounced on my back
and i did a split
i was paralysed for abt 3 mins
screaming and crying in pain
but then i still had to carry on
i just have to forget abt all the pain i'm having physically
it was hard but..ya
after that swan they all came my place
oh my seriously stop scandaling!
hahas!
i'm so tired now. yawns

i hate my my family
in fact its not even a family!
my sister is a bitch
my mum always side my sister when she's in the wrong
my dad is useless
my grandma is like my mum
my grandpa is useless too
wat kind of family is this?
wheres the warmth we used to share when i was younger
i dont wish to be in this family anymore
i'm really breaking down
i've been tolerating for the past 15 years of my life
you all just made it worse this few days
i had a argument again with my sis and my mum this morning
FUCK MUM IF YOU WANNA SLAP ME< SLAP LAH!! I HATE YOU!!!!
hit me, abuse me, treat me like a slave
whats more?
nothings gonna change but to hate you guys more!
also nag at me why i'm like this saying i always hang out late and blah blah blah you guys dont even make me feel like goin home!
send me into girls home for all i care
i seriously cant be bothered anymore
SEND!!! I KNOW YOU WILL!!

girl. tell me what i'm feeling is right
cause i dont wanna fall too hard
or maybe tell me what i'm feeling is wrong
cause i'm falling deeper and deeper each time i think of you
why? ARGH! i dunno! i'm lost

tearsarejustflowingasitype
someonestopitforme
itcantstopflowing
imverytiredofeverything
imreallybreakingdownalready
godmaybeitstimetocallmealready?
imfeelingmiserableandall
godsavemeplease

yeahness!!!
how great i'm having fever now
no wonder i'm freezing even theres no aircon
hahas
if i still have fever later i still have to got to sch
no choice
i think my body i breaking down
sigh
everything of me is breaking down
i've been dancing non stop
running up and down
teaching dancesteps
getting injuries over old injuries
aching all over
pulling the whole thing together
its not as easy as you think it is
its horrible
i'm like fucking stressed up lah
thanks to the cheer thing
and my results
I HATE MY SISTER AND MY MOTHER!!!
i had a fight with my sister
she left her stupid teeth mark on my hand
and mum. it was her who started it and you scold me!
BIAS!! I HATE YOU!

theres something wrong with me today
i;m just out of my mind!
if i offended anyone
i'm sorry
i;m pmsing lah

i did something that i regreted lah
i shouldnt have sent that msg
it caused some things to happen b/w you and me
stupid michele!

hmmm. shall blog tml.
i'm really tired
and i have dance from 9-5 plus
how nice
somemore tml actually no sch one
have to go back because of that

goodbye world...

谁还记得是 谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说 要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人 记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说怎么说
都没有救 亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂 两个相爱的人
等对方先说找 分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是 你和我要有 两个相反的梦

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

this were nearly the same things you once told me
its all the past.

i hate it!!!
it always happen over and over again!!!
why?!?!?!?!?!?!
i feel like the everyone is playing with me!!!
screw myself!!!
the things you says
hurts even more
i just wanna hide from reality
i just sleep till i nvr wake up
and carry on dreaming
but fuck it!
it;ll nvr happen
unless i die!!!!!!
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!
ARGH!!!!
should i feel angry or sad?
i'm feeling both?
i feel cheated
screw everything lah!!!
everything is not going the way i want
i studied so hard but failed
friendship probs
family probs
relationship probs!
all these make me lose confidence in everything i do
the michele now is a useless piece of shit
she is stupid, dumb, i can nvr do anything right
she lost the war
she lost all her confidence
she lost herself
she lost everything
when will she ever gain all those back
i dunno
everything is just SCREWED!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

update time!
hmmm.
i'm freaking tired this few days
my mood is changing too
getting easily pissed nowadays
i think i'm falling sick too
oh no
must check blood count
scarly i low again
sians....
post exams activites sucks lah
went to jia ying house and stay
freaking shiok
feel like a princess lah
but the couples were scandaling
leave the singles alone :(
so sad lah. we just fell out of love lah
hahas
neways her room is freaking cold lah. use nearly 3 blankies
still very very very cold
slept abt 12 plus 1
then i thought jy cried
cause she sniffed so loud
woke up ask her what happen
she ignored me
the next morning say i wake up half way message
crazy lah.
dream of her swan until like that
hahas
morning ask her to wake me up at 6 plus
she woke me up at 5 PLUS!!!
its an hour difference
tried to fall back asleep but she was yakking away
stupid asshole
when i finally found the moment to fall back asleep
asked her to wake me up at 6.15
she woke me up at 6.10
its alot of diff you know!!!
hahas
then we were nearly late for sch cause got no cab lah
hahas
after sch went ps with joan,lyd,dan,jy,eleanor.swan
to get some stuff for netball carnival
hahas
then went home and i slept for less than half an hour
had to wake up to do some stuff
went out to meet chow and sheila
then talked rubbish
and came home eat and now blogging
hahas
stupid fat pig only know how to eat and sleep
this is lame but ya,
hahas

What's Taking You So Long Baby
So Many Hours So Many Days
我心里的这句话 还是想对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo
站在寂寞的舞台上灯光下拖着自己的
影子音乐重复我们共同 的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱就可以淡忘
明天没有你
In My Heart We'll Never Be Apart
残留手上的香味提醒我在数位相机里
留下的承诺每一封简讯
传出的思念都对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Yeah Yeah
残留手上的香味提醒我在数位相机里
留下的承诺每一封简讯
传出的思念都对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你每分每秒
每一个声音只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你每分每秒
每一个声音只有你撒娇
会让我微笑Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Oh Baby I Will Love You Because我都属于你 Yeah

hey girl
why you hurt when you read that
tell me what you're thinking too
i wish i could be the one
that could make you smile
i wish i could be the one who be there for you now
but
everything is just too late
its like wats the point now
if you still love me and so do i?
the things you said that night
just made me gave up
you said everything was all too late
i'm so confused in the world of you and me
you just leave me hanging all the time
yes, i know i'm very contradicting
thats because i dont know what you;re thinking abt
you contradict yourself too
just tell me wat you want
and wats exactly on yr mind
you said we needed a break from each an other
okays. i agreed to it
you can do watever you want
so can i
though its hard for me to live without you and be happy
i'm left with no choice
if i would to tell you i love the old lyd
the one i knew
would you change back?
obviously not
cause when you told me you would all the time
nothing happens
call me selfish for i want you but the old one
but you want me to change to yr ideal gf
and i did change for you but you didnt
thats shows that you dont love me as much as before
so many things you do now shows me you dont love me as much as bfore
i feel insecure because you made me feel that way
you know me so well
you shld know i'm sensitive to everything
and yet i still gt blamed
i'm like that by nature
i believe we're meant to be
but we have alot of test in between
you were unable to stand true to me
you realise when you were with me
you can like someone so easily and
poof! there goes our relationship again
all this shows how much you love me
very little or not at all
you leave me so confuse
you can just leave me there by myself crying
you just leave me there all alone
how nice
girl. all i wanna know is what are you exactly thinking abt
tell me everything frankly
i'll listen

finally exams are over
i'm so relaxed noe
oh yes, go catxh mi3
its nice but yr heart will ache seing the lambo getting bomobed!
oh men
hahas
stayed over at mae's place ytd
talked alot
then went ot meet kaevis at suntec
talked more then dawn came
accompanied her
hahas

as i was walking back home
plugged in
i was thinkin abt you
but i just cant remeber how you look
it seems like memories of you
are just fading away so fast
i dont wish that would happen but its happening
accept it
i still think of you
but its fading away day by day
its a good and a bad thing
you take care when i aint by your side too
remember how i always nagged at you
hahas
drink more water
eat proper meals
take care of your ankles
sleep early
dont use the com too much
sick see doctor or learn how to take care of yourself
tired sleep
i was taking care of yr everything lah
so now that i'm not there
you have to do everything for yrself
until someone will take over that place
and make sures she does the nagging and
she better know how to take care of you
this mite be the last time i'm saying this
just take care of yrself
cause you dont know how to take care of yrself properly
seeya soon

"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.

"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.

ytd was fun fun fun
thanks to lyd ho, jade, dan, swan and nick
met dan at j8 there
then went to lyd house because i was a lil sick and tired
they were acting fishy
i knew what they were up too
sure cook one
and i was right
the part i got shocked waS
i only saw nick shoe
then swan poped out in front off me
got bdae huggs from all of them
ahas
then walked to the kitchen
they baked a cake for me
really touched
they went into the room and cried
because... i think they shld know
then swan came in with a ribbon tied on her head
and ask me to untie
she is my present hahas
damn funny lah
people dont get the wrong idea
then went to eat the food they cooked
after that we were playing in the room
then they went over to my place to drink
hahas
swan treated my room like a playgrond lah
keep hanging on my bed
taking stupid photos
taking random videos
my mu made jade go buy cake for me
syprised lah
i love my mum now
hahas
swan was sad
both of us were crying
then when we stood up and looked at each others
retarded face we started laughing lah
so random
ytd i cry still can burp like five time
and say random stupid stuff to dan dan
live dan dan said shout all you want got nobody
then i was got PAP
and iwas crying until so jia lat
still can joke
hahas
went home with dan
talk to her
msg that pig the whole night
talk to lyd ho and swan on the phone
it was all damn nonsence lah
me and dan ony slept at like 5?
hahas
me and her tried to finish all the liquor
not because i;m sad
i;m happy cause its my bdae
and i just feel damn good
hahs

this moring woke up at 9 plus
then went to church with dan and jade
then had lunch then now i'm at home
going to mug soon
hahas
someone can actually fell asleep while studying
not surprie that she can do it anywhere
hahas
i feel like sleeping
ahash

though i'm hurt
and its hard to let go
but i'm happy now
after letting all my anger and unhappiness go
i realised how much i changed for you
and i was no longer the michele i know anymore
i lost all my friends that are so impt to me
i suffered beacause of you
yes you made me smile
we had many good memories
i cant stand this lydia now anymore
i think i'm still in love with the old lydia
that i fell in love with and used to know
the lydia now we all know
changed to someone that somewhat not faithful anymore
changed to someone that people would hate
we all miss the old lyd
and we still love the old lyd
which is so caring, loving,faithful,friendly and so many more good things
i know you dont care
if you;re happy the way you are now
then be that way

whats goes around comes around
what goes down must come down
thats what i beieve in


right now i just need someone
that love me the way i am
and accept all my flaws
and not make me change into someone i dont even know
cause when you fall for someone
you fall for the way she is
if in the relationship
she wants you to change
she just dont love you that much anymore
she just want you to be perfect to her
dont let yourself suffer in silence
its a free world
do whatever you want

i've learnt so much from this reationship
change for the better for myself
and not to somone whom you dont even know

i guess it was a mistake we patch back again and again
knowing that it wld never be the same
i just love the lyd i fell for
hoping you wld change back
but nth happen
and you dunno what you want
you always get sick and tired of things
you cant stick to one person
thats what i see now

all i can say that
this time i'm really happy
i've got all my friends back
and even my life

special thanks for all my friends that supported me and were there for me

complicated family:
sorry got no more father. will find a better one for you all soon'
thanks for being there for me all the time
and you all didnt think i treated you all like a spare tyre
i'm really thankful for making it one of my unforgetable bdae
you all always make my day. :DD

chow:
sorry for not listening to you most of the times
this time we have all the time in the world
and talk abt anything under the sun
we can go out more often
and get close again as really good friends
thanks for being there for me
no matter how much i changed
you will always make me smile in sch :D

benji:
though we are not very close
cause you are her friend
i guess now you became my friend
hahas
you were there for me too
asking me to cheer up and all
i'm thankful to find a new friend like you
hang out really really soon
at lao di fang
hahas
you make my day too :D

the pig that messaged me:
thanks for helping me
making me smile
you were there for me too
you accompanied me the whole nite ytd
through sms
ahahs
thankful i found a new friend like you too
you make my day too.
:D
and to all my other friends out there
thanks alot
i love you people!!!!
mwahs!!!!!

Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
So good, so good, since you've left

Whoa! I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, since you've left

when you've left,i got every part of me back

i feel damn good. so damn good. feeling damn happy. and this time it's true. im not lying

i hate it i hate
how long more must i wait?
nvm...
haiiiiii
i dunno wat to say
yes i'm impatient
i feel like an irritant
kill me someone
i hate everything now
why?
honey when will y ou be okay?
i'm very distracted already
haiii

deep dpwn inside
i'm shaking
michele ee thinks too much
i should use all these time to think of my gf and studies
why am i thinking of useless stuff
god please dig out that part of my brain that keeps thinking like that
i really wanna stop thinking
so that things will really be okay
iloveyouhunnybunny

heylos
i finally get to see baby
she told me the camp end at 12.30
and when its gg 12 she called and said she was on the way to my place
gave me a fright
cause i didnt have time to prepare babys surprise
hahas
cooked fish for baby to eat.

baby is sleeping like a pig now
hahas
its raining and you have to leave soon
:(
dont even know whether we're meeting tml
you might be going out with your friends
i'm gonna study for my ss
you silly girl
eat more lah
see you lose so much weight my heart pain you know
i'm feeling irritated
i dunno why
pms i guess
haii
guess i shall go off now
i dunno wat else to blog abt
hmmm
hahas

haiiii
i'm like super bored can
i'm like waiting for baby to be free
hahas
hope you break camp early
hahs
i have a lil surprise for you tml
haahs
bleah
hahas
i'm super super bored lah
haahs
someone entertain me please
so time could pass faster
hahas
i'm a lil tired but still waiting for baby
hahas
i miss you baby
oh yes
my tagboard is up again
and is my skin nice???
hahas

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

baby.
words cant discribe hpw much i love you
you made me realised so many things
i'm sorry for the past things i've done
this promise i make to you
i'll stop doing it
for you i'll change for the better
i hope you do too
i'm trying to be your perfect gf
i know you are too
but to me as long as your love stands true
its enough
you're already perfect to me
we have so many up and downs
we have alot of arguments
i'm afraid when there is any argument
that we might just end
but everything argument to us is a lil test for the both of us
and we manage to pull thru it
i'm glad
i dunno how long all these is gonna last
but i'm gonna love you like it lasts forever
i hope you would too
baby, i can't stop loving you.
;D
you were the one who taught me how to smile once again
you were the one that brought joy into my life
you were the one that taught me the meaning of true love
you were the one whom changed me
you were the one whom i love

haiiii
i'm like super bored can
i'm like waiting for baby to be free
hahas
hope you break camp early
hahs
i have a lil surprise for you tml
haahs
bleah
hahas
i'm super super bored lah
haahs
someone entertain me please
so time could pass faster
hahas
i'm a lil tired but still waiting for baby
hahas
i miss you baby
oh yes
my tagboard is up again
and is my skin nice???
hahas

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

baby.
words cant discribe hpw much i love you
you made me realised so many things
i'm sorry for the past things i've done
this promise i make to you
i'll stop doing it
for you i'll change for the better
i hope you do too
i'm trying to be your perfect gf
i know you are too
but to me as long as your love stands true
its enough
you're already perfect to me
we have so many up and downs
we have alot of arguments
i'm afraid when there is any argument
that we might just end
but everything argument to us is a lil test for the both of us
and we manage to pull thru it
i'm glad
i dunno how long all these is gonna last
but i'm gonna love you like it lasts forever
i hope you would too
baby, i can't stop loving you.
;D
you were the one who taught me how to smile once again
you were the one that brought joy into my life
you were the one that taught me the meaning of true love
you were the one whom changed me
you were the one whom i love

baby
right now i know you're still angry with me
please forgive me already
i promise you i'll stop it already
i really wish you could cool down
i dont wanna see you like that anymore
i feel very.... i dunno how to say
i'm so afraid all these things will affect us
you said you might never cool off
i hope you will
or i'll be very sad
right now i feel so lost
all i ask is for us to be okay
baby..
please
thats all i'm asking for...
i'm sorry
sigh...

baby
right now i know you're still angry with me
please forgive me already
i promise you i'll stop it already
i really wish you could cool down
i dont wanna see you like that anymore
i feel very.... i dunno how to say
i'm so afraid all these things will affect us
you said you might never cool off
i hope you will
or i'll be very sad
right now i feel so lost
all i ask is for us to be okay
baby..
please
thats all i'm asking for...
i'm sorry
sigh...

maybe i might sound irritating to you now
i only know how to make you angry
i always spoil the day
sigh...
its like we're so happy then like that
i'm trying my best to make you smile
i hate it when you attitude me
like how you hate it when i attitude you
i really just wanna go to her house only with you
theres always another time i could go her place anyway
baby..
don't like that already please
smile :D
i'm really fine with not going
and i'm not lying
cause if i'm lying i'll find excuses
but now you dont wish to talk to me
it hurts :(
sorry if i did anything wrong alright
i can't wait to see you later.

i'm so tired!!!
not enough of sleep lah
had my english paper today
compo was okay
rather amazed with my self
but compre was a horror
i think i dont even have one question right
sucks lah
during compre had stomach ache
tahen umtil end of paper amd flew to take my phone and zoom to the toilet
i lao sai lah can
i visited the toilet three times lah
one durinhg lesson two before lesson
i think its the maths blues
caused after maths i was perfectly fine
and those who were not feeling well
was feeling better after maths
hahas
after that went grocery shopping for FnN
hahas
then went home
tried to defrost the fish but
it didnt defrost in time
so i went straight to town to meet baby
baby is going for camp for 4 days!!!
:(
and i'll be all alone
sians...
then before her camp she got training
lesser time to spend with baby
sians...
anyways
wish me all the best for FnN prac tml
hahas
i think baby is falling asleep on the phone now
hahas
hopes she snores so i can laugh at her tml
hahas
cant wait to see baby tml
hope you would pick me up from sch tml
:D
exams are like next week
better start revising and prove all my teaccher wrong
hahas

baby.
i'm really happy that our relationship is getting stronger
day by day.
i hope this will never stop.
i'll always remember what you told me
iloveyoubaby
:D

hmmms..
baby is complaining that i dont blog
hahas
anyways..
baby went to her gramps house today
and i was at home whole day lah
so boring lah
i cant stay at home for long
cause i keep eatin and eating
i am playing maple??
hahas
yes i am
hahas
i level up for my sister ytd lah
hahsas
my mum is super irritating lah
i rather her work 24/7
she stay at home like a sick patient like that
i must serve her
samn irritating lah
stupid bitch
okays. i shall stop it
oh ya my dad is finally back
after more than a week
hahas
i actually missed him
anyways
ytd i talk to baby at my place
now you finally know why
i think so much
simply cause i'm afraid
cause you lift me to the highest point and drop me to the end
more then two times
obviously i'm afraid
but all these have not stop me from loving you
hehes
my love for you is true
when you hugged me tight
i feel so secure
its the feeling i always wanted
to feel loved and secured in your arms
you've secured me that night
you told me you ren ding is me
and you hope 5 years later its still the same
i hope so too.
iloveyou baby
=D

happy nine months baby!!
i love you
all these months have been tough but still had some good memories
there have been lots of ups and downs.
hope from this months on things will get better.
iloveyou baby.

picked baby up at woodlands
it was raining so heavily
and baby was drenched
hahas
her hair was MARVELLOUS!!!
hahas
then took a train back to tp
bought bread
and corn with mushroom soup
headed back to my place
i cooked the soup while baby did her journal
good boy ar someone
hahas
then rest awhile at my place
then she left at 8
hahas.
going to see you train later
hahas
cant wait to see you tml lah.
hahas.
i miss you baby
and once again happy nine month!!

today slacked at home with my baby.
hahas
it was good friday
i cant eat meat.
and all my cravings atart coming.
i wanna eat ikea meatballs all the sudden
hahas
yupps..
my grandma cokked meat for baby.
so tempting
but i resisted the temptation.
i'm hungry now. hhas

things are rather bad for me and baby now
cause her parents found out and are making a big fuss abt it.
they want us to break up :((
we wont. we will never.
i hope so..
i want you to hold my hand until the very end
we shall walk thru this together
hand in hand.alright?
after this happen it made me realised hpw much i love you
and i couldnt live my life properly without you
we have to take this as a big big test.
and maybe if we pass it.
we are really meant to be?
this test can help build our relationship stronger
and our love too...
hehes
iloveyoubaby.
i cant wait to see you tml.

baby.
i dont want you to think so much already
just remember i'll be there for you
like i always do.
baby cheer up kae.
it hurts to see you like that now.
i dunno how to help you
i feel useless.
just shun qi zi ren okay.
seriously dont think anymore.
cheer up and smile for me okay.
i wanna hear your laughter again.
i wanna hear you sing again
i wanna hear you talk nonsense with me.
i just wanna see you happy again.
iloveyoubaby.
iwillalwaysbethereforyou.

hmmm..
nth much to blog abt but
my heart have been giving me probs.
i have heart burn
and no body seems t obelieve me
except for baby.
thansk.
have been going out as usual.
yupps.
waiting for baby to be alright.
loves.

HELLO!
had band concert today.
i'm so tired everyday lah.
hahas.
one day must sleep the whole day!!
ahahs
during band concert i seriously felt like digging a hole and hide my face
baby,swan and nick was going crazy
screaming and screaming
hahas
pai seh lah
hahas
i'm a lil high now
i'm in a good mood cause of.. hehe
baby of course
hahs

i'm glad you're sure now
hope you really are.
hope things will get better
between the both of us
i'm sorry that i doubted you
but i need assurance
cause i felt a lil insecure
thats why i had doubts.
sorry..
but i really hope you mean everything you said.
you better do
if you dont mean it then dont say it.
sorry abt just now.
but it takes two hand to clap
so we must learn how to understand
learn how to compromise
learn how to assure each other
hehes
i just love you lah.
you silly girl
i love you!!!
and i really miss you alot!
its been in my heart for so long
but i didnt tell you..
i really miss you alot.
and i hate that feeling.
its terrible.
hahas.
just pray that everything gets really better.
:))))
iloveyou baby

ytd was fun fun fun!
its was christines birthday!!
we met up at cine
then we all headed down to marina and eat!!
had lotsa of fun cooking and taking photos!
hahas
damn ridiculous lah
hahas
walked to the bay.
they were taking photos again
and breakdancing.
today was a lil horrid
all my fault lha
i wsa being super paranoid
just thinking too much lah
from then on thinigs werent really good lah
quite cold towards each other lah
thats what i felt.
then saw swan and christine. ate dinner
then crapped and went home.

baby is so busy now lah.
that busy girl.
i have faith but i still need some assurance.
this is damn contradicting.
i cant help but to keep falling for you.
i'm falling deeper and deeper each time.
i fell too much for you that i cant take any pain anymore
cuase it;ll really hurt for sure.
i'm lost with words
but all i can say that is that i love you anf i freaking miss you.

hello earthlinks!
hehes
today didnt go to sports day
then met mae and baby
went BV to walk walk
we heard that the maid was ther
so we waited for her there
benji and doreen came down
waited fir her
and finally she reached
walk down to zack shop
she was there.
she got shockkedf
they confronted her
this was what baby said which maid me laugh
baBy: you say i;ll regret, i;ll never, look at this (pendent) it say never regret loving you.
she was like showing infront of her big eyes
i was laughing lah
the way baby confronted her was scary and funny
but i had to go off for dinner at rendevous
they had chocolate and strawbrry fondue!!
yummy!!!!
then after that walked with my coussies and sis to scc
wee were retarded and talking lots of crap.
after that i'm home now talking to baby.
hahas
iloveyou

today is gan ren day.
hahas\thrashed so many things out.
wat shld i blogged abt
oh ya oh ya!!!
my block was on FIRE!!!
hahas
but only on the 21st floor
heng i stay on the 6th floor
so scary lah
baby and darius scadal.
amazed..'
haha
haahas.
everything i wanna say abt that maid is all in baby blog
shee waste my time and energy lah
CHILDISH
for grace i have nth to say but maybe
i don wanna be frinds with you anymoire
i dont wanna stupidly walk ard this circle again.
seriously afmit whatever you're doin lah
bitch!
fuck off..
waiting for baby to blog finish.
then i'm going to sleep le.

baby sometimes i want my face to..
i'm like a tamed dog.
i know its for my own good..
i dont mind
but sometimes i need my face infront of my frens
same like you wan face infront of your frens.
i'm not asking for much..
but just all this..
i already told you you've been screaming at me
i'm scared.
i told you why already..
i know that i walk away too..
i'll try my best to really understand you..
you have too also...'
or not things wont work out..
but i still have to tell you that my love or you have not changed
in fact i'm falling deeper and deeper each time.
iloveyou-

BOO!!!
hahas
my poor baby is sick.
please take care of yourself okay.
hehes
things haven really been going well for us
cause you were having tremondous moodswings
BUT
we manage to pull thru it ny something called UNDERSTANDING!
hahas
i'm glad. hehes
i love you!!!
anyways,
have been going down to pasir ris to take care of her
and caus she;s lazy to get out of the house.
hahas
lazy bum bum'
but this cant carry on cause your parents are back alredy
sad
so its your turn to come my place!
hahas
we shall save money and lose weight together
so we can look hot and sexy together!
hahas.
i'm a lil crazy now.
hahas
wheeee..........
my poor baby,
i hope you;re feeling better.
or else i drag you to the doctor!!!
hahas
tml you going to pick me up from school!!
then we go cityhall.
haha
then my place for dinner.
good!
hahas
i miss you like crazy and you are like opening gifts now lha
so good!!
hahas

BOO!!!
hahas
my poor baby is sick.
please take care of yourself okay.
hehes
things haven really been going well for us
cause you were having tremondous moodswings
BUT
we manage to pull thru it ny something called UNDERSTANDING!
hahas
i'm glad. hehes
i love you!!!
anyways,
have been going down to pasir ris to take care of her
and caus she;s lazy to get out of the house.
hahas
lazy bum bum'
but this cant carry on cause your parents are back alredy
sad
so its your turn to come my place!
hahas
we shall save money and lose weight together
so we can look hot and sexy together!
hahas.
i'm a lil crazy now.
hahas
wheeee..........
my poor baby,
i hope you;re feeling better.
or else i drag you to the doctor!!!
hahas
tml you going to pick me up from school!!
then we go cityhall.
haha
then my place for dinner.
good!
hahas
i miss you like crazy and you are like opening gifts now lha
so good!!
hahas

baby.
happy eight month!!!
iloveyou-

today was fun fun fun
hahas
woke up in the morning
met benji amd andrea and baby.
followed him to have his hair cut.
then we went to walk ard and all
after that me and baby headed down to my place.
i cook bake rice with lots of MOZERELLA chesse!!
yum yum.
hahas
we pigged out.
hahas
then now baby is at home.
hahas
so sad she forgot something.
talking to you now on the phone.

this blog was only for you and its still for you.
i fucking miss you lah
i tried loving someone else
but it failed
no one could ever ever replace that very special place
i was obviously happy when you said all those to me lah
i'll wait
but make sure you think things through first lah
i'm afraid history will repeat itself
when i was with ahem i was back to my usual self which i hate
i realise that i could only change for you
i realise that i've fallen for you too deeply already
i realise that my life is so different without you
i realise that you're the only one i love truely
i can tell you i dont mind you controlling me
i need someone to tie me down.
i hope your impression of some of my frens changed.
i know theirs did
cause they told me that they're really happy to see me with you.
i just want you to think really careful
i dont wanna pressure you anymore
i will wait for you.

imissyou
iloveyou

it seems like you're avoiding me.
i dunno why
maybe you're thinking of some stuffs today
so i shall disturb you
but i hope you'll tell me even if it hurts
but whatever it is i'll still stand strong
and try my best to work things out
i have total faith in you and our relationship
things are going to work out well right?
i hope so..
i plan my vday and my special days already
hahas
hope you can make it on those days
so my plan can work
hehes
anyways i cant wait to see you tml lah
smile alright!
i wanna see you happy again :D

i swear i love you with all my heart
dont say you're not worth it.
you are.
iloveyou and imissyou--

did our relationship get worse?
i hope not
i really wanna pull through all the stress we have together
i'm sorry for being not understanding and pissing you off most off the times.
i'm sorry for being so childish
i'm sorry to irritate you
i'm sorry for every single thing i've done to you
i feel like a lousy girlfriend
always making moody
making your mood worse
but i'm very scraed to lose you again thats all
you ask me to treasure you and so will you
i am really treasuring you alot!!!!
i miss you..
when i said i miss you i heard nth but okay
as if i was talking to myself
when you kinda say that you dont miss me
i''m really scared
i asked you whether you sure with your feelings
you said i dunno
i got more scared
i feel very confuse
but i'll still concentrate on my studies
baby i'm very lost in your words
if you're willing to give ourselfs somemore chance
i think things will really work up
i think our problem is that both of us are really hot tempered
for you i'm really willing change
i'm willing to do anything for you
even death
evry minute i'm thinking of you..
i hope you are too..
i want you to be very honest with me even if its hurts
but sometimes i rather not know anything thats gonna hurt
i'm lost..
i dunno what to do..
all i know that i wanna be with you
and to change myself not to make you moody
you told me that you're gonna hold my hand and and not let me go
and walk through this together
i want you to share all your probs with me.
i'm just very SORRY for everything..

i'm so freaking stress with everything.
school is really giving me tons ad tons of stress
i'm gonna break down already
i'm sorry for all my moodswings
i cant help it.
its just that i'm really stress
i cant take all my moodswings already
i gonna die
school sucks!!!!
i dont wanna go school already!!!
fuck!
could you understand me
and help me pull through this period of time
encourage me.make me happier.
i really need you by my side now
to support me all the way
other wise i will really go mad
will you?
i dont want you to say anymore things to scare me
i feel very insecure and scared like a little girl
each time you say such things.
i'm scared that i lose you again
i dont wanna lose you again
the feeling is horrible
i can tell you that no matter what
your the only one i love.

hellos people.
hahas
i think no one else reads my blog except you.
hahas
i actually pay attention in class today lah
hahas
except for chinese and geog
hahas
i have motivation by you!
hhas
i'm falling sick!!!
my gastric problem is like everyday now
every few hours lah
even if i eat also got.
after school went to pick you up after your school
you maluated me lah.
make me got bioo by two other people and a sea of yellows
hahas
stupid
after that went to have lunch at lido ljs
then went to far east to look for benji and walk around
after town went to bugis with you and met my mom
was talking rubbish..
i'm really feel very sickkkkk!!!
might not be able to go to school tml
haiii.........
dont pon netball because of me lah.
netball to you is very impt
if you miss one training then i dunno
hmmm...
up to you...
waithing for my grandma to come home now
tell her something then i going to sleep already
for now, cheeros people

ILOVEYOU-
promise me that you will never leave me again and that you will be honest with me for everything. i can really change for you.i'm afraid to lose you again. i really love you.

You've been the first in my life
Who has ever made me feel this way
And I will not deny
I'm gonna need you right here
By my side
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(by holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(until the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
Now that you're here, boy I'm never gonna let you go
Can I touch you there, oh
Do you mind if we kiss real slow
You're my everything
You're my hopes and dreams
Baby, you know it ain't no lie I'm gonna be with you till the day I die
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(no no, til the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]
You're the one that lights my fire
You're the one that keeps me strong
You're the one that I depend on
When my world is goin' wrong
You're the one that I hold closer
You're the man I'm dreaming of
And I really really love you
I just want you to know that

[CHORUS 2X]
I can't wait till the day I hear you say
You're the one that
I need You're the one that
I'll keep For all time

this is what is truely feel.
i really love you
and i dont wanna lose you again

baby is in camp now lah
leave me all alone
so mean!
hahas

MONDAY
stayed at home the whole day
i miss that stupid girl!!!
hehes
i miss you
hehes
hmmm...
nothing much to post abt ytd..

TUESDAY
hmmm..
woke up at 1 plus
suppose to meet cherre at 3
but in the end she said she had something
stay at home to wait for time to pass sso i could meet baby
hehes
later might be staying at my friends place
we're gonna crap and make things for christmas
but i think i'll be back in the morning
if i'm going to her place
that means i'm sending my mum off
then going to have supper with my dad
going to be home real late
cause my mum is leaving at abt 11 or 12 liddat
hehs

baby i'm going to meet you now

things are also changing for me.
you said i've change
maybe to you i've change to the worst
i'm sorry for that
our relationship is turning sour
i also want it to be smooth
we keep arguing
your moodswings are scaring me
you're also changing
i hate the state we are in now
i hate it!!
i also need your understanding
need your care
need your love
need your patient
need your gentle touch
need your little sweet words to make me smile
you're not a failure
i've let you down more than you let me down
obviously i'm loving you like i used to
infact i've fallen too deep for you
i'm willing to give up everthing for you even my friends!
i will keep my promises that i've made

i really dont want our relationship to carry on liddat
today i've tried my best not be so childish or irritating
i dont wanna see you sad or angry
i only wanna see smile like you always do
i miss the times when we always smile
i miss the times when we always play
i miss the times when we were so close
i miss everything
why did this thing happen
and made our life like this
everytime i meet you or talk to you ,
you seem to be moody
i'm sorry if i was the one that cause it

i'm just very sorry for everything!

Invasion from the one and one one...

Baby Dun wan to blog...
You are so mean can...
Pls be nice and start blogging ok...
Anyway....
We finally got our Adidas watch!!!Weeeeee...
Been spending the past few days wif ya...
ANd thanks for coming down to my place to study wif me...=)
One weeks time will be da 18th nov!!!!
Time past real fast when I'm wif you...=D
Oh ya...ANd pls take care k...
SOmeone is sick...
Drink lots of water alritez...
If only I can be wif you 24/7 then I will be able to look after you...
Anyway I'll be seeing ya later...
Can't wait...

Oh ya...Someone is so addicted to da tv now...
Sigh...=( It is now place above me...How sad...
Eh!!!Cannot hor!!!

Right now you are in sch...
msg you but I got no reply...
I'm waiting...Still waiting...
Hurry reply me!!!=X

happy third month baby!
i wanted it special and you really made it really really special.
iloveyou.

anyways.
went to town with cher then i met baby.
went home with baby.

cook for her while she was doing her things.
then later when i went into the room.

she gave me our third month give.
it was a vcd with a letter and a note.

she played the vcd for me.

the vcd really got me moved to tears.
you are just so thoughtful.

putting all our photos together and made it a video

you are the first person that got me moved to tears for a very special gift.
i seriously love you lots!!!

then later baby bluffed me that we are going night safari.
ya right.

we ended up at the airport

and ate swensens.
i so knew it from the start.

baby.

i'm sorry for being unreasonable and being a total bitch sometimes.
but i thank you for controlling.

somehow i wonder how you really give in to me all the time.
but thats just something i really love abt you.
tolerance,patience,caring...
you're like an angel god has given to me.
you are just so precious to me.
i'm never going to let you go.
i want you all to myself!!!
although when i'm feeling really down

and you cant be there with me physically

but i could still feel your presence mentally.

you never fail to make me smile.

in fact you made me smile happily again!
you gave me this very special feeling that no one else has ever gave me before.

that feeling tells me that you're the right one.

that feeling tells me that my life is perfect.

that feeling tells me that i'll die without you.

that feeling tells me that you are my only one.

that feeling tells me that i'll never find someone like you.

that feeling just tells me that i'm blissfully in love!!!

i love you baby!!!!
fogive me for all my childishness kaes?
mwahs
<3333>

Silly little one had been hving exams for the past few days...
And someone happily not wake her up tis morning...
She thinks she will not do well...
But I think you would..=)
Dun worry k...
followed baby to get her haircut...
then walked ard town...
got a new bag!!!
Alritez...I say its nice...
Guess tats abt all...
Been studying and can't wait for exams to be over..
little one is too lazy to blog...
Therefore I'm updating on her behalf...

Blogged by:Little Prince

And baby tis is sth for you...=)

I think of You

When I’m down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I’m sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and ‘round
I can’t seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I’ve believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

Is think of you
I think of you and it’s gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I’m strong
And I know I can go on
It’s like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there’s nothing I can’t bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won’t break
Through it all I’ll make it through
Cause all I have to do is think of you

sometimes...

..missing someone gets easier everyday. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will..

Helping tis lazy bum to blog now..
Lazy bum is in front of me...
Toking on da fone...
Sigh...need to go home now....
I wish I can stay long...
Eh...Follow me home can??HAha...
I'm like so so late...tks to who??
Alritez...Need to run now...
LAzy bum!!!
U got to update yrself hor...HAha...

Ps:I Love U

blogged by little prince

BABY!! STOP SUANING ME!
hahas.
i'm high!!!
hahas
she's high oo.
anyways didnt go to school today.
wasnt feeling very good.
hahas.
baby didnt feel like going to school to day
but she tot she got test.
so i went back to sleep.
then at nine plus she called me and said she was in town!
oh my!
hahas
i tot she pon sch lah.
hahas.
but she was having some break thingy all the way until 2
so slack.
she wanted me to go down.
i really wanted to but i was still tired and very sick.
so i carried on sleeping until 12 i think.
then i called her.
she wanted me to go town again.
but i wanted to nua.
hahas.
so i nua-ed all the way until she finish school.
i was addicted to the tv.
hahas.
it was 4 ans i was wondering why she still haven call.
cause she was having some debate thing and her sch is gonna end late.
sobb.
it was 5 when i met her at tp
to acc her to novena to get her shoe!
hahas.
went back to tp then met hk
then baby tutor her maths
while i stoned!
for dunno how long lah!
lols.
went back to interchange.
wanted to go home already
then joelle called and ask me to meet her awhile
to suan some ppl.
she damn bo liao lah.
left at abt 9 plus.
baby sent me back by cab.
hen she went home.
and we're on the phone now!
hahas.

gawd
i'm having ultimate moodswings man!!!
maybe its because of someone mentioning someone.
hahas.
i'm thinking too much lah.
hahas.

i cant meet you like tml!!!!
you have netball and i'm goin to rot.
oh my.
then on wed and thurs you have something.
might meet and might not meet.
haii.
I MISS YOU BABY!

baby!!!!
i miss you!!
hahas
thanks alot for that surprise you gave me!
hahas.
baby called me then she ask me to meet her in town.
then later she called again and said she meet me at my house there.
i was like why why why!!!
hahas.
she didnt wanna tell me anything.
she make me rush like nobody business for nothing.
hahas.
then later she called and ask me go down to my void deck to meet her.
so while walking down the stairs.
i saw someones head popping out.
and it was baby!
she gave me a shock lah!
thank goodness i didnt do any stupid things.
phew~~
she gave me a sunflower!
i was really speechless.
that was really sweet of you.
hahas.
i was so touched i felt like crying.
hahas.
i really love that flower!
mwahs.
you never fail to put a smile on my face!
mwahs mwahs mwahs.
hahas.
i love you!
anyways.
went town walked around far east then went taka to buy food!
hahas.
yum yum.
then went to hk house there to wait for her.
while waiting.
we pigged.
hahas.
then hk came down.
we talked talked talked
then baby sent me to tp control station then she went home.
hahas.
okays.
see i'm giving you something to read now.
hahas.

baby.
you are the most impt thing in my life!
i really really love the flower!
MWAHS

happy one month baby!
iloveyou!

you are my everything.
i love you with all my heart.
my feelings for you cant be expressed in words.
but I LOVE YOU.
short and sweet.
hahas.
thanks for the gifts baby.
MWAHS

iloveyou

i shall be nice to baby and blog
shall talk abt today.
met hk and baby at 11
met baby first then walked to hk house and WAITED for her.
hahas.
baby stays the furthest and reached there the first.
i stay not near and not far.
i reached 2nd.
while hk stayed the nearest she was last!
hahas.
met already went to 126 for breakfast at ah jun there.
then went to tp enter mac and STUDIED!
hahas.
studied for one hour plus
and then collected out photos.
i love it!
hahas.
went back to enter.
eat again.
hahas
we are pigs
hahas.
while walkin out of enter.
saw my daughter! [yuan may]
hahas.
so happy lah!
so long never see her already!
hahas.
then talk and talk and talk and talk and TALK
hahas.
met ah jun
then hk and ah jun played pool.
after that ah jun went to eat.
then played com.
then baby sent me home again.
hahas.
all i noe is that hk and baby took alot of pics with my phone!
they suer zhii lian lah.
hahas.

iloveyoubaby.
mwahs

wheeeeeeeeeeeee
i'm high!
hahas
ytd i had fun!
saw fire work with baby at the esplanande!
shiok!
hahas.

today met baby early in the morning.
hahas.
went to st anne but my grandma left without us.
sad case.
sacrifised me and baby's sleep.
hahas
after that went to get my dance stuff.
hahas.
bought food back to my house.
baby was so unclefied
hahas.
went my house.
ate.
i was so into the com.
baby had to feed me.
hahas.
after that.
baby helped me cut stars,Gs
hahas
i think she cut until she went mad.
hahas.
i was going crazy.
do the dance thing until i very stress.
i'm dropping hair!
how how how?
3 more days and its over.
aint going to schoo l tml.
going for blood test,
hahas.
after that then go school.
hahas.

anyways.

baby i love you.
u mean the most in my life.
my love for you cant be express in words.
you make me smile and laugh.
i dont what would i do without you
and where will i be without you.
THANK YOU BABY!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!
MWAHS!

blog blog blog.
hahas.
went a lil mad in class.
suan miss tan alot!!
hahas.
shall be nice and not talk abt it.
hahas.
after school had dance prac till 4 liddat.
hahas.
got bullied by the juniors!
hahas.
baby reached my sch abt 5.
i ran out and told her to wait awhile more
cause i needed to wait for cherleh.
hahas.
i was like dying in sch.
cause of two reasons.
1st. i wanna see baby badly.
2nd. i was breathing in bad air.
hahas.
me,baby and fellow friends.
walked to interchage.
as usual i was making a fool out of myself.
hahas
BRAINBLOCK!!!
cant rmb wat to write
oh ya.
we went to ec and slack as usual.
sent cherleh home.
then went to snip my hair.
hahas.
after that baby sent me home.

baby. dont spend so much money okays.
your heartaches mine will too okays.
ILOVEYOUBABY <33333333333

hmmm.
was freezing in school lah.
after school got caught for my belt.
hahas.
but nothing happened.
hahas.
heng arh.
after school went home to shower and change
then met baby at tp.
i was early for once.
hahas
then we went enter to meet my daughters.
hahas.
we bitched about ppl.
as usual.
hahas.
me and baby left 1st.
we went to far east cause baby wanted to cut hair.
hahas.
while waiting for her to cut her hair i was playing with her phone.
LAME.
after that we kinda walked around far east.
walking walking then someone scream my name
it was joelle.
hahas.
stupid asshole.
hahas.
after that we took a MRT down to city hall
then we went to esplanade.
hahas.
we ate thai express.
yum yum.
hahas.
baby and i went a lil mad in the restaurent
hahas.
baby was eyeing on this butch that was a cheft.
hahas.
naughty naughty.
hahas
after that baby bought chocs for me!
hahas.
we went outside esplanade to slack.
hahas
the sky was purple.
cool eh.
we sat by the river side and slack.
hahas
was playing a fool.
baby is so irritating.
keep disturbing my EAR!!
hahas.
i kept whacking her boobies.
hahas.
she is so slim lah.
jealous.
hahas.
in the end i disturb her too at her EAR!
hahas
the secret is revealed!
hahas.
we slack for 2 hours i think.
hahas.
we sat there until about 10.
we wanted to cab home
but had to find a atm machine.
walked to marina square.
they said there wasnt any POSB machines here.
so we walked to raffles city.
drawed money already.
then went to flag a cab.
no cab wanted to pick us up lah.
waited and waited.
finally i got into a cab.
went i was just about to msg baby something.
she called and said she board the cab already.
hahas.
reach home.
shower and everything.
waiting for baby to finish my letter and to blog later
and her call laters.
hahas.

had a really really great day today.
THANKS AlOT BABY.
you simply made my day!!!
ILU and IMU truckloads

i'm freezing!!!
hahas
anyways.
went ot meet baby abt 1
hahas.
then we went to STUDY
amazing?!?!?
hahas.
walked halfway my slipper broke.
had to go get one.
thanks baby.
atudied then hk and grace came.
hk and baby went to okayed two rounds of pool.
then we went to interchange mac to slack awhile.
we slacked to around 5.
then baby accompanied me home to change.
then we went bishan.
walked around.
bought yakitori
and went to a void deck and eat.
so full lah.
slacked there awhile.
went to tp.
met huiling.
baby bought me marshmallow and honey stars.
hahas.
went parco to see huiling play her com.
slack there also about 9 plus we left.
while waitng for the bus i sawmy sis!
my piggified sis wanted to eat so she went to buy food and we missed the bus,
hahas.
we did stupid things in the bus lah.
hahas.
baby was laughing all the way.
reached home and i'm talking to baby now!
hahas.
i miss you lah can.
hahas
anyways today was a GREAT GREAT day.
hahas
MWAHS MWAHS MWAHS
*ilu::imu::baby

while waiting for baby to shower.
i shall blog abt ytd.
hahas
hmm
baby was late for work.
hahas
i slept like a pig all the way to 1 plus i think.
woke up showered everything then went to town.
hahas
met my daughter dan and my god grandaughter jade.
hahas.
walked far easr and realised i wanna buy so many things.
i wanna buy that green top.
those shoes.
some pants.
and those skirts.
hahass
can i buy the whole far east?
hahas
was waiting for baby to end work.
time pass so slow lah.
hahas
me dan jade walked to heeren to take neos.
omg! its damn nice lah.
hahas
finish taking neos.
baby was about to reach.
like finally.
hahas.
met baby.
walked dan and jade halfway to the bus stop.
hahas.
baby was hungry as usual.
then went crystal jade and eat.
so full lah can.
and i ate all my food.
hahas. =p
after went to far east to see those shoes.
hahas
went to bugis to get baby's berms.
hahas.
should i say the size????
hahas
i'm not so mean lah.
but we walked up and down th e same lane.
my friend must be thinking wat the hell are we doin.
hahas
after that we went tp to slack awhile.
hahas
then baby sent me home.
and she gave me my letter!!!
hahas.
that stupid girl arh i gg to blog finish le she still haven shower finsh.
hahas

baby i love you. and i miss you sooooooooo much!
hahas
thanks for every single thing you did to make my life much much better.
LOVES

heylos.
baby keeps pestering me to blog!
hahas
had a great and tired day today.
woke up 5.10 thanks to chow.
stupid cookies.
she gave me a fright lah.
appear at my house.
somemore i was in my pajamas.
hahas.
was like falling asleep in class.
hahas
was like waiting for baby to end sch so that i could meet her.
hahas
she said she's not goin for training.
i was so happy.
cause i tot i could meet her earlier.
but i was in sch helping dan dan out for the carnival tml.
hahas.
i'm soo nice.
hahas.
helped her until bout 5 plus i guess.
then rushed down to bugis to meet baby.
hahas.
went there.two of her friends were there too.
hahas.soon their bf(s) arrived.
hahas
was fun.
then on the way to take the mrt to tp.
i went a lil high.
hahas.
baby was trying to control my highness.
but its not working baby.
hahas
went to cold storage.the fresh food people.
fooled around there.
i went super high..
hahas.
baby sent me home again.
hahas
gave her her letter.
talking to her on the phone now since like? 11 plus?
hahas.
i doze off awhile while waiting for her to blog.
she was so nice to TAKE HER OWN SWEET TIME!!
hahas. so sweet rite
hahas
now i have to wait for baby to end work tml so that i can meet her.
hahas
cant wait!!!!
hahas
you better finish your journal then write my letter.
but DONT take your own sweet time.
or not the next letter i write to you. i will take my own sweet sweet time too.
hahas.

*ilu baby
MWAHS

i screwed my home ec pratical lah!
hahas
not really in the goo mood today.
i dunno why.
hahas
after school. had to wait for chow for something.
saw jh and jayne at the canteen so i wait with them
chow arrived.
then have to wait for jayne's
hahas
finally arrived.
they took so long.
even when baby end school i still haven leave school.
hahas
i pon danceamania prac.
hahas
met baby then went entertainment just for awhile.
hahas
then we went town.
went cine.
ate CHEESECAKE! yummy!
hahas
walk to heeren then went to meet cherre somewhere.
hahas
carried on walking and walking.
hahas
i cant count the number of the number of times i adjusted my uniform.
hahas
baby sent me home. hahas


baby.baby.baby.iloveyou.<333
thanks for everything.
MWAHS!

i love you BABY.
mwahs mwahs

today was rather fun..
woke up.
went home. change everything.
then met yuan may and samantha at enter
ate then went fareast to meet jia wei.
then we walked to heeren to meet cherre.
cherre was takin neos with crystal
after tat we went bishan to take neos.
took with cherre then took with jo and jia wei.
then went back tp
then went home..
haii..
so sian...
hahaha

From the day that I saw you.
I knew that we would pursue.
Cause the chemistry we felt that day.
Felt so real, and so true.
Looking back on a year we spent together.
How it's been, what we went through.
Although we had our little ups and downs .
We've still pulled through.baby.
My love for you will never end.
You'll always be a part of me.
As long as time keeps on passing by.
You'll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,I can't believe.
I've found a love so true.
and i took my time to put my trust in you.
I must admit it was so hard to do.
And every minute that I spend with you.
You make me believe I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine.
Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be.
Without you I'll be lost,
I need you next to me
From day one I was sprung,
knew you was gonna be one.
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while.
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up together.
If you were to go, I don't know
You're the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makesmy heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you're my, my sweet lov
eEver since the first time,that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,when you're not by my side.
You're the only one that's on my mind
I never knew a love like this,
a love so strong


does this sound familiar to you.
i remmber.
i shall put it in simple words.
i love you.

trying very hard to forget you.
wish to get back to my normal self when i was very cheerful
and not the depress me.
grace told me that since before the hols .
i have been sad
all the way until now.
i have been thinkin of you.
thats why i'm iddat.

and to passerby and stranger.
just who are u ?
dont keep low profile.
why not u just tell me.
i bet u now me and my number.
can u just like sms me or call me to tell me who you are?
i will keep low profile.
thanks

shattered-
can you hear my heart shattering?
i bet u cant..
my heart hurts like mad you know?
i bet u dunno
i dont think you even know i still have very STRONG feelings for you.
your profile changed.
you are deeply in love with another girl now.
you told me you still love me.
have you forgotten what you said?
did you even mean it?!?!?
now its REALLY impossible for us to get back together already.
although i know u will never get to read this but..
i've gotta say..
you know the day we break.
is the day i knew REALLY love you.
and when i just wanted to sms to tell you.
your sms arrived.
saying to break.
i was in school. i ran to the bus stop crying like mad.
i bet u didnt know either.
although that was one year ago.
i still could remember all the happy times we had
in about nine months.
we got together on 181203 10.30pm
i could remember everything.
i tried very very hard to forget you.
but i just cant.
you're the first person that i love soo deeply.
i told most of my steads after you that i still love you deeply.

i just feel speechless now-
can someone help me?

the past is the past..
now i wanna start a new and different life..
all the heartaches i had with you
is all over..
i feel so relief now..
i have one lesser heavy burden..
you've hurt me alot..
but now?
who cares..
you cant control me anymore!
i hate it when u control me
scold my frens
thank god its all over..

i feel hurt...
i fell real hard
but i m still sorry
i m a lousy gf
i suck!
i am heavy burden to everyone
why did i even come into this earth
why cant i just die now!
argh!!!

y cant it still be like last time?
now u are treating me like a stranger
when you ask me to patch?
and i agreed
cos you were the one tat told me u still love me
and i told u that i really love you alot.
i dont mind
whether you are a good person or not
i love you for who you are
and for this time i am sure with my feelings
that i really really love you alot
i nvr love someone soo much.

ytd...
all i wanted was to spent more time with you
and you asked me to go home
i felt very hurt when u said that
cause i noe soon
when he comes back..
i cant spent alot of time wit you already.

and i noe my exams are around the corner.
i am already studying very hard already
i m tryin my best already...
i just felt so hurt and sad ytd..
you hurt me and i still said sorry to you
but you chose not to reply any of my smses
i felt worse when u didnt even reply me
when i kept sayin sorry...
i just feel like breaking down and cry...

if you read this..
all i wanna ask is that
you wanna patch izzit because
you dun wan me to be with em or what
i hope not..
cause i really really really love you alot!!

i just feel like a total loser now
i feel horrible
i just feel like endin my life..
but i live because of you

hais
i have nth to say le
-peaace out

argh! i failed maths!!! i cant believe it lah! jus by half a mark!
miss chong is makin me hate her can....
all thanks to that stupid mrs yip...
miss chong had to scold us and like ignore us
BITCH!!!!

sports day! 

it seriously hurt me when u said that...
its like peircing a thorn through my heart...

today was quite alrite
went out wit cherre and dar
bought a top and made my bag
i love it!
thanks dar for the bag!
muacks

yao made cherre pissed lah
haiyo tat made me a little angry also

anyways this mornin
dar was in bad mood
then smsed me and said maybe she not gg
so i tell her to tell me whether she gg? by 12
if she not gg then i ask my fren to go
then she said
call lah call lah
ask your ex lovers to go
i got angry and sad
cos it was rather mean of her to say tat lah

went to dar house to slack
hahas
went home and chat with dar online

hahas
dar is so sweet can
hahas
she said when she work next month"she will give me 200 or more every month
so sweet!!!
i got so touched
hehes
she go makan now
so i blog to keep myself awake to wait fer her
hehes

dar!!!
i love you!!!
muacks muacks muacks!
make up fer today
hahas

my post so short cos i accidentally deleted the previous post
hahas

lalalalala
hmmm...
wat should i post today???
had pe today!!!
so tiring can?!?
run until my legs the both knee pain lor
but who cares
only cant walk properly only mahs

called dar to wake her up...
yulica and mandy embarresed me lah!!!
i go look for them.
then they go ask krystle to come out!
i run.
they pull me!!!
haiyo
kanna bullied!
then had art!
zailee is so stupid
i was like waitin for lessons to end lah!!
then during lesson time she keep callin and callin
then it kept vibratin and vibratin
lesson finally ended!!!
hooray!!!
then met cherre to go ec together
then cherre waited for ahem to come
while i waited for dar to come
dar took so long lah
but nvm...
hehes

met at ec le..
then crapped and crapped
then about 7 go back
dar sent me home
and came my hse
as usual
then we had dinner at the market
yummy
then went home
watch tv
then at about 10
dar went home
i sent her to the bus stop
then yah lor she left...
so sad..

went home wanted to sleep..
but..
i wanted to chat to dar
so i waited for her to come online..
and now she online le..
hahas

shall pen off here...
hehes
love ya!!
muacks!

heys
was at dar house just now
the have ta leave to go for cath class
reach there... there was so little ppl there.. then i was like omg!
when i went up... every1 was up there
hahas
lesson ended early today...
after lesson i walked to dar house again
helped her create her blog
hahas
dar was playin with my hair
then she felt like styling it
so she went to take her wax and started styling
and it turned out nice!
hahas
then i stayed there until 10 plus then i went home
i reached home
have my dinner
screwed dar's blog
hehes
did a little of my homework
and downloadin songs into my mp3
and now blogging...
hahas

this is for *you*
i gave you my heart
so dont break it
its fragile

-loVe yOoU-

me::emu  

-pouts-
i m so gonna gain weight all thanks to someone tats makin me eat
but i still love you anyways
hahas
muack muack

life have been better thanks to *you* hehes
thank you

ArC is really rather stressful but i still love the ppl there!
and the next competition comin up will be space which i will be takin part in
so excitin!!!
hahas

I had a great time with you today
hehes

tats all i m gonna say
hehes

i miss dancin alot alot alot!!!!
haiz... especially my rolls!
hahas
miss those days when i dance nearly everyday!

today was a fun day...
1st went to school and craped with the seniors
then went to meet josephine and emu to watch boogeyman!!
the story line was okay lah.. but the sound effect made me jump!!!
hahas
then later we went to shop around in town... then we went down to tp cos emu and jo wanted to cut their hair...then i went home to change....
after i change.. i went to meet them...
trust me! they look good after their newhairstyle!!
after that went ec... while walkin we saw grace...
yeah!
so i hang out wit her at ec while waitin for hui shan to come...
hui shan came...
we talked... then i went home..
browsin through friendster... i saw two person's profiles
i got so sad when i saw it...
i started tearin...


love hurts!
seriously...
why do u still make me think that u still like me alot when u like another girl more?!?!
unless u are lyin to yourself!
i rather wait 4 u!
but y of all people that girl!
first she is my friend... and we always like the same people and she gets that some1..
wats so good about her?
she only like ppl cos of their looks... or cos she is jus DESPERATE!!!!
i jus noe her too well!
i love u so much and u broke my heart into pieces!!!
if u read this.. can u pls pls pls tell me whether u still like me and wats the reason u broke with me!!!
i really wanna noe!!!
u just left me all alone in a second...
u hurt me so so much and yet i still love u more and more!
but so? u dont appreciate it!
u think tat lettin me wait is horrible!
while i think that u breakin my heart is worse!!!
y must u make me hate you!
why?!?!?!?!?!?!?
ARGH!!!!!
i m gonna break down!!!!
why not i just end my freakin life!!!
without me life will be so much betta
and i will not get hurt by u more!!!