i dunno what can i do to make you smie again
i'm trying real hard
but you still haven cooled down.
all i can do is maybe give you the time to cool down
i wanna hug you so tight now i tell you everything is alright
but can i ? i wished i can
i'm seriusly not blaming you for anything
i know you are changing
i'm supporting you all the way
including my frens like darius
please dont pressure yoursef too much
cause you're good enough already
you're already perfect in my eyes
i know things haven been good for you
you want me to share my unhappiness with you
i want you to share it with me
even if i cant do anything to solve it
at least you know you can always count on m when you need me
my heart hurts to know you scald you're hand
but what can i do now. i feel useless for not hugging you right now
i never once did blame you or anything
i blamed myself for maybe trying to tie you down too tight
now you can hardly breathe
you can say its my fault to be so protective over you
cause i dont want you to get urt in anyway
i want the best for you
but if now the best for you is to let you breathe
i will
you know what
i dont care about label. you should know that right from the start
to me theres no such thiings as what a bung is suppose to do what a passive is suppose to do
as longg as both are giving and taking
its good enough
cause when you love,you and me have the freedom to do what a bung or passive is suppose to do
i felt very bad about that
for lowering you're pride
i lowered mine alot alot too you knwo
i already apologised to her
you should know no matter how wrong i am i wont say sorry
but i still did for you to have that pride back in you
i promise no such thing will hppen again
we're both gettin haunt by nightmares
so afraid that it'll all come true
but i've told yu this before
as long as we still love each other
nothing is impossible
i know you're crying too.
i can nvr bear to let you cry or be angry with you for even 15 mins
cause i know you are sorry and you'll try notto let it happen again
and cause i love you
tell me now...
do you still want this r/s
do you wanna save it
cause if you do...i really wanna do all things to make it good
do you still love me
do you need that space
case if you do i'll give it to you
as long as i see you smile
i'm wiling to sacrifice everything just for you even myself
have faith in the both of us
i was so paranoid cause i'm afraid whatif you got tai ji again
or you very sick how
sorry about it
but its just me. sorry.
i didnt meant for this to happen
sorry.

so many thiings happen
and it did change somethings
you ask whether there is somthing in between
yes there is, theres obviously a fear in me
i'm so insecure
when you're with me is your heart and mind too?
am i the only one you think about
am i the only one for everything
when its time to meet me
you dont seem to have any sense or urgency
when you meet your friends
you rush
when you're suppose to meet me at that time
the time will keep changing to a few hours later.
all i can say now is i'm scared and insecured
can you prove that you're really worth it
and not change for just that few days or weeks or just that 1 month
i'm giving time to you to change
you know how long i haven heard a i love you and i miss you and some sweet stuff from you
but please say it only when you mean it
and it seems like you wont message me unless i message you
sometimes you dont even reply
i dunno
please dont make me let go and hold myself back even more.

i'm at baby's house now
just cooked for baby nick swan van and cyn
thanks cyn for helping =)
swan's fried mars bar failed
hahas
i was doing all the washing lah
hahas

ytd was our 3rd month
=)
baby
days were tough for us
we had so many ups and down
no matter how much jade and swan said not happy then break lah
we still hold on to this relationship and love =))
there were times when we have cold wars
there were times when we cried
there were times when we argued
there were times we nearly lost each other
but we pulled through it all
my heart was dropping
when you were so cold to me
when you shout at me
when you scold me
it happen in the pass few days
i was so sad and all
cause you are still troubled with your stuff
i hope you will really be fine again
i can assure you that my love for you never ever did change
i'll do anything just for you
i hope when you say you'lll be my good good gf
it'll happen.
cause i'm already puttin in alot for you
but i still love you no matter what =)
i really wanna be with you forever
the word forever and pure love
was cancelld out of my life
ever since i was hurt and cheated so many times in the pass
tilll i met you. then i believe in the two words once again
so sweep me off my feet so easily
just by looking into your eyes i can melt
i'm all yours;
treasure and cherish me please
will you do anything just for me?
hmmm
i dunno
loves you