LADEEDAM!
hahas
i collected my results today
mr yap was making no sense
he's one stubborn man
told him that my parents wont interferre he just wont listen
he was shock when he heard things from me and my sister abt my family
yes, my family looks perfect
but inside all of us, its broken
theres no more warmth already
all we do at each other its scream at each other
thats why i dont like going home
we cant even have a decent meal together at the same table
it was nvr possible
and its not going to be possible already
sigh.. nvm

after results went to inter mac for breakfast with sis
waited for alice and darius to come
hahas
then we headed down to the gym
yeahness
like finally
i'm going to firm my body
and lose all my fats
hahas!
after gym went to tp
oh my it was damn retarded
my sister was stealing my clam chowder
after that we went to the hub gallery
cause suaku darius and my suaku sister dunno whats in there
hahas
we were playing there
like lil kids deprived of childhood
hahas
we took alot of stupid pictures
with the statues
jumping
in the "lift"
infact everywhere
hahas!!!
we spent nearly an hour there
hahas
we took a stupid video too
hahas!
then went to ntuc and bought HAM!!!
yum yum
hahas
will upload the pictures and video soon
hahas
lalalala

and now i'm home
i;m so bored lah can
i think i should be staying at home
THINK
hahas

i know its hard to have you totally
but i'm satisfied with what i have now
i so wish things will work out
and i wish i could have you totally

clear all my doubts
i'm just thinking too much
i;m just afraid to get hurt again
tell me you;re not playing with me
tell me its real
tell me you really love me
tell me you meant every word you said
tell me the truth though it hurts.
the mich now
is really weak
someone pick me up again
i wanna see myself with full of confidence and strong and all
but the mich i see now has none
-pouts

to jade and dan
i dunno if you two are reading
it seems like we're drifting again
it hurts
i think there are some misunderstanding among all of us
dan i was just irritated with you
like how jade was irritated with you
i didnt know how to put it to you cause i was afraid i'd lose you
maybe to you all i seem like i;m just using you all
but i really treat you two as my best friends
i really wanted the three of us to stick together
like the other time when three of us were close again i was so happy and teared
but when i saw three of us sitting at diff table my heart shatt
thsi shows of much i treasured the both of you
you two really mean alot to me
all the best to your o levels

to chow
you emo cock
hahas
thank god you are or else i think once we argue we will nvr give in to each other
thanks for giving in to me all the time
we're both stubborn
you're always true to me
and i'm thankful for that
you were always there for me when i needed you
you showed me you cared and all
word just cant described how thankful i am to have a friend like you
hahas
thanks chow~!!

to darius!!
hahas
we've been through quite alot hur
hahas
you;ve seen all the sides of me
i've seen all the sides of you
you were there for me when i needed you all the time
you show understanding when i was with lyd
you kept complaining that when i'm with her you are forgotten
i was unreachale to you
but in the end you said as long as i;m happy
i really thank god you undersatnd
but now i realised that i havent really done my part as a friend
casue i zhong se qing you
i promise i'll nvr do that again
i'll balance it
hahas
thanks alot darius!:D

i dunno what i'll become without you guys
i really love you guys alot!
you guys mean alot to me
and i hope our friendship will stay strong
you guys lead me back to the right path
when i go onto the wrong path
thanks alot!


You magnify my happiness
When I am feeling glad;
You help to heal my injured heart
Whenever I am sad.
You’re such a pleasure in my life;
I hope that you can see
How meaningful your friendship is;
You’re a total joy to me.
Thank you, friend, for all the things
That mean so much to me--
For concern and understanding
You give abundantly.
Thanks for listening with your heart;
For cheering me when I'm blue;
For bringing out the best in me;
And just for being you.
Thanks for in-depth conversation
That stimulates my brain;
For silly times we laugh out loud;
For things I can't explain.
For looking past my flaws and faults;
For all the time you spend;
For all the kind things that you do,
Thank you; thank you, friend.

hmm
it seems like we're both moving on
thats good
you found someone you like and i've found someone i like
hopefully us and the one we like will turn out good
hahas
all the best to you and her. my fren and you will always be

tell me its real and you're not lying
dont love me for fun girl
love me for a reason
let the reason be love
.....


went to make my ic today
then went tp to meet chow and calli
i was in shorts and tshirt and flip flops only lah
super unglam can!
i was unprepared to go anywhere
i thought we were just going to stay at tp but!
we went tamp mall
to catch xmen3
it was damn nice lah'
i pity chow sit between me and calli
i was pulling one side of her tshirt
calli was pulling the other side
hahas
after that had to wait for chow to end her guitar lesson
so me and calli was walking ard tm to waste 1 hr
hahas
time was passing so slow...
hahas
after that we went to mac for dinner
my god
we were throwing tissue at each other
hahas
talking so loudly
they were stealing my fries
we were laughing our ass off lah
hahas
today was fun fun fun
hahas
i found out something abt darius!!!
hahas!!!
i've got something to blackmail you with DARIUS WONG!
hahas
i'm goin to get a job lah
my allowance is gonna get cut by half!
so i might as well not go out
and not eat
chow i;m going to kill you!!
bluff me lah!!!
say still got my private msges in yr phone
dont wanna let me delete
make a big hu ha in the bus
so pai seh can
end up now you tell me you lying!!!
asshole
you're gonna get it on monday!!
i make sure the doctor poke wrongly!
hahas

SCREW EVERYTHING LAH!!!
FUCK IT!!!
someone just stab me real hard
stop all the crying for me please
my heart is crying and bleeding
so many false hopes and all
god
let me really be happy
and not fake all the smiles and laughter
PLEASE!!
thats all i'm asking for
what has gotten into me?
i wake up everyday
thinkin that things will be fine
but no.
i'm suffering from ********** once again
i'm left speechless now
bye.

netball carnival was a success!!
yeah!
though cheerleading we didnt win
but it was freaking good!
i'm so proud of myself and 3/10!
you all rocked my day
we came in first in netball
third in overall!
great improvement from last year!
hahas
i'm burnt!
stupid sun!!!!
my body i really gonna break
i tore my thigh muscles
thanks to the stunts
cause miss dawn actually bounced on my back
and i did a split
i was paralysed for abt 3 mins
screaming and crying in pain
but then i still had to carry on
i just have to forget abt all the pain i'm having physically
it was hard but..ya
after that swan they all came my place
oh my seriously stop scandaling!
hahas!
i'm so tired now. yawns

i hate my my family
in fact its not even a family!
my sister is a bitch
my mum always side my sister when she's in the wrong
my dad is useless
my grandma is like my mum
my grandpa is useless too
wat kind of family is this?
wheres the warmth we used to share when i was younger
i dont wish to be in this family anymore
i'm really breaking down
i've been tolerating for the past 15 years of my life
you all just made it worse this few days
i had a argument again with my sis and my mum this morning
FUCK MUM IF YOU WANNA SLAP ME< SLAP LAH!! I HATE YOU!!!!
hit me, abuse me, treat me like a slave
whats more?
nothings gonna change but to hate you guys more!
also nag at me why i'm like this saying i always hang out late and blah blah blah you guys dont even make me feel like goin home!
send me into girls home for all i care
i seriously cant be bothered anymore
SEND!!! I KNOW YOU WILL!!

girl. tell me what i'm feeling is right
cause i dont wanna fall too hard
or maybe tell me what i'm feeling is wrong
cause i'm falling deeper and deeper each time i think of you
why? ARGH! i dunno! i'm lost

tearsarejustflowingasitype
someonestopitforme
itcantstopflowing
imverytiredofeverything
imreallybreakingdownalready
godmaybeitstimetocallmealready?
imfeelingmiserableandall
godsavemeplease

yeahness!!!
how great i'm having fever now
no wonder i'm freezing even theres no aircon
hahas
if i still have fever later i still have to got to sch
no choice
i think my body i breaking down
sigh
everything of me is breaking down
i've been dancing non stop
running up and down
teaching dancesteps
getting injuries over old injuries
aching all over
pulling the whole thing together
its not as easy as you think it is
its horrible
i'm like fucking stressed up lah
thanks to the cheer thing
and my results
I HATE MY SISTER AND MY MOTHER!!!
i had a fight with my sister
she left her stupid teeth mark on my hand
and mum. it was her who started it and you scold me!
BIAS!! I HATE YOU!

theres something wrong with me today
i;m just out of my mind!
if i offended anyone
i'm sorry
i;m pmsing lah

i did something that i regreted lah
i shouldnt have sent that msg
it caused some things to happen b/w you and me
stupid michele!

hmmm. shall blog tml.
i'm really tired
and i have dance from 9-5 plus
how nice
somemore tml actually no sch one
have to go back because of that

goodbye world...

谁还记得是 谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说 要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人 记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说怎么说
都没有救 亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂 两个相爱的人
等对方先说找 分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是 你和我要有 两个相反的梦

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

this were nearly the same things you once told me
its all the past.

i hate it!!!
it always happen over and over again!!!
why?!?!?!?!?!?!
i feel like the everyone is playing with me!!!
screw myself!!!
the things you says
hurts even more
i just wanna hide from reality
i just sleep till i nvr wake up
and carry on dreaming
but fuck it!
it;ll nvr happen
unless i die!!!!!!
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!
ARGH!!!!
should i feel angry or sad?
i'm feeling both?
i feel cheated
screw everything lah!!!
everything is not going the way i want
i studied so hard but failed
friendship probs
family probs
relationship probs!
all these make me lose confidence in everything i do
the michele now is a useless piece of shit
she is stupid, dumb, i can nvr do anything right
she lost the war
she lost all her confidence
she lost herself
she lost everything
when will she ever gain all those back
i dunno
everything is just SCREWED!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

update time!
hmmm.
i'm freaking tired this few days
my mood is changing too
getting easily pissed nowadays
i think i'm falling sick too
oh no
must check blood count
scarly i low again
sians....
post exams activites sucks lah
went to jia ying house and stay
freaking shiok
feel like a princess lah
but the couples were scandaling
leave the singles alone :(
so sad lah. we just fell out of love lah
hahas
neways her room is freaking cold lah. use nearly 3 blankies
still very very very cold
slept abt 12 plus 1
then i thought jy cried
cause she sniffed so loud
woke up ask her what happen
she ignored me
the next morning say i wake up half way message
crazy lah.
dream of her swan until like that
hahas
morning ask her to wake me up at 6 plus
she woke me up at 5 PLUS!!!
its an hour difference
tried to fall back asleep but she was yakking away
stupid asshole
when i finally found the moment to fall back asleep
asked her to wake me up at 6.15
she woke me up at 6.10
its alot of diff you know!!!
hahas
then we were nearly late for sch cause got no cab lah
hahas
after sch went ps with joan,lyd,dan,jy,eleanor.swan
to get some stuff for netball carnival
hahas
then went home and i slept for less than half an hour
had to wake up to do some stuff
went out to meet chow and sheila
then talked rubbish
and came home eat and now blogging
hahas
stupid fat pig only know how to eat and sleep
this is lame but ya,
hahas

What's Taking You So Long Baby
So Many Hours So Many Days
我心里的这句话 还是想对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo
站在寂寞的舞台上灯光下拖着自己的
影子音乐重复我们共同 的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱就可以淡忘
明天没有你
In My Heart We'll Never Be Apart
残留手上的香味提醒我在数位相机里
留下的承诺每一封简讯
传出的思念都对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Yeah Yeah
残留手上的香味提醒我在数位相机里
留下的承诺每一封简讯
传出的思念都对你说
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你每分每秒
每一个声音只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你每分每秒
每一个声音只有你撒娇
会让我微笑Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你
Oh Baby I Will Love You Because我都属于你 Yeah

hey girl
why you hurt when you read that
tell me what you're thinking too
i wish i could be the one
that could make you smile
i wish i could be the one who be there for you now
but
everything is just too late
its like wats the point now
if you still love me and so do i?
the things you said that night
just made me gave up
you said everything was all too late
i'm so confused in the world of you and me
you just leave me hanging all the time
yes, i know i'm very contradicting
thats because i dont know what you;re thinking abt
you contradict yourself too
just tell me wat you want
and wats exactly on yr mind
you said we needed a break from each an other
okays. i agreed to it
you can do watever you want
so can i
though its hard for me to live without you and be happy
i'm left with no choice
if i would to tell you i love the old lyd
the one i knew
would you change back?
obviously not
cause when you told me you would all the time
nothing happens
call me selfish for i want you but the old one
but you want me to change to yr ideal gf
and i did change for you but you didnt
thats shows that you dont love me as much as before
so many things you do now shows me you dont love me as much as bfore
i feel insecure because you made me feel that way
you know me so well
you shld know i'm sensitive to everything
and yet i still gt blamed
i'm like that by nature
i believe we're meant to be
but we have alot of test in between
you were unable to stand true to me
you realise when you were with me
you can like someone so easily and
poof! there goes our relationship again
all this shows how much you love me
very little or not at all
you leave me so confuse
you can just leave me there by myself crying
you just leave me there all alone
how nice
girl. all i wanna know is what are you exactly thinking abt
tell me everything frankly
i'll listen

finally exams are over
i'm so relaxed noe
oh yes, go catxh mi3
its nice but yr heart will ache seing the lambo getting bomobed!
oh men
hahas
stayed over at mae's place ytd
talked alot
then went ot meet kaevis at suntec
talked more then dawn came
accompanied her
hahas

as i was walking back home
plugged in
i was thinkin abt you
but i just cant remeber how you look
it seems like memories of you
are just fading away so fast
i dont wish that would happen but its happening
accept it
i still think of you
but its fading away day by day
its a good and a bad thing
you take care when i aint by your side too
remember how i always nagged at you
hahas
drink more water
eat proper meals
take care of your ankles
sleep early
dont use the com too much
sick see doctor or learn how to take care of yourself
tired sleep
i was taking care of yr everything lah
so now that i'm not there
you have to do everything for yrself
until someone will take over that place
and make sures she does the nagging and
she better know how to take care of you
this mite be the last time i'm saying this
just take care of yrself
cause you dont know how to take care of yrself properly
seeya soon

"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.

"Say Goodbye"

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World
i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

i just wanna see you smile happily
and know what you truly want.

ytd was fun fun fun
thanks to lyd ho, jade, dan, swan and nick
met dan at j8 there
then went to lyd house because i was a lil sick and tired
they were acting fishy
i knew what they were up too
sure cook one
and i was right
the part i got shocked waS
i only saw nick shoe
then swan poped out in front off me
got bdae huggs from all of them
ahas
then walked to the kitchen
they baked a cake for me
really touched
they went into the room and cried
because... i think they shld know
then swan came in with a ribbon tied on her head
and ask me to untie
she is my present hahas
damn funny lah
people dont get the wrong idea
then went to eat the food they cooked
after that we were playing in the room
then they went over to my place to drink
hahas
swan treated my room like a playgrond lah
keep hanging on my bed
taking stupid photos
taking random videos
my mu made jade go buy cake for me
syprised lah
i love my mum now
hahas
swan was sad
both of us were crying
then when we stood up and looked at each others
retarded face we started laughing lah
so random
ytd i cry still can burp like five time
and say random stupid stuff to dan dan
live dan dan said shout all you want got nobody
then i was got PAP
and iwas crying until so jia lat
still can joke
hahas
went home with dan
talk to her
msg that pig the whole night
talk to lyd ho and swan on the phone
it was all damn nonsence lah
me and dan ony slept at like 5?
hahas
me and her tried to finish all the liquor
not because i;m sad
i;m happy cause its my bdae
and i just feel damn good
hahs

this moring woke up at 9 plus
then went to church with dan and jade
then had lunch then now i'm at home
going to mug soon
hahas
someone can actually fell asleep while studying
not surprie that she can do it anywhere
hahas
i feel like sleeping
ahash

though i'm hurt
and its hard to let go
but i'm happy now
after letting all my anger and unhappiness go
i realised how much i changed for you
and i was no longer the michele i know anymore
i lost all my friends that are so impt to me
i suffered beacause of you
yes you made me smile
we had many good memories
i cant stand this lydia now anymore
i think i'm still in love with the old lydia
that i fell in love with and used to know
the lydia now we all know
changed to someone that somewhat not faithful anymore
changed to someone that people would hate
we all miss the old lyd
and we still love the old lyd
which is so caring, loving,faithful,friendly and so many more good things
i know you dont care
if you;re happy the way you are now
then be that way

whats goes around comes around
what goes down must come down
thats what i beieve in


right now i just need someone
that love me the way i am
and accept all my flaws
and not make me change into someone i dont even know
cause when you fall for someone
you fall for the way she is
if in the relationship
she wants you to change
she just dont love you that much anymore
she just want you to be perfect to her
dont let yourself suffer in silence
its a free world
do whatever you want

i've learnt so much from this reationship
change for the better for myself
and not to somone whom you dont even know

i guess it was a mistake we patch back again and again
knowing that it wld never be the same
i just love the lyd i fell for
hoping you wld change back
but nth happen
and you dunno what you want
you always get sick and tired of things
you cant stick to one person
thats what i see now

all i can say that
this time i'm really happy
i've got all my friends back
and even my life

special thanks for all my friends that supported me and were there for me

complicated family:
sorry got no more father. will find a better one for you all soon'
thanks for being there for me all the time
and you all didnt think i treated you all like a spare tyre
i'm really thankful for making it one of my unforgetable bdae
you all always make my day. :DD

chow:
sorry for not listening to you most of the times
this time we have all the time in the world
and talk abt anything under the sun
we can go out more often
and get close again as really good friends
thanks for being there for me
no matter how much i changed
you will always make me smile in sch :D

benji:
though we are not very close
cause you are her friend
i guess now you became my friend
hahas
you were there for me too
asking me to cheer up and all
i'm thankful to find a new friend like you
hang out really really soon
at lao di fang
hahas
you make my day too :D

the pig that messaged me:
thanks for helping me
making me smile
you were there for me too
you accompanied me the whole nite ytd
through sms
ahahs
thankful i found a new friend like you too
you make my day too.
:D
and to all my other friends out there
thanks alot
i love you people!!!!
mwahs!!!!!

Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
So good, so good, since you've left

Whoa! I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, since you've left

when you've left,i got every part of me back

i feel damn good. so damn good. feeling damn happy. and this time it's true. im not lying

i hate it i hate
how long more must i wait?
nvm...
haiiiiii
i dunno wat to say
yes i'm impatient
i feel like an irritant
kill me someone
i hate everything now
why?
honey when will y ou be okay?
i'm very distracted already
haiii

deep dpwn inside
i'm shaking
michele ee thinks too much
i should use all these time to think of my gf and studies
why am i thinking of useless stuff
god please dig out that part of my brain that keeps thinking like that
i really wanna stop thinking
so that things will really be okay
iloveyouhunnybunny

heylos
i finally get to see baby
she told me the camp end at 12.30
and when its gg 12 she called and said she was on the way to my place
gave me a fright
cause i didnt have time to prepare babys surprise
hahas
cooked fish for baby to eat.

baby is sleeping like a pig now
hahas
its raining and you have to leave soon
:(
dont even know whether we're meeting tml
you might be going out with your friends
i'm gonna study for my ss
you silly girl
eat more lah
see you lose so much weight my heart pain you know
i'm feeling irritated
i dunno why
pms i guess
haii
guess i shall go off now
i dunno wat else to blog abt
hmmm
hahas